Update On LOTM Progress

Update on LOTM progress

I finally got to the miserable wretches part. It hits hard. Please. Please no one die after this. (Wishful thinking)

thinking about epilogue hsy again, what would it be like to be one of hsy's students and watching your literature professor wrestling it out with some terrorist dude on live television.....the next lecture must've been crazy (if she didn't get fired that is)

I’ve got this thing rotting in my gallery for two weeks or something. I should make a collection of “ORV animatic ideas that I sketched out / made a small part of but didn’t put my mind into finishing it.”

op I wrote an actual fanfic one shot of the third one, might post it somewhere

Hello world

Today I am thinking about doksoo selfcest. :)

1863rd HSY creates an avatar of KDJ. "It doesn't matter if it's a version of him that doesn't remember me, I just want to see him again."

It's late at night in her office and she pretends to ramble to him about her own "evil" thoughts and ideas. She pretends he's a soundboard to all of them.

The avatar doesn't say anything. But he does move according to her wants and desires. His body is a perfect replica of how she remembered him to be.

It's not enough. She decides, that if there really is a wish at the end of the scenarios, she would wish to meet him for real.

Epilogue HSY uses Predictive Plagiarism to plagiarize the KDJ memories she obtained while drafting Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint. She puts all of those memories in an avatar.

He is an utterly convincing KDJ.

She keeps him a secret, because she knows its wrong. YJK discovers him anyways. YJK and her get into a really bad fight over this.

51% KDJ can max out any skill all by himself in the subway with his OD probability abuse. He uses the bookmarked Avatar skill to create a HSY to join him on the subway.

He is so, so lonely.

He thanks her profusely for writing that novel. Because he knows its 'not her', he finally gives himself permission to act as shameless as he wants to, because there was no more fear of a friendship to ruin, and no one else in the subway to judge him for his actions.

Yoohankim lyrics that scratches my brain just right

Home by Cavetown

Get a load of this train wreck His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet But little do we know, the stars Welcome him with open arms Oh

Time is Slowly Tracing his face But strangely he feels at home in this place

-Kim Dokja

Him during the later part of the story works so well with these words. His deteriorating sense of self, the train wreck ifykyk, being loved by others, being loved by stars (literally), and finding his found family dynamic with others becoming a home for him.

Never Love an Anchor by Crane Wives

I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel I am all the things they might have said to you Do you ever think of me and my two hands? And wonder why they never soothed your fevers? And wonder why they never tied your shoes? And wonder why they never held you gently? And wonder why they never had the chance to lose you?

-Han Sooyoung/1863rd in particular

Writing a story for that one reader without ever being able to hold him, to tell him she cares for him, a love that’s built on sacrifice and could never love him personally like a parent, and when they meet for the first time face to face, she is a plagiarist writer whose personality don’t work quite well with him, unknowing that she had long carried his life through words alone. And she’d keep writing the story for him, forever, out of selfishness, that’s also love, care and yearning.

Curses by Crane Wives

There's still cobwebs in the corners And the backyard's full of bones Won't you stay with me, my darling When this house don't feel like home? When this house don't feel like home

Oh, ashes, ashes, dust to dust The devil's after both of us Ooh, lay my curses out to rest Make a mercy out of me

-Yoo Joonghyuk

Becoming slowly disconnected from the present time due to regression, death permeating his path and everywhere he could see, even in the 1864th round, having to watch Dokja die over and over again, and uselessly trying to keep him from sacrificing himself. Being life and death companions with this dumbass that inevitably lands him in graver danger than he should be facing, and eventually reaching the conclusion with him, along with finding the truth about his constellation sponsor, and his whole existence that kept that dumbass— a child crying out for help— alive for such a long time.

Today I once again continue to watch summaries of “all the games I’ve been meaning to watch because I can’t afford to play them but I never got around to it” with The Stanley Parable (well- only watched one video, but I’m starting to get the gist). Looking at OMORI and Undertale next. Yes I have not completed a watch through of Undertale.