LOTM Progress

LOTM progress

I got to the Qilangos assassination plan-grand ball arc and as I was thinking about how this very haphazard attack plan that half relied on luck and half relied on broken telephone communication was the one that succeeded among all the government agents because “if you don’t know what tf you are doing, the enemy doesn’t either”

And the reactions of people who was involved in it were just

“Oh cool anyways flesh glove” “cool that guy’s dead” “don’t be suspicious don’t be suspicious” “dang it worked wtf”

This is the funniest group ever.

Today I once again continue to watch summaries of “all the games I’ve been meaning to watch because I can’t afford to play them but I never got around to it” with The Stanley Parable (well- only watched one video, but I’m starting to get the gist). Looking at OMORI and Undertale next. Yes I have not completed a watch through of Undertale.

Yoohankim lyrics that scratches my brain just right

Home by Cavetown

Get a load of this train wreck His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet But little do we know, the stars Welcome him with open arms Oh

Time is Slowly Tracing his face But strangely he feels at home in this place

-Kim Dokja

Him during the later part of the story works so well with these words. His deteriorating sense of self, the train wreck ifykyk, being loved by others, being loved by stars (literally), and finding his found family dynamic with others becoming a home for him.

Never Love an Anchor by Crane Wives

I am selfish, I am broken, I am cruel I am all the things they might have said to you Do you ever think of me and my two hands? And wonder why they never soothed your fevers? And wonder why they never tied your shoes? And wonder why they never held you gently? And wonder why they never had the chance to lose you?

-Han Sooyoung/1863rd in particular

Writing a story for that one reader without ever being able to hold him, to tell him she cares for him, a love that’s built on sacrifice and could never love him personally like a parent, and when they meet for the first time face to face, she is a plagiarist writer whose personality don’t work quite well with him, unknowing that she had long carried his life through words alone. And she’d keep writing the story for him, forever, out of selfishness, that’s also love, care and yearning.

Curses by Crane Wives

There's still cobwebs in the corners And the backyard's full of bones Won't you stay with me, my darling When this house don't feel like home? When this house don't feel like home

Oh, ashes, ashes, dust to dust The devil's after both of us Ooh, lay my curses out to rest Make a mercy out of me

-Yoo Joonghyuk

Becoming slowly disconnected from the present time due to regression, death permeating his path and everywhere he could see, even in the 1864th round, having to watch Dokja die over and over again, and uselessly trying to keep him from sacrificing himself. Being life and death companions with this dumbass that inevitably lands him in graver danger than he should be facing, and eventually reaching the conclusion with him, along with finding the truth about his constellation sponsor, and his whole existence that kept that dumbass— a child crying out for help— alive for such a long time.

LGY : I’d go there to rescue hyung even if there’s only one percent of him left, because that one percent is still hyung.

KDJ : Uh, anyways, let me just grab my other percent back. Yeah. It’ll take a minute. Totally. Yep. Be right back guys. (Insert Homer sliding into bush meme)

⸢This story is for just that one reader.⸥

in the hospital room, kim dokja wakes up.

his memory comes back little by little, from the 1st scenario to becoming the oldest dream and being scattered across the universe.

han sooyoung succeeded in bringing him back.

from outside the door, he could hear familiar voices. he wanted to meet them immediately, to hug them and tell them they missed him, but.

a system message lay in front of him. [your existence recovery rate is currently 41%.] why wasn't he whole? from what he saw, all of him should have come back. hearing the sounds of kimcom approaching, he starts to feel afraid.

is he what the party wants? does he really have all his memories of them?

his fear spurs him on. he couldn't use his full power, but he was the 'oldest dream'. he decides to get the rest of his memory back. it would only take a minute.

using his powers to scour the worldlines, he's easily able to trace the fragments containing his memories and sees them gravitating toward a certain worldline. he follows them through space, and when he sees what exactly what worldline his heart starts to race.

the forgotten 41st turn. a turn that even the 'oldest dream' did not know of, and therefore shouldn't exist. and yet it existed here. and he felt intense hostility from that turn.

brightly shining stars stood in his path. seeing the large amount of stars blocking his way, he identifies the leaders of the group. odin, zeus, poseidon, mithra... the heads of the most famous nebulas in the star stream.

he warns them to get out of his way. his true voice shakes the constellations, yet they don't move. with a conviction so strong that they wouldn't move even if they had to sacrifice all their stories for it. kim dokja raised his hand to clear away the stars, but as he does there's a spark at his fingertips. probability.

probability was the will of the stars, and it was limiting his actions. kim dokja's eyes glittered with interest. and he takes out unbroken faith.

kimcom had revived kim dokja. so he had an obligation to become complete and return to them. if it was for them, kim dokja could do anything.

and yet the stars fought back with everything they had. the forces of the strongest nebulae worked together against a single enemy, and the force of their fight was so cataclysmic it shook the whole universe. the probability of the star stream continued to move. no matter how strong the oldest dream is, its power wasn't all there. if he continued on like this, the probability aftermath could vaporize the nearby worldline. kim dokja makes up his mind and activates [way of the wind] to move straight through them.

the constellations scramble to stop him, but even as he bleeds he continues forward. a story he doesn't know is in front of him, just a little farther away. as he reaches the void veil, the border between him and the scenario area—

[that's enough.]

someone grabs his wrist. he could tell, this was the person who had caused the stars to move. a being who could dare to touch him and still be safe. there was only one such person.

the other self he had left in this world.

49% kim dokja.

ORV x TMA AU where Kim Dokja is this new head archivist who reads statements because he enjoys horror stories and has mass denial and skepticism just so he can keep enjoying the statements as fiction while Yoo Joonghyuk is the tired exasperated closed off assistant who’s the one doing 90% of the job and is like “Dokja, this thing is actually real can we pay attention ffs” and Han Sooyoung is this Stranger but also a bit of an eye Avatar who’s lived hundreds of years and discovers that the Fears are the ones driving this universe’ existence so she starts an institute to keep records of all the Fears, and then this one archivist comes along that’s really bad at his job and then she finds out Dokja is like the ultimate eye avatar who refuses to eat fresh statements so he’s fucking dying, so she makes a plan for Archivist Dokja kickstart the voyeuristic apocalypse to keep himself alive but she doesn’t want him to be lonely so she makes a clone of herself that’s basically Gertrude and Yoo Joonghyuk in her plans somehow got the memo and he now has to convince Dokja to not throw himself into every dangerous situation possible.

The other avatars wants to start their own apocalypse too so they’re tryna kill Dokja even though he’s like “???? tf do you mean apocalypse” Sangah as Sasha gets Not-Sangah’ed later on, Hyunsung dies mid story trying to protect the archival gang during a desolation ritual, Heewon is Daisy who constantly contemplates her sense of justice and is simultaneously trying to put Dokja in a coffin and befriend him. Jihye is her junior who looks up to Heewon a lot but has to watch her sister slash mentor figure’s humanity deteriorate. Hayoung is Melanie who at first didn’t join the institute but then did later on even though Dokja warned her and now feels very pissy. Seolhwa is Georgie who’s the mom friend, also Joonghyuk’s ex and now friend and they still talk a lot like “damn this job” “yeah that sounds bad wanna start a horror podcast with me”. Gilyoung is a random corruption child avatar and Yoosung is a hunt avatar that Dokja decides to adopt because he can. Pildu and the others are here too, idk where but they’re here.

TMA ships don’t apply here properly.

Update on LOTM progress

I finally got to the miserable wretches part. It hits hard. Please. Please no one die after this. (Wishful thinking)