I Wanted To See How My Cosplay Contact Lenses Looked Like And Also Just Test That Out Since I've Never

I wanted to see how my cosplay contact lenses looked like and also just test that out since I've never used one before in my life BUT....BUT..... I CANTTTT- I COULDN'T, my eyes kept BLINKINGGG 💔 HHHHH and i don't even know which one is right and which one is left since the package doesn't tell you that 💔💔

I'll try tomorrow again tho (tomorrow is the convention) I'll do it on my way to the train + do my jeff make up 💔 i hope it looks good, i hate living so far away from all good things wuahh.

Happy birthday to our tumblr sexy man (Vincent)!

Vincent and Phone guy:

Happy birthday Vincent! I have brought you a comically large cake! No one is hiding inside I assure you.

Maybe... there was someone there indeed-

Diary. (Mental illness and research.

Dude i think im in the schizophrenia spectrum, more specific schizo affective disorder. /Srs

.... I'll have to see a psychiatrist but im Afraid of telling my mom that i need help, ill tell her that i need help when im ready, I'm still hesitated to ask for help because idk, im just afraid.

I mean, it's not normal to have hallucinations, delusions, forgetting stuff so often it's insane and I've been hearing more tha one voice in my head all at once, im still investigating, this can be anything, i wish it wasn't and i was just normal but this is what i been researching and the professional opinion of one of my friends has lead me to investigate more about it. I didn't want to talk about this but just know that everything is fine, i been feeling like this for years it's just that i been worried it's not normal to feel like this recently bc i feel like i been feeling even worst and I don't wanna talk about my delusions on public either. I just wanted to post a diary entry about this since i thought it's good to just take it out. I ain't diagnosing myself bc I'm just researching and investigating about the disorder and seeing what could be the causes of me being like this.

I tbh don't like how much symptoms of schizo affective disorder i have or that's what I've seen, I don't like it ahhh /gen

Unrelated jerma clip to act like everything's fine /hj:

Also, if you got here, this far, hii, im gonna draw some asks later... Probably-- ill see how i feel later but thanks for the support on my art too uhhh yeah thanksss byeee

YO VINCENT I BET YOU CAN'T DO A FLIP

Vincent: YOU'LL SEE, IM REALLY FLEXIBLE.

i just wanted him to fell but apparently he also broke his arm so... uppsssss