Op I Wrote An Actual Fanfic One Shot Of The Third One, Might Post It Somewhere

op I wrote an actual fanfic one shot of the third one, might post it somewhere

Hello world

Today I am thinking about doksoo selfcest. :)

1863rd HSY creates an avatar of KDJ. "It doesn't matter if it's a version of him that doesn't remember me, I just want to see him again."

It's late at night in her office and she pretends to ramble to him about her own "evil" thoughts and ideas. She pretends he's a soundboard to all of them.

The avatar doesn't say anything. But he does move according to her wants and desires. His body is a perfect replica of how she remembered him to be.

It's not enough. She decides, that if there really is a wish at the end of the scenarios, she would wish to meet him for real.

Epilogue HSY uses Predictive Plagiarism to plagiarize the KDJ memories she obtained while drafting Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint. She puts all of those memories in an avatar.

He is an utterly convincing KDJ.

She keeps him a secret, because she knows its wrong. YJK discovers him anyways. YJK and her get into a really bad fight over this.

51% KDJ can max out any skill all by himself in the subway with his OD probability abuse. He uses the bookmarked Avatar skill to create a HSY to join him on the subway.

He is so, so lonely.

He thanks her profusely for writing that novel. Because he knows its 'not her', he finally gives himself permission to act as shameless as he wants to, because there was no more fear of a friendship to ruin, and no one else in the subway to judge him for his actions.

Yoohankim lyrics that scratches my brain just right

Home by Cavetown

Get a load of this train wreck His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet But little do we know, the stars Welcome him with open arms Oh

Time is Slowly Tracing his face But strangely he feels at home in this place

-Kim Dokja

Him during the later part of the story works so well with these words. His deteriorating sense of self, the train wreck ifykyk, being loved by others, being loved by stars (literally), and finding his found family dynamic with others becoming a home for him.

Never Love an Anchor by Crane Wives

I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel I am all the things they might have said to you Do you ever think of me and my two hands? And wonder why they never soothed your fevers? And wonder why they never tied your shoes? And wonder why they never held you gently? And wonder why they never had the chance to lose you?

-Han Sooyoung/1863rd in particular

Writing a story for that one reader without ever being able to hold him, to tell him she cares for him, a love that’s built on sacrifice and could never love him personally like a parent, and when they meet for the first time face to face, she is a plagiarist writer whose personality don’t work quite well with him, unknowing that she had long carried his life through words alone. And she’d keep writing the story for him, forever, out of selfishness, that’s also love, care and yearning.

Curses by Crane Wives

There's still cobwebs in the corners And the backyard's full of bones Won't you stay with me, my darling When this house don't feel like home? When this house don't feel like home

Oh, ashes, ashes, dust to dust The devil's after both of us Ooh, lay my curses out to rest Make a mercy out of me

-Yoo Joonghyuk

Becoming slowly disconnected from the present time due to regression, death permeating his path and everywhere he could see, even in the 1864th round, having to watch Dokja die over and over again, and uselessly trying to keep him from sacrificing himself. Being life and death companions with this dumbass that inevitably lands him in graver danger than he should be facing, and eventually reaching the conclusion with him, along with finding the truth about his constellation sponsor, and his whole existence that kept that dumbass— a child crying out for help— alive for such a long time.

Update on LOTM progress

I finally got to the miserable wretches part. It hits hard. Please. Please no one die after this. (Wishful thinking)

All hail the Demon King of Salvation

See you later, self sacrificing squid

ORV x TMA AU where Kim Dokja is this new head archivist who reads statements because he enjoys horror stories and has mass denial and skepticism just so he can keep enjoying the statements as fiction while Yoo Joonghyuk is the tired exasperated closed off assistant who’s the one doing 90% of the job and is like “Dokja, this thing is actually real can we pay attention ffs” and Han Sooyoung is this Stranger but also a bit of an eye Avatar who’s lived hundreds of years and discovers that the Fears are the ones driving this universe’ existence so she starts an institute to keep records of all the Fears, and then this one archivist comes along that’s really bad at his job and then she finds out Dokja is like the ultimate eye avatar who refuses to eat fresh statements so he’s fucking dying, so she makes a plan for Archivist Dokja kickstart the voyeuristic apocalypse to keep himself alive but she doesn’t want him to be lonely so she makes a clone of herself that’s basically Gertrude and Yoo Joonghyuk in her plans somehow got the memo and he now has to convince Dokja to not throw himself into every dangerous situation possible.

The other avatars wants to start their own apocalypse too so they’re tryna kill Dokja even though he’s like “???? tf do you mean apocalypse” Sangah as Sasha gets Not-Sangah’ed later on, Hyunsung dies mid story trying to protect the archival gang during a desolation ritual, Heewon is Daisy who constantly contemplates her sense of justice and is simultaneously trying to put Dokja in a coffin and befriend him. Jihye is her junior who looks up to Heewon a lot but has to watch her sister slash mentor figure’s humanity deteriorate. Hayoung is Melanie who at first didn’t join the institute but then did later on even though Dokja warned her and now feels very pissy. Seolhwa is Georgie who’s the mom friend, also Joonghyuk’s ex and now friend and they still talk a lot like “damn this job” “yeah that sounds bad wanna start a horror podcast with me”. Gilyoung is a random corruption child avatar and Yoosung is a hunt avatar that Dokja decides to adopt because he can. Pildu and the others are here too, idk where but they’re here.

TMA ships don’t apply here properly.

We r all ceaselessly watching in here and the symbolism and underlying messages are like well cooked steaks

love as an act of consumption in omniscient reader's viewpoint... the obvious example of kdj consuming twsa to survive, but also 1863rd hsy letting herself and the world be consumed because she loves kdj and wants to keep him alive. lsy offering her own story to the masses because she (incorrectly) thought it would help dokja. dokja only understanding her and deciding to try and have a relationship with her when shes consumed by fourth wall. od offering up body parts to help yjh. persephone, who becomes dokjas mother, introducing the concept of stories being sustanence. 999 being the lifetime where yjh decided to live for others, and hes also the kkoma who cooks dumplings for kdj. i just love how orv compares stories to food as something that not only keeps us alive but can have flavor and texture and be a comfort. and then theres the underlaying irony of yjh, the character controlled by the story, being a chef. he prepares the sustanence for others. but he also loves food and takes pride in it. he becomes his own person and he cooks for himself. can anyone hear me its dark in here.