God Okay So I'm Thinking About Doing A Genshin Impact Babygirl Poll And Now I'm Wondering If I Should

god okay so I'm thinking about doing a Genshin Impact babygirl poll and now I'm wondering if I should make a babygirl poll sideblog? open it up to the masses? I know I already did a poll asking what sideblog I should do but now I'm thinking of another idea and I wanna know if it's stupid or not

i'm not including warrior nun, just because it's been kind of saved, but anything else is fair game!

Okay I'm gonna rant about friendships and romantic relationships and shit to keep myself from crying while making ramen on the stove

Why do I feel so...threatened when one of my friends has a romantic relationship? The second I hear that one of my friends has a SO I immediately want to punch them. I got no fucking idea why, the thought of it just makes me so mad. And I can't talk to anyone about this cuz most of my friends are in relationships and I don't get to speak with my school counselor until God knows when.

I don't think it's some sort of abandonment issue? I think it might be a "I have a really hard time making relationships" issue? Being both autistic and a military kid does wonders for having friendships. I've never had friendships that last more than a year and now that I have those, I don't want them to leave. I can't stand the thought of them leaving.

I feel like I'm drifting away from my best friend who lives in Virginia because she has a boyfriend now, and even though we don't talk as much as we used to since we're both in college and have jobs and stuff, I feel like I can't talk to her the way I used to. We had this RP that we did for years but she broke that off when I got to college, but even so we could still talk about our characters and it made me so happy. That's the main thing that makes me happy, thinking and talking about fictional characters that I made and that I love and that I see myself in. And I can't lead any conversation with that anymore because it feels like she's either uninterested or she doesn't answer until I say something else.

I can't talk to two of my friends when they're together because they're dating, and more than once I've been alone with the two of them and I want nothing more than to leave. As soon as one of them comes over and starts acting all cute and stuff, I want to hurt them and then run away. I have not and will never do that, but the thought is so prevalent. I can't...I can't be around my friends in romantic relationships, and it's so shitty. I hate it so much.

I don't know if I even want a romantic relationship myself. The idea of it is good, but the thought of actually opening myself to that is disgusting. Why can't I let others enjoy themselves? Why can't I let others be happy?

Ugh, I don't have the energy to keep talking about this...if you read down here, thanks for listening to my shit lol

eta: the third to last option says 500-999 shhh

how to find the number: use this page to calculate the total number of notes your original posts have gotten, then divide by the number of original posts (and round the result however you see fit). here's mine as an example:

so i divide 142,200 by 626 and get 227.16, which i then round to 227 average notes per post

uh so i never do this but maui is quite literally on fire and there isn't nearly enough care or consideration for. you know. Native Hawaiians who live here being displaced and the land (and cultural relevance) that's being eaten up by the fire. so if ya'll wanna help, here's some links:

maui food bank: https://mauifoodbank.org/

maui humane society: https://www.mauihumanesociety.org/

center for native hawaiian advancement: https://www.memberplanet.com/campaign/cnhamembers/kakoomaui

hawai'i red cross: https://www.redcross.org/local/hawaii/ways-to-donate.html

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