Supposedly, According To My Email, I've Been Blogging For A Year Now.

Supposedly, according to my email, I've been blogging for a year now.

Yay?

Unwilling introvert

Would you believe me if I said I was an introvert, but not by choice?

I know it sounds crazy - at least it does to me - but it's really true. I enjoy being with other people, but it's draining.

Most of the time us introverts are the way we are because taking thoughts and making them into words on the fly requires energy. Most of us don't even realize it; we're just turned off by the idea of being around others. We'll rationalize it by saying that people are stupid or that we're not good at socializing - or maybe that we don't know why at all - but the real, subconscious reason is that it's work.

In my case, I love hearing people's stories. "Life is about the stories," my dad always says, and I completely agree. There's something about someone's tale of woe or laughter that captures my attention and makes me wonder what happens next. (In case you're wondering by this point, yes, I'm a hit with older folk.) I also think that in-person conversation is the best way to communicate with someone, but I'm not so sure why I think that yet.

So whenever I work up the energy, I try to strike up conversations with people. People I know, people I don't know, doesn't matter much to me. Everyone has a story. And I have a couple of my own that I share, if I'm feeling especially energetic. Sometimes we come up with stories of our own, of worldwide power outages and the apocalypse following or covering the Earth with (2^32 - 1) CRTs displaying a single Linux computer. And I love every moment of it!...

...until I run out of energy.

If I don't have the energy, I avoid people at all cost. I duck down into my room and listen to music alone until I recover enough energy to at least get through the rest of the day's socializing - because people are a part of everyday life, and I have to deal with them to get my food and get through classes. And also because sometimes people just start talking to me whether I want them to or not, which can be devastating if I don't have the energy to deal with it. If this gets really bad, I lash out at people or shrink away in the corner until I get the alone time I need.

My real problem with all of this is that my social energy is almost constantly at a low level. Very rarely do I have enough energy to feel confident speaking with people. And it recovers so slowly that I need a day or so to prepare enough energy for an hour. It's really sad, because I enjoy being around people and would love to have more of the energy I need to do so.

At least it doesn't take energy for me to think - apparently that's a thing with some people.

Life is going sooooo slowly right now.

That's actually a good thing, because it means I (seemingly) have more time, which God knows I never, ever have enough of.

Can you turn that Kirby into a gif? Just have the boxes distort in different ways every frame.

Give me three days and I’ll do better than that.

EDIT: 100th post! CELEBRATE!

Could I sign this too?

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Sonic has been confirmed for the new Smash Bros.

Today is a good day.