It's A Bit Frustrating The Lack Of Energy I Have Anymore To Make Larger Scale Drawings. I Am Too Tired

it's a bit frustrating the lack of energy i have anymore to make larger scale drawings. i am too tired to do anything more than a sketch with some color. i wish i could find the energy and motivation to make a full piece, i have a lot of ideas.

even without things like school taking up a lot of my time, it takes a lot of effort to just open a canvas and draw. i get distracted easily, or i lose motivation less than halfway through, and a sketch takes me at least 3 days, oftentimes about a week, even if im dedicated.

i haven't made a full piece with a lot of detail for a while. art that i was making in 2021 had a lot more care and energy put into them than now. i don't know what happened, or what's wrong. i don't know where to find that drive and motivation anymore.

took nyquil and instead of sleeping i drew a lot.

not drawing more for a little bit

desperate

i want to love myself

im sick again, too tired to draw for a bit

finally moved in today