Just A Reminder That Relationship Ruptures, Breakups Of ANY Kind (lover, Family, Friend) Are Part Of

Just a reminder that relationship ruptures, breakups of ANY kind (lover, family, friend) are part of life. There's nothing shameful, not nearly weird about it. It's fascinating for me to see how open we are when showing and talking about our new partner, this new friend who makes us feel awesome or that family member who seems to be our perfect guide and companion. As it should! Shout out to the world all the love we feel and give. But whenever that relationship ends up stranded or you can feel the connection line shredded. When you find yourself feeling unloved, unvalued, despised, disrespected, not seen, unwanted, the second plate or in the background, used, at your limit- and the list could go on forever, it is NORMAL to put an end to it. It does not mean there must be something wrong with you and/or the other person. It simply means it's over for a number of reasons, which becomes quite enlightening for future relationships. Because that's the thing we may have forgotten: we learn by living, not by paper or made up scenarios. This isn't a math lesson, this is what life's about and there's a reason why it isn't easy.

So if you're that person who have a long list of ANY breakups, there's nothing wrong with you as long as you know why you're doing it and you're able to be self-critical and identify what you need, what you search, your values, limits, type of communication, your flaws and defense mechanisms. Because that's what relationships are for. To live, to love and to learn. Stop the shaming for literally been free of choosing and for actually been able to make the hard decision. Stop been harsh to someone for, literally, not connecting with another whole human being.

i want to hate you

but i dont

i want to ignore you

but i cant

i just want to normalize

calling you daddy

but now it's sexualized

because people are sick

and im not your little girl anymore

i dont know if i ever was

because its been far too long

since I called you daddy

and got a nice warm hug

and a sweet talk

that didnt involve

a lecture

and yelling

where are you these days?

mentally i mean

even though i see you almost everyday

i miss you daddy, and I hope you miss me too

sharks

as i find the one to believe in i was raised up by my Aunt to love thy neighbor

raised up by my mom to defend for myself dont trust anyone not even God

but i do i always have especially in my darkest shadows i find faith in someone i cant see it brings comfort and stability on this shakey raft

Leviticus 19:18

fuck the hate away

do you ever fucking notice

-how you always outdo me- { i feel insignificant and small // you were always smarter // even if people say youre not // youve always been better from the start // and i dont think you fucking know that // which makes it worse }

[i love you so much i really do but i envy you]

call me when you finally stop crying 💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧💧

i miss you and i know youre struggling but my big head wont let me care enough i try but maybe im selfish just like he told me i am

🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

📞 me wen u 🛑 hurting **********

for the rats

i would write a book if i didnt feel so insignificant maybe just lost

i cried just thinking about what you would say

youd be nice you always were and always will be

but who am i asking? tell me its bad i want to get better but i cant if its just

"good"

maybe i need more metaphors maybe they need to be harder to understand maybe bigger smarter words

make a prettier poem behind the not so pretty poet

because i write and i write i read my poem like lightning fast fast fast

read my words quickly for me

thats the least you could do