Me, To My Mom: Yeah, You Go To Bed. Im Gonna Lay Down And Think About Dinosaurs Until I Fall Asleep.

Me, to my mom: Yeah, you go to bed. I’m gonna lay down and think about dinosaurs until I fall asleep.

Her: Sounds good

Me: I might be slightly autistic

Her: Yeah…

Me: … I like dragons, too

For context, I am autistic, and I have a special interest in dinosaurs and other prehistoric animals. As for dragons… well, I’m dragonkin, so, of course I like dragons

Anyone else feel like an outcast in the alterhuman community?

Most of the therians/alterhumans/nonhumans I see online are minors; I’m 20 years old.

Most of them can do quadrobics; I can’t run on all fours for five minutes without everything hurting, and if I did a jump, I’d probably break my wrists

A lot of them seem to enjoy the company of humans; I’ve never trusted or liked humans

Most of the community talks about being “silly” or “cute” when experiencing a mental shift; I have violent, animal instincts and avoid others when I feel a mental shift coming on

I don’t know. I just feel like a lot of us have become… tame. And I’m not. I feel like we as a community don’t talk about the “darker” side of not being human. The violent prey drive. The instinctive fear of humans that wild animals have.

To clarify, I mean no hate towards those who genuinely enjoy not being human. I just feel like even in a community of outcasts, I’m an outcast.

It’s just frustrating. In a place meant for those who aren’t human, I’m still too different to fit in. I just want to have a place to belong, you know?

(This is an edit) So, it seems I’m definitely not the only one. If anyone wants to talk about their less normalized instincts, shifts, etc., feel free to in the comments. If I find any hate or harassment in my comments, that person’s hateful comment will be removed and they’ll be blocked. My blog is a safe space

It’s so weird having all of my kintypes be carnivores, having an extremely high prey drive, and being vegetarian. Like, yeah, I wanna eat meat, but only if I know exactly where it’s coming from, every detail of the life of animal it’s harvested from, and how exactly that life was ended. Also, since I’ve been vegetarian for so long (at least 15 years, not exactly sure), my body probably can’t even digest meat.

So I satisfy my urge to hunt by catching small animals - amphibians (mostly toads), insects, arachnids, things like that. I’m careful not to hurt them, and I always let them go.

Also, chewy, dried fruit is a good substitute for meat in terms of texture. I think. I wouldn’t actually know, since I’ve only ever had chicken and salmon in this life, and that was a long time ago, but dried mango is just… yes.

If you see any pictures of toads, on my blog, know that they were carefully captured in a way to cause no harm to them, and released right after I took their picture. I just like chasing and catching them.

Me too

I like men

Oh, the fangs I’ll get when I have money and dental insurance… oh, how gloriously sharp they’ll be…

I will become the cryptid in the woods they all fear…

the nonhuman urge to get teeth modifications💔 they’re not pointy enough. not sharp enough. not good enough for tearing off massive chunks of meat. i want to smile and for people to see my sharp, menacing fangs glinting in the moonlight. i want them to poke my gums, and when i twist my head and smile, it makes everyone’s guts squirm around like rabid worms. i want to be frightening. more frightening than the dawn after a moonless night. or more beautiful then the moon shining her soft rays down to caress your broken face after a blistering day. not just my teeth, but my claws as well. i have been robbed of my natural beauty, my sharp points and alarming presence in this humanly existence, and i need them back.

reblog if you’ve never hit post limit before.

Like if you have, comment if you’re currently on it or ignore if you want idk im just curious