Hi, I Wanted To Request A James Potter X Reader Thingy :))
Hi, i wanted to request a james potter x reader thingy :))
So the idea is that james and reader broke up during hogwarts/directly after because they had the children talk, james really wants to be a father but reader is terrified of pregnancy so they break up. But over the years the reader keeps yearning for james and eventually they meet again when james and lily are together and have baby harry and its just really angsty đđ
Hope all of this makes sense i thought of this while listening to a song lyric
thank you for the request babe i love how your brain works <3 this is quite angsty so hopefully you like it! and now iâm curious to know what song đ
also hereâs some shameless promotion for @astonishmentâs series with the same name, itâs deliciously tragic (âšď¸âšď¸âšď¸) and everyone should check it out!!
in another life | j.p.



âCalm down, babe,â Sirius mutters as you walk in step, looping his arm through yours.
You nibble on your bottom lip anxiously, sighing as you glance over at him. âItâs not that easy, Siri. Iâm seeing him after what â four years? I canât just calm down!â
He rolls his eyes, reaching towards you and thumbing at your lip to save it from your torment. âYouâre seeing me after four years.â
You turn to Sirius, and he huffs out a laugh at your deadpan expression. âWell, you never asked me to marry you.â
Sirius wiggles his eyebrows, his lips curving up into a grin. âMarry me?â
âFuck off, Black.â
James and Lily Potter were holding a meet-up of sorts, and had invited most people in your year at Hogwarts. You were hesitant to go, given your history with James, but Sirius insisted you tag along. You knew he, Remus, and Peter had stayed in touch with James. Rightfully, you ought to have too. But neither of you tried to; maybe you both knew it was better that way.
Sirius simpers, coming to a halt in front of the large black gates of the mansion. He reaches forward and begins to twist the lock, and you instinctively reach over and grab his hand to stop him. He turns to you, confusion twisting his features. âWhat are you â oh. Oh, sweetheart.â
He softens when he sees the expression on your face. Youâre biting your cuticles, and the anxiety in your features is palpable. Sirius sighs and firmly pulls your hand away from your mouth, intertwining your fingers together. âItâs gonna be okay. Just be cordial with him. Thereâs no bad blood, right?â
âRight,â you mutter, albeit uncertainly.
âBut, umâŚâ he sighs, dropping your hand to rake his fingers through his hair. âThereâs something I shouldâve told you before. But I didnât wanna freak you out.â
âWhat?â
The apprehension in your tone causes Sirius to wince. âJames and Lily, they⌠theyâve got a baby.â
Thereâs a beat of loud silence as the fact sinks in, a mount of uncertainty and hurt settling in the pit of your stomach.
âOh.â
Youâre trying not to show it, but the heartbreak on your face is painfully obvious. Sirius pouts, moving to take your hand again. âBabe, Iâm sorry. I shouldâve ââ
He doesnât get the chance to finish his sentence, the gates swinging open to reveal a beaming James Potter.
âPads,â he grins immediately, eyes locking on Sirius as he moves towards him and swoops him into a quick hug.
You take the moment to look James over. He looked exactly like you remembered â messy curls, toned biceps, that movie-star grin. Yet something felt different, in the way he pulled Sirius into a hug without all the raucous fervour he wouldâve at 16, how he held him so gently at armâs length while talking to him. Heâd softened, you realised, from the responsibilities of fatherhood and being a husband.
They pull apart a moment later, and his gaze drifts to you. His smile loses a bit of its sunshine, not softening but not quite dimming either. âY/n, hey.â
Thereâs a moment of hesitation as he looks at you, but then he seems to decide upon giving you a hug too.
âHi,â you mutter as he shortens the distance between you, needling his arms under yours to press them to your back. You embrace him in return, and a sudden pang of hurt shoots through your heart at the familiarity of the action.
Perhaps he was remembering it too, from the way he tightened his grip. Both of you were heavy on physical touch, and it was undeniably the best part of your relationship back in Hogwarts â how heâd always have a hand wrapped around your waist, how youâd wake up to cuddles and hugs every morning. You didnât exactly have anyone to hug anymore, living alone.
So you convince yourself that the reason you hold on to James for slightly longer than necessary was because you craved human touch, not because of⌠anything else.
