Hey Just Wanted To Say Im New To Edblr. Ive Had An Ed For Like, 10 Years And Im Relapsing Hardcore. Dms

hey just wanted to say im new to edblr. ive had an ed for like, 10 years and im relapsing hardcore. dms r open, 18+ only, minors dni.

A trick I’ve learned (I don’t condone or recommend this to others) is to convince my brain that eating makes me physically sick.

For example, “oh god if I take another bite I’m gonna puke” or “the texture of this food is disgusting I feel nauseous” or “this food looks revolting it’s gonna make me sick if I eat it”

This works pretty well for me considering I’m terrified of throwing up or being sick in general like that. When I convince myself I’ll get sick, I start genuinely feeling nauseous and start gagging sometimes too.

I just repeat those uhhhhh affirmations (???) until they kick in, which they do every time.

I feel disordered lol

and i fuckin blew it. wasted 150 on a soda, 4.3 on gum, 121 on chips and 133 on cake. and i need to e.t dinner tonight too. fuck me.

guess in r.str.cting tomorrow

st.rving feels so good. ive only e.ten 60kcal today and i feel great. why was it so hard for me to st.rve before???

im finally getting back on track

i lost 1kg despite eating like a pig.

im so happy since ive always been fat. its harder for me to lose. but i did

I eat way too much for someone who’s trying to lose weight.

Aug 22 Log

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breakfast: mini rice cakes with berry yoghurt (60k.cal)

lunch: breakfast cake bar with jam (133k.cal)

dinner: english muffins with raspberry jam (351k.cal)

snacks: strawberry gum (4.3k.cal), savoury shapes (121 k.cal), dr pepper creaming soda (150k.cal), passionfruit yoghurt (185k.cal)

total: 1004.3

goal: 500 :(

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i feel like an absolute pig. I .te so fuckin much and i cant p.rge tonight.