I Dont Think I Could Handle Working Full Time Bc Of My Health Problems, But Im Not Disabled Enough To

I don’t think I could handle working full time bc of my health problems, but I’m not disabled enough to get any help for it. So basically I’m screwed.

I hate how I am uncomfortable in literally any social situation. Why must I be awkward?

What do you mean they don’t take medicine just to function daily? What do you mean they just decided to do something on the spot and did it? What do you mean their body doesn’t change colors based on temperature and activity and such? Been taking medicine since I was a baby and I really can’t understand that some people just don’t take medicine? And some people are anti medicine? Yes there’s always a risk but I wouldn’t be at a functioning level without it.

I always say if there’s a zombie apocalypse I would die as soon as I ran out of medicine because I wouldn’t be able to run for long if at all, or I’d be throwing up and having tummy problems constantly, I would have to sit down so I don’t pass out, and more.

I don’t so much forget that I’m disabled so much as I…forget that other people aren’t.

Like, I can’t forget how tired I am or how much I’m hurting or how many things I wish I could do that I just can’t right now. Those things are actively happening to me, I’m thinking about them all the time.

It’s more like…what do you MEAN they got their entire to-do list done in one day? What do you mean they had the time and energy left over to do a couple of other things, too? What do you mean, they were sore yesterday from doing something physical, but that they’ve pretty much recovered by today, and tomorrow they won’t even feel it?

Sitting here ripping off the skin till it bleeds and then some more. Then if you put lip balm on you can feel any imperfections that need smoothed out so then you rip that skin off and all the lip balm is now on your bloody fingers. I’m fine lol.

perhaps ripping this one little piece of skin off my lips will at last render them plump and moisturized

I really just want to be alone but the only time I am really alone is driving to and from work

I never realized how much I do 👍🏻 at work until one of the youngest and most quiet kids started giving me a thumbs up every time I looked at her and now it is the main way we communicate 😂😂😂 👍🏻