Tw Grief

tw grief

grief is so weird. i went to my great grandma’s house today for the second time since she passed and at first it just felt so empty. but then i went into her part of the house and notices that there is a framed picture of the two of us together still on the shelf. she put it there when i was little and whenever i visited, she’d make a point of reminding me that she didn’t forget about me even though i lived in a different country unlike all my other cousins.

later i went to sit in the garden and a warm breeze pushed the shutters to the back doors of her side of the house gently open and it was so weird because im not religious at all or particularly spiritual but maybe that was her saying hello? i don’t know, it sounds so silly when i say it haha

it’s weird usually to see places previously filled with life so empty. it’s like the house doesn’t know what to do with itself without her in it. but i did feel her today, i really think i did. she’s in the wind and the leaves and the sun. i miss her every day. i hope she’s somewhere warm.

currently dealing with the awful crippling fear that everyone i’ve ever known actually despises me ❤️

every august without fail is like i will give you some of the most beautiful golden summer moments of your life but also you will be thinking about childhood and loss constantly. it will always be either 5pm or 2am

Tell me about your Little Mermaid AU!

omg anon! what a lovely question to receive 😁😁

my little mermaid AU is an odesta centric fic that follows the story of the little mermaid! i’m taking a lot of inspiration from the original tale but also from other iterations like the disney live action version and just general mermaid lore!! annie is the mermaid and finnick is the prince and other thg characters will play important roles in the story too ;) it’ll be the first multi chapter fic ive written and it’s starting to get kinda long but i don’t want to say a set number of chapters yet incase i go under or over!! i’m planning on finishing it all before posting because that way i can post updates regularly!

i’m nowhere near close to finishing it because i don’t write in chronological order so there are scenes which take place in the middle of the fic that are fleshed out and others that should be at the start that i haven’t written yet, but i have written a comprehensive plan of everything that should happen in each chapter!!!!

i’m really really excited to keep writing it :) the little mermaid has always been my favourite fairytale and i had a mermaid hyperfixation when i was younger so i’m really loving letting that all show through this!

the sound of moving water is the best thing in the world. rain falling, waves crashing, fountains tinkling, streams gurgling, a lake lapping, cascades crashing, springs burbling...it's all so beautiful.

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