Hey Its Me Again

Hey its me again

I want you to remember to be nice to yourself because

uh

well I don't have a reason but I just think it's nice to be kind to yourself

hi friend! you have impeccable timing. last week i was struggling with a multi-day-long depressive spiral – and the moment you sent this ask, i was in the middle of spiraling and calling myself "incompetent." your ask helped me snap out of it.

"incompetent" is of course a value judgment, but this one has a little more punch... having to stop taking that adhd med really threw into sharp relief what an incredible struggle it is for me to just focus when i'm sitting at my desk. it makes all my struggles feel like my own fault, you know? like maybe i'm just too incompetent to understand what i'm trying to do, or how to fix my problems, or why i'm this deep in the hole.

none of this is true, of course, and that's easier to see now that i'm clawing back out of that depressive spiral. there are a TON of factors that are making it harder for me to get my work done right now, and i'm working on addressing each of those circumstances as i get the opportunity. but, god, it was SO hard not to see those circumstances as Personal Failures that i'm too incompetent to address.

so hey, seriously, thanks for sending this ask. it stopped my anxiety from kicking me while i was down.

Skysometrick or Skysometreat

new pre-stream archive! in which i talk about my stream schedule for the month, as well as the life-changing tacos my partner and i decided to go on a taco date for~

new pre-stream archive! in which i talk about the routine that streaming Phantom Hourglass every Sunday has afforded me, and how it reminds me of similar routines from when i was a kid 💖

btw whenever i run these polls i always add up the vote results across all three platforms i use that support polls (twitter / tumblr / mastodon). so if you ever decide that you wanna stuff the vote... :P