About Vincent Van Gogh And I

About Vincent van Gogh and I

At last, the crushing state of despair has turned into a poetic melancholy of sorts.

My body is no longer immerged in pain, but rather floating on the surface of it, the phantom pain still present in my very being, but my mind has been dulled by art with which I surrounded myself, gifting me with the sudden urge to create.

I envy master van Gogh. How unbelievably amazing it is that he took his pain snd passion and used them to show how beautiful and light this world is.

When this particular state of mind strikes me in the soul like a poisoned arrow, I can't help but relish in the darkness of this world, embrace it with my whole being and channel that into what I call art.

Master Vincent makes me feel ashamed. He struggled to make something beautiful while I pile my thoughts and feelings onto paper like bile, basking in my "realistic ideologies" and how in these moments I "see the truth", when in reality that what I call my creation, my legacy, is nothing but hopeless whines of a hurt animal, that doesn't understand anything, let alone its purpose in this world.

I'd love to keep the content coming, but I'm completely out of ideas 😩

I don't want to seem desperate, but yes, I'm desperate.. REQUESTS ARE OPEN, my rules aren't that much restrictive and easy to find (pinned post on my blog) don't be afraid to ask!

Pass the happy 😊 when you receive this, list with 5 things that make you happy and send this to 10 of the last people in your notifications! 🍎

Thank you so much!

Let's see...

1. All my F/Os make me happy and comforted

2. Hanging out with my friends makes me happy.

3. Writing makes me happy

4. Drawing makes me happy

5. Reading makes me happy ^^

Sorry if this is wack, I can't find many things that make me happy...

Thank you so much that you decided to write this, it means a lot to me, and I'm sure other people too.

Hi! Ok, I know I already asked for this type of thing once, but I hope it's alright if I request the brothers and a suicidal s/o? It's completely ok if not, I can think of something else. Thank you very much!

I avoided this for a minute because ya know, the topic, but I feel like it needs to be addressed since so many people lately have been down.

First and Foremost, if you or someone you know is experiencing these thoughts and or has attempted, please reach out for help. There are better days to come and life does get easier. The National s*icide prevention hotline for the U.S. is: 1-800-273-8255. Most of my followers are from the U.S., but if you are not from the U.S., please reach out to your respective hotline/people.

Warning: mentions of s*icide, mentions of self harm, intense reactions

THE BROTHERS to a s*icidal MC

Lucifer:

He didn't know what to do; for days youve seemed so helpless, so empty. He watched you move through the days without any real reaction to anything, just gloomy eyes and a tired body moving along the halls. He tried reaching out and he really didn't want to push it, but he was tired of the "im fine" when he knew you were not. So he sits you down and he forces you to speak; you can break down against him, he will hold you close. He will help you through it. Believe in yourself a little more.

Mammon:

He knew something was off the minute you got mad that he always popped into your room unannounced and he knew you were hiding something too. Imagine the shock he had to find goodbye letters and pills all prepared. Of course he confronted you, yelling until both you and him broke down into a crying mess. He reached out for you, pulling you almost too tightly against him; how can you dare think of leaving when he hasn't even had the chance to really meet you yet? When he just worked up the courage to accept his feelings; to love you.

Leviathan:

It started when you only wanted to wear long sleeves, when you stopped cuddling up to him, and when you didn't laugh with him anymore. At first, he thought he did something wrong; who wants a yucky otaku anyway. But he noticed you did the same with everyone and he got concerned. He admits, he was a little too rough with you that day, forcing your sleeves up your arms to see fresh cuts as shock took over. No, no,no ! Why would you do that!? You cant just... Give up! Who do you think you are! Hes mad, hurt, confused. Why dont you reach out for help? He can help you! He wants to help you!

Satan:

He was tough, he admits. And he lost his cool toward you on more than one occasion, but he always made up with you. So why were you avoiding him now? Were you mad at him again? He shouted, he admits. Until you broke down and explained yourself. And then? Silence. He didn't know what to do, he didn't have any words of knowledge to help you expect that you need to seek help. Right now. He will force you to go see a specialist; hell he'll even become a specialist. But you need help. This is not the way out.

Asmodeus:

Imagine the look of sheer terror on his face as you admit to him how you truly think. How you truly feel. Does he not love you enough? Does he love you too much? Is it not him at all? Darling, why do you listen to useless people and thoughts? Trust in him when he tells you youre amazing, when he tells you he loves you. Because he does, and he won't stop until you love yourself too. Until you see the wonderful being you are, that everyone else sees too.

Beelzebub:

He noticed, of course. Your change in demeanor and the way you didnt laugh with him anymore. He was the first to confront you too, picking up on your sadness like he does so often. You can't be serious in attempting or even thinking of doing such things; why? He starts to get angry, not at you of course, but maybe a little. So what, life gets tough and you give up? Absolutely not. Unacceptable. There's ways out and ways to help that doesnt involve any of that bs and by God he will force you to find one.

Belphegor:

He found you on the roof one night, thinking that you were just sitting there like he so often does; wrong. Upon realizing that you had other attentions, he couldn't help himself and slapped you. Granted, he apologized, but he was just so furious at your words and how ridiculous you are for thinking of doing such things when you could just ask for help! They would get you help, he would get you help. He cant just have another person leave his life without him having the chance to fix it!

@fudgemallows thoughts? XD

dumbledore and willy wonka have a lot in common, and all of it terrible