I Love U Characters Who Are Victims Who Don't Show Things In A Way That's Appealing I Love U Characters

i love u characters who are victims who don't show things in a way that's appealing i love u characters whos trauma leaves them with anger issues, with violence issues, with issues with connection and trust and being truthful i love you characters who don't get "better" in a way that's palatable, who don't find growth and meaning in their trauma

Looking through my Pinterest boards like Narcissus looking at his reflection

I just eat it up when characters are written with symbolism like they’re a horrible self-destructive mess and yes, it’s like their hands leave scorch marks on everything they touch and oh they can only be admired from afar where it’s safe at a distance but you will be dragged into their self destruction and burn along with them if you let them too close.

Love it when writers do that.

"i just need to get through this week" but you keep repeating it for at least 10 years, every single week.

“Your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.”

-Fyodor Dostoyevsky

rewatching banana fish and realising that when Ash goes back to Cape Cod he has to deal with the memories of his dead older brother, who essentially raised him, on top of everything else. I wonder if he went into griff’s room when everyone else was gone or if he couldn’t bring himself to do it and stood at the threshold before turning and shutting the door. I wonder if he looked at the empty house and saw griff’s silhouette in the kitchen, heard his steps on the stairs. It’s not talked about enough, but Ash was grieving. He probably couldn’t sleep under the same roof he used to share with his brother, he was probably laying awake wishing he’d gotten to say goodbye properly. Of course he wouldn’t show how badly the grief was getting to him, instead he wakes up at the crack of dawn and finds a distraction in the sound of ringing gunshots and breaking glass bottles, and he misses and he misses and he shouldn’t be because he doesn’t have that luxury. He doesn’t have the luxury of grief.