Oh, Saturday Sun - I Met Someone - Don't Care What It Costs - No Ray Of Sunlight's Ever Lost

✨ oh, saturday sun - I met someone - don't care what it costs - no ray of sunlight's ever lost ✨

08•09•20

So let's start with how the reality of my summer job differs from my expectations 😬

Since I have started working, everything in my life has fallen apart. My work out routine died, my motivation to fulfill my passions gone, I had no energy and don't let me start on my mental health. In shortcut - there was almost no employees there, we were constantly working overtime and pressure was incomprehensible.

Anyway - today was the last day for me and I'm infinitely grateful to leave that place 💓

Right now I'm getting myself up off the ground - setting plans, getting back to what really matters to me and having some sweet fun I've been lacking for s o o o long!

Plus I'm coming back on uni in month and a half, so I still have some time to revise & slay that stuff once I'm back 🔥

Hope U all doing great - take a sip of water, relax your shoulders and remember - you're loved and beyond enough❣️

✨ Baby, we were born with fire and gold in our eyes, eyes ✨

15•04•20

I'm not even marking a challenge days counter - not really important right now.

It's been a while. Life's challenging and impressing in many ways.

I've been thinking a lot lately. About many, many things. I couldn't find myself in all of this. Tried but was pretty helpless.

Since I started college life's got me rough. My hormone economy went out of window <- this, to be honest, messed up all my months, starting with September till this day. This wasn't "college experience" I've been thinking about for all these years but I decide I'll manage. Actually, after sleepless nights, crying sessions and questioning half of my existence, but I've decided.

You see, since nothing went in any good way I didn't felt like it's worth it. Failing is good to our growth but when you're falling constantly, you just start to wither.

So I came up with a new idea - let life do it's job. And from this moment on take risks, do all I can do myself, have some joy and try everything I feel deeply inside is good 🌻

Soooo

I started to work more efficiently. Since I think about my work more like a funny thing to do, it became so much easier. Plus, I enjoy it more ✨

I started to say what I think & feel, out loud, more

Am trying to be more in present, to become more mindful

Recently told a fantastic human being, that's she's really important to me 💓

I, FINALLY, fought off something, that has been terrorising me for the past ten years 💪🏼

I've took my hormones after a break. Needed them, definitely

I figured out that we all are wandering blind in the mist. We shouldn't be afraid of our mistakes nor ashamed of them. What we should is to be more brave, because it really pays off ❣️

Anyway, right now I just want to put as much love in my life, relationships, job and world as I'm able 🥰

At the end, that's the only thing I can do and surely I believe that's just enough 🌈

✨ I shoulder every burden, every disadvantage I have learned to manage ✨

02'08'20

This week was crazy - luckily in the good way!

I've got myself a summer job (finally!) as a waitress in local chocolate bar

I went to pay a quick visit to my grandparents, before I'll start working and it was lovely 🥰

I've studied Norwegian A LOT - for fun, I got my borrowed old workbook out and started to read it through, making notes and just, ya know, revising 🙌🏽

In between I was hitting the gym and running like crazy, collecting documents to my new job, organising clothes and in general - being quite busy 😅

Anyway - I'm excited for upcoming week, with all the new stuff I'm going to experience 💖

from now on... ✨

24•01•21

Hello everyone - it's me, after a looong break!

I'm here because I'm going to change something and I'm really proud of myself for doing so 💖

For past year and a half I was studying at one of the top universities in my country. I was proud of that but the price I've paid for this was too high for me - I've paid with my mental health. This uni took my incredibly deep love and passion for Norway and crushed it like it's nothing.

I was telling myself that I'm strong enough, my highschool was the best one in the part of country I was living in back then, so I'm able to survive the best college as well. But... Am I willing to anymore?? Does it meets my values??

For the past year and a half I barely had time for anything besides studying. Like, really. I'm not even speaking about going out at weekend - I'm talking doing some self care at Sunday evening.

Not so long ago my professor told me, that I'm one of the best students on my major. Cute. Week later I was standing on a bridge, trying to commit my second suicide attempt.

I'm on meds and it's hard. I'm terrified but at this same time I KNOW that this change will help me to have a better life. A normal one at least...

I'm changing university, but most likely I'll stay on this same major.

AND LET ME TELL YOU I CAN'T WAIT!!!

So, I'm back, I'm ready to be in a better place. I truly can't wait 💕

With love, Claudia 💗

As you all can see, I'm currently not active, even if I've previously started my productivity challenge.

To be honest the whole quarantine thing got me hard with procrastination and my "one day of a break" been... well, quite long 😅

I was working but wasn't really consequent. Did few photos for posts, nevertheless never posted them.

Right now I've stucked with rather large pile of work I REALLY NEED to do and therefore I'll stay off the internet as much as it's possible.

I don't know when I'll be back on this blog. There's higher possibility to see me on my other two blogs (mentioned them in my first post).

Anyway, hope y'all doing great 💓 Take care, be careful, give yourself some love and stay strong - we're going to get through this 💪🏼

much love, my lovely beings 💛

✨ 'cause your happiness don't need a censor - just mind your own and we'll keep owning it ✨

23•04•20

Well, isn't that me, back on medication, motivated and ready to slay?? ✨

To be honest I'm feeling so much better. I'm still under enormous pressure but I manage.

Plus I decided to list all the things that helped me recently:

catching some sun in garden + getting tan (I'm tanning really easily) 🌻

taking some physical care of myself. Am seriously guilty about this one, as I wasn't really carrying about my nails, hair, and skin that much. Turns out that getting on point boost mood A LOT 🥰

cutting down some of social medias/sorting and cleaning content, that they show me ✨ Some people are acting toxic and as much as I wish them well, I don't need their energy

doing LOTS of notes and asking. Revising, rewriting, searching, reading and remembering ❣️

And now something for you all, beautiful beings:

DON'T YOU GIVE UP, HONEY 💛 Take care, drink water, listen to some pumping up music, take a breath, do something fun and be strong 💪🏼

Hold on, it's gonna be alright, I promise 🌺 You're already really brave and I'm greatly proud of you!

Much love, sweethearts 💓