Guys Yesterday All I Had Was A Slice Of Cake And 2 Cookies Is This Peak Junkorexic

Guys yesterday all I had was a slice of cake and 2 cookies is this peak junkorexic

Nevermind, gained 11 pounds, I'm back ana community

I'm struggling so much, I'm completely out of my honeymoon phase and so desperate to get back in, I'm out of energy and burnt out, I've lost my period for almost 4 months and my mom's getting suspicious, I'm tired of the mental arguments I'm having with myself and I hate it, I can't even focus on my body anymore and I'm overall just so tired but I've almost lost 20 pounds and I wanna get to 125, 10 more but it feels so hard, I can't tell if I want to recover or not and just wait for my honeymoon phase to come back but if I'm waiting for it to come back then will I really "recover" when I stop restriction, e en tho I've attempted recovery I can't eat without logging my calories, but it still feels freeing not logging eating just a little Oreo or anything, help.

Things I consume fasting.

° K-cup coffee

° Tea, any herbal tea

° Low/no calorie drinks

° Pickle juice

° A piece of gum if I'm desperate

Any other recommendations?