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only losing more from here 🙂↕️ running after every workout has changed the game omlll but also got a heater in my room so life changing right there 🙏🏻 and why tf do ppl try n get u to recover like NO MF I WANNA BE SKIN N BONES I DON'T WANNA LOOK HOW I USED TO LOOK. i swear mfs js wanna see u fat
ate some chipotle and i can't fucking throw it up fml. i keep trying but NOTHING. this js means i'm skipping dinner n drinking 0 cal energy drink smh
as someone with an ed i subconsciously became so aware of other people's eating habits
i notice when they just push around their food around their plate or when they eat smaller portions than normal and wonder are they a picky eater or have an ed?
or when they go to the bathroom soon after a meal and i wonder are they throwing up or just have to use the bathroom?
and when they eat so much food in one sitting and i wonder are they just hungry and have a fast metabolism or did they binge eat?
and i feel so guilty all the time because one of the first things that always pops into my mind is that...
"i can't let them be better/thinner than me."
my sister keeps making backhanded comments about my eating habits and it's so annoying like bro it's not like i ever went "oh here comes our organic cutting board!!" everytime she enters a room🙄
im just trying to ignore her cus we'll see who's laughing when i get to my ugw...
idk why i try so hard to hide my ed at this point. i mean i still live with my family but im almost 20 and technically they can't force me into inpatient or smth.
the only thing stopping me is not wanting to further traumatise my younger siblings. they deserve a better sister than me.
does anyone have a decent excuse as to why i would be measuring my meals on a scale??
i don't want my fam to be suspicious or think i am obsessed with food/cals (i 100% am lmfao)
stuck in between wanting to always wear baggy clothes so nobody can tell im getting smaller or wanting to always wear normal/fitted clothes so everybody can tell im getting smaller
drank mango smoothie now I'm feeling terrible because it was 200+ cals and I'm supposed to be restricting 😡😡
I just ruined an almost perfect week, my frs took me to an Indian restaurant and they forced me not only to eat but pay for their food 🙁 Im gonna just go out maybe tomorrow and lie that I ate I actually hate eating out so so so so so much
Oh my god I was so scared to weigh myself feeling I weighed more but I actually am a pound lighter this is such a nice feeling
You gain a bit of water weight before your period starts, 1-3 days in it'll go away after the bleeding, stay hydrated girlies 💗💗
I'm so happy I lost 10 poundssss the doctor complimented me on it today it feels so good to know my weight loss is being recognized
Don't give up you can only push and push
I wanna feel small and comfortable in someones arms
I'm so impatient I need my BMI to be in the teens NOOOOW 😔☝️
ED blog!!!
Loosing weight really isn't hard, it just takes discipline. I've lost about 11 pounds since April 4th and it feels so good knowing I'm on track, I noticed my wrists are smaller and my thighs don't brush against each other walking.
Today I cried because I think my mom's noticed my ED and she got me a 300kal plate of gummy sushi that I threw away then cried because I felt bad and googled how many calories were in tears.
Atleast I'm getting skinnier every time my stomach rumbles.
.·´¯⭐ving for this ¯`·.
What I need rn
Do y'all ever get worried ana is just going to leave you like it was a phase I'm so scared, I felt like I binged today even though it was only 729 cals total today 😭
Oh my god me and him were cuddling today and he called me skinny he's never fucking done that before oh my god guys I'm so fucking motivated
Actual question, would drinking a Celsius and sugar free mentos gum break a 24 hr fast??? Help!
Things I consume fasting.
° K-cup coffee
° Tea, any herbal tea
° Low/no calorie drinks
° Pickle juice
° A piece of gum if I'm desperate
Any other recommendations?