If You Would Be So Kind As To Reblog This If You Feel Insecure About Your Writing Skills.

if you would be so kind as to reblog this if you feel insecure about your writing skills.

Wise words. Very wise.

Art not mine. Credit goes to Reality-Or-Dream on deviantart.com.

My first full text post...

I didn't imagine my first full text post to be this hard to write. It's the early hours of the morning & I've learned that one of my grandmas has finally passed on after battling throat cancer for at least 5 years. Unfortunately I wasn't able to be by her side because hey had moved her to a hospice house yesterday morning & during the time she was in a rough spot I've been sick with a cold. So of course, I try & be the good granddaughter & keep a distance to avoid passing it on to her. It hasn't been all bad though leading up to this moment. While I was attending college, for about 2 years up until I graduated, I've been living with her. The commute wasn't bad to make twice a week. What made it easier for me to keep going was knowing I had her & my cat Raven to come home too. She was one of the pillars of strength that made it possible for me to achieve my dream of getting a college degree in writing. I miss her so bad... It hurts so fucking much to know she won't be here with me anymore. No more road trips to the beach or the mountains. No more waking up & telling her, "Good morning," &, "I love you, grandma." No more watching TV shows together like NCIS & Hawaii Five-O. No more having her here to bounce ideas off of her for my writing. No more hearing her voice... I knew this day would come eventually. Everyone dies at one point, but it still hurts... Like someone ripped a piece of my heart out & stomped on it. I keep getting chocked up as I type this out. I know for the next few days I'll be drowning in sadness, & I'll let myself grieve. Yet I won't let it keep me down forever. I know my grandma Kay wouldn't want to me let this negativity stop me from achieving my dreams. So for her & myself, I will live on. I will achieve my dreams that I shared with her. I will achieve the dreams of being a published author. All my books, even if not written, will be dedicated to her. For my Grandma Kay was a strong woman who left an impression on people. She was an amazing person who touched the lives of many. She was a pillar of support & guiding light to me in my times of darkness. To my Grandma Kay up in heaven, thank you for everything you have done for me. Thank you for all the experiences we have shared together. Thank you for al, the memories we created together. Thank you for loving me with all your heart. I will cherish everything you have ever done & gave me for the rest of my life. I love you Grandma Kay, & may your time in heaven be wonderful as you reunite with Grandpa Art, family, & friends.

If anyone can provide me with links to websites or other info about ADD & Asperger’s I would appreciate it a lot. As a kid, Iwas diagnosed with ADD and on the lower spectrum of Asperger’s, but right now I’m feeling so confused on what it means to have them. For so long I’ve been thinking it’s a normal part of me, and unfortunately I’m not getting the proper medication due to personal reasons.

I’ve come to the realization that I don’t like taking pills so I’m looking into other ways to help combat my ADD & Asperger’s. Acupuncture is an option I’m looking at right now. For so long I’ve felt out of place in the world because of my conditions already no with depression.

The passion I have for writing is nonexistent due to my jumbled up feelings. I love to read and do research on topics about plants, animals, and anything fantasy. Sometimes though, that makes me feel even more isolated because what I research seems weird.

I really want to understand myself since I think that will help me improve both mentally and physically. Any info would be appreciated.

Finally finished reading 50 Tea Recipes from the Duchess. I loved every minute of it. It made me laugh and smile from the sweetness between Chloe and Alphonse.

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Not going to lie, I kind of cried for Prince Arthur when he was shipped off. Don’t be me wrong, he was a dumba$$ with how he handled his feelings for Chloe, but a small part - really small part- of myself felt bad for the guy. Like the moment between him and his dad before setting sail was brought me to tears. The fact that the Prince admits and owns up to his mistakes shows that he is starting to show some development.

I kind of wish for an epilogue with Chloe and Alphonse with a child. Or seeing how Prince Arthur comes back a changed man from his exile.

——Spoiler ends——

I went to see if I could find fanfic for this comic, but I only found one on AO3.

As I was reading the comic I had an idea for a fanfic as well. The problem is flushing it out. Typical idea of where Chloe meets a different transmigrator who is interested in crocheting and embroidery and baking yet she can kick a$$ with a dagger and her archery skills. Can’t use a sword worth crap, but a dagger or bow is fine. The character can’t be short or dainty either. More tall and not so curvy. It helps add depth as she is self conscious about it when going to parties hosted by nobles. It makes it harder to find a husband as well because I feel like men in that comic would want a more dainty wife. Her other flaw would be that she doesn’t know when someone is flirting with her as it rarely ever happens.

Honestly, I’m up in the air about writing the fanfic. I feel like it would change the story too much... Especially since I kind of want my character to end up with Prince Arthur. Is he toxic yes, but the way he would get all flustered and confused over Chloe made it him so adorable I couldn’t help but like him a little. Like I can’t fault him for falling in love, it’s something you can’t really control completely. The way he went about dealing for his feelings for her though was self destructive to himself and problematic for those around him. He was a dumb-a in love who didn’t know how to handle being rejected by a woman who said to have loved him before all this happened.

My idea is for the romance between Arthur and my OC is that he finds her interesting at first because she doesn’t fit in with how most noble ladies look being as dainty and ladylike. OC stands in the corner just watching everyone dance. Content to be a wallflower. He goes over to flirt with her, but she doesn’t think anything of it as he is known as a womanizer. She thanks him and excuses herself. She’s more confused on why he flirted with her. From two to want it to be a mix of meetings between them, at parties, or tea times with Chloe. I’ll have to flesh everything else out.