Finally, James pulls away, his arms dropping to his sides as he gives you a small smile. You plaster one onto your face too, for his sake. âSo,â he starts as he turns around, beginning to lead you and Sirius into the mansion, âhowâve you been, Y/n?â
You can feel Siriusâ gaze burning holes into the side of your head, but choose to ignore him. âIâve been great, yeah. You?â
James nods. âThatâs cool. Yeah, Iâve been good too. Things have been fun, but kind of busy; you know, with work and Lily and the babyâŚâ He seems to realise what heâs said, and clears his throat awkwardly. Oh, of course. The baby.
Sirius is beside you in an instant, arching his eyebrows and nudging your elbow to respond.
âOh, um⌠congrats on the baby, by the way.â
James turns around to face you as you walk, and you give him a grin to prove that youâre being genuine â to show him that it didnât feel like there was a knife being twisted in your gut every time the word baby was brought up.
His eyes soften, and you know he can tell how youâre feeling. But he gives you a grateful smile, and says no more as the three of you come to a stop in front of the house.
âBy the way,â James mutters as he pushes the door open, âyou guys are like, an hour early. Youâre the only ones here.â
You immediately turn around to glower at Sirius for subjecting you to more torture than necessary by bringing you early. But he all but smirks as he follows you in.
Your eyes coast around the mansion, taking it all in. Itâs decorated in a minimalist aesthetic, white couches and brown rugs. It was pretty, that was for sure; but you couldnât help but think how different it was from Jamesâ place in the dorm â posters and stickers all over the walls, boisterously red curtains and LED lights. It used to be so full of life.
Honestly, you mightâve guessed an old couple lived here, if not for the small signs of their life as a family â the pacifier on the dining table, a cradle at the far end of the living room, and the heart-shaped photo frames lining the walls.
James watches you, a small smile playing on the edges of his lips. âYou like it?â
He knows you wouldnât like it, itâs everything you arenât. Your dorm had been just like his; trying to fit as many vinyls and posters onto that small space next to your bed as possible. There would be fairy lights in every corner and succulents on the nightstand, a dreamcatcher which heâd gifted you hanging right above your bed. You were messy, as a person, and with your love too. You thought he was messy as well; but apparently heâd gotten his shit together already.
âYeah, itâs simple. Pretty.â
âHoney ââ Lily bustles out the kitchen, a small gasp escaping her lips as she sees you and Sirius. Sheâs holding a ladle in one hand, and has her other arm wrapped around a baby perched on her waist.
You donât register it when she kisses your cheek and hugs you, asks you how youâre doing and leads you to sit on the couch. Your gaze is locked on the baby, every second spent staring at him worsening the nauseous feeling at the back of your throat.
You mustâve asked for his name, because the word, âHarry,â registers in your head. This beautiful baby, with Lilyâs deep green eyes and Jamesâ luscious curls, was Harry.
Would you have named your baby Harry? Probably not, it was too generic. But it was too late now, to pick out names and choose a less boring aesthetic for a house together.
You had lost your chance back in seventh year, that night when you were laying on Jamesâ bed, limbs tangled together as he raked his hands through your hair with all the love in the world. Youâre gonna be my husband one day, youâd whispered, feeling so much affection for him you thought your heart would burst. Yeah, baby, heâd replied with a soft smile. Weâre gonna live in a mansion, with our dogs and children and â
Children?
I donât⌠I donât want children. And thatâs where it all started going downhill, thatâs the moment Jamesâ smile turned upside down and his hand dropped from your hair. It had turned into an argument, a screaming match â and eventually a reason to break up. James couldn't understand much you feared it, the pain of pregnancy and the exhaustion that came with motherhood. And some part of you knew that you werenât blameless either â calling him awful things and accusing him of not loving you; though love was all he ever gave till the day you told him it was over.
The feeling of Siriusâ nails digging into your palm brings you back to the present, and you see him nodding absentmindedly as Lily rambles about how much trouble Harryâs been, and oh, sheâs picked up a hobby of crocheting, andâŚ
You flit your eyes to look at James sitting opposite you, gazing at you with his brows pinched in concern. Your emotions mustâve been obvious on your face, then. But he immediately looks away when Lily calls out to him, holding up Harry