Heyy, How Have You Been Lately?? I Hope Things Are Going Well With Your Treatment! ( `)

Heyy, how have you been lately?? I hope things are going well with your treatment! ( っ˶´ ˘ `)っ

ahh hi!!!!!!! ty so much for asking! I appreciate u thinking of me 🥹💜

I'm doing a lot better than I was! My HR is under control now and that's made a big difference. Mostly psychologically tbh. My energy levels are usually more manageable these days and I feel like I'm able to actually think rationally and relax n shit. I'm also able to tolerate some caffeine again thanks to propanolol 👌 I definitely forgot what 'unmedicated' adhd felt like without it lol

Treatment is a bit of a mixed bag on the other hand, sadly. I still cant sit up at all, but my current doctors have no interest in investigating that any further since they're convinced I 'just' have POTS (I'm actually only diagnosed with IST/dysautonomia). I personally think I actually have a csf leak and will be pushing to get that looked into. I'm seeing a neurologist for the first time next week so hopefully she'll be willing to listen!!

me: i hate graphic design it sucks vector graphics were a mistake computers should have never been invented and typography is for fuckheads

also me: hwhat if.... i made my own font..... 🤔

hey, my inbox is completely bugged. It says theres like 12 messages in there but I see nothing.

If you've tried to send me something recently feel free to comment on this post instead. Apologies if I've missed anything from anyone.

In case any of you here also use X/Twitter.

OCtober Day #5 - Redesigned OC

This is Kendall! I redesigned him by turning him into a lesbian lmfao

Kendall was originally 'the protagonist' back when I created him, but I found I had trouble relating to him or making him interesting, so I hit him with the lezzo beam 👌

In their current iteration, Kendall is the 'mysterious bad boy' who originally played for a different netball team. When Shimamura recruits them, Kendall and Gummy become rivals, since Kendall takes over Shimamura's preferred positions (goalkeep and goal shooter).

I'm definitely still working on Kendall's current iteration. Right now I use all pronouns interchangeably for them, which is usually a sign for me that I haven't quite pinned down a character's personality yet. Current Kendall is definitely more than 'a girl' though, so who knows 👀

OCtober Day #3- Oldest OC

This is Gummy, who I mentioned on day 1! She's not my oldest OC (I've been drawing ocs since I was at least 9 or 10), but she's the oldest one I have original evidence of still!

I created Gummy when I was 13, and that's when the above images were drawn. They were done on the school playground using my old surface 3 lmaooo

These above ones are from maybe a year or two later (14 or 15 years old? I remember posting these on deviantart if that helps.)

I think Gummy could probably also qualify for day 5 when it comes to being a heavily redesigned OC. As you can see, she used to have panda ears for a LONG time, until I realized there was literally no reason for that and I changed it lol

I also cant really tell you what she's like as a person yet. She was always somewhat of a vehicle for me to process my thoughts growing up, and she always aged with me. Now that I'm 25, I have no idea what a 25 year old Gummy would be like either 😅

I dont remember when I drew these two but clearly I was trying something.

And finally, this was the last time I drew her. I did this either in 2020 or 2021 based on the style its in.

It's fun how I can kinda use her as a 'timeline' of how my character design sensibilities have grown over time. I hope when I next get to draw her I can turn her into something super cool!