DO NOT FOLLOW ME IF YOU ARE A MINOR

DO NOT FOLLOW ME IF YOU ARE A MINOR

DO NOT MESSAGE ME IF YOU ARE A MINOR

DO NOT INTERACT WITH MY POSTS IF YOU ARE A MINOR

DO NOT USE MY ASK BOX IF YOU ARE A MINOR

I shouldn’t have to be this explicit. If “minors DNI” is in someone’s bio, this is what it means.

I eat way too much for someone who’s trying to lose weight.

Did anyone else go through a random recovery where your mental health just improved in general which allowed you to kick your ED mentality to the curb and see through body dysmorphia but then gained a decent amount of weight making you unhappy with your body and reverting back to ED habits even though you don’t have the same obsession anymore and now feel like you don’t really have an ED anymore because it’s not that bad you just have disordered eating and also kinda wish your mental health would just fuck up so you could at least go back to being a real Anorexic/bulimic ect. Because boy this feels shit and confusing and I really do feel like I’m faking it now.

life feels like too much tonight.

i honestly didnt think id be here this long. i dont know what im doing

Aug 22 Log

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breakfast: mini rice cakes with berry yoghurt (60k.cal)

lunch: breakfast cake bar with jam (133k.cal)

dinner: english muffins with raspberry jam (351k.cal)

snacks: strawberry gum (4.3k.cal), savoury shapes (121 k.cal), dr pepper creaming soda (150k.cal), passionfruit yoghurt (185k.cal)

total: 1004.3

goal: 500 :(

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i feel like an absolute pig. I .te so fuckin much and i cant p.rge tonight.

breakfast: 80

lunch: 220

dinner: 370

snacks: 4.5

total: 674.5

still went a tad over, but this is more like it. if my boyfriend hadnt made me e.t, it wouldve been lower.

but i think i burned about 100-150, so im fine