Im Not Dead - Just Hibernatin.

“I’m not dead - just hibernatin’.”

[Burrows deeper inside his burrow in the ground, waiting for spring.

“Fuckin’ winter.”

“A werewolf’d rip yer fuckin’ head off kid! Werefoxes might take yer purse but they’d also keep ya warm at night because they’re just nice like that.”

“Werewolves might be hot, but consider this…

Werefoxes.”

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“Yep!” He grinned as he slipped his hands into his pockets.”Same old, same old and nothing new at all learned with what I want to know.” It was a shame really, but it was nothing new for him.

“I take things have been the same for you?”

Lunarre frowned. He hated that blasé attitude. He couldn’t understand - how could a life that mattered be so careless? It occurred to Lunarre that Kimuri’s life may not even matter to him at all. Kimuri may well be another fool like him, who believed the contrary once, but now knew better.

But was it better? It couldn’t be denied. At some point or other, Kimuri’s life began to matter to Lunarre. The feeling like a cold finger slipping down his spine shook the hellion.

Did that make Kimuri the fool, and Lunarre the deceiver? As he was now, could Lunarre accept it as anything but?

Was Lunarre deceiving himself all over again?

Once again, for a moment, Lunarre cursed the day he locked eyes with the seraph he called Gramps.

“You’re basically admitting it’s pointless,” the hellion muttered. “But you still keep on going. You wanna die that badly?”

He sighed. 

“I can’t say it has,” Lunarre said, kicking a stone. “And that’s partly your fault. I oughta make you take responsibility, as my elder.” A sardonic sneer crossed his lips. “How about it, Gramps? You stop your crazy dreaming and I’ll quit the whole hellion thing. Good deal, right?”

Why should I apologize                                for the monster I’ve become…

… when no one has apologized                                              for making me this way?

Jesus this was dark. Never expected to hear something like this from Lunarre. I was struck by the immediate assumption that it was Simone was the one saying this, though it is clearly Lunarre because he is the focus of the panel and his lips are parted in speech.

It struck me - because family is Lunarre’s fixation, the thing he loathes. His next words (“Family, how disgusting” etc.) and the rest of his bitter dialogue tell us as much.

This speech sounded like something Simone would say. This made me think - did Simone further entrench Lunarre in darkness with her own views? Did she impart her own nihilistic worldview onto an already bitter and vengeful individual? It would certainly go a ways to explaining how and why Lunarre suddenly ended up at SImone’s side, working alongside her under Heldalf for his own ends.

If this is true, then could Simone be responsible for driving an angered Lunarre to malevolence before the start of the story? Was it she who had him become a hellion? Or did Lunarre seek her out, or come across her, and hearing that she could give him power - something Lunarre craved back then - willingly heed her words or do her bidding so that he might attain that power (as in, become a hellion)?

If Lunarre didn’t meet Simone before he went rogue, then it make sense that Simone would have approached and recruited Lunarre some time after the confrontation in Ladylake between him and Our Heroes. What did she reel him in with? Promise of more power? Promise of a definitive plan to destroy the people and things Lunarre hated?

Back to the speech itself, it appears Lunarre is regurgitating Simone’s beliefs in order to justify - or validate - his current state of loneliness. The idea of family still rankles him, and causes him immense pain, but he repeats Simone’s nihilistic ramblings because it momentarily hardens his heart against the pain. He doesn’t enjoy what he says - the mad grin he usually wears is replaced by a darkly solemn expression, as if he’s trying to convince himself.

I GREATLY look forward to where the manga takes my favourite fox boy!!

WISHING ALL OF MY MUTUALS AND FOLLOWERS WHO CELEBRATE A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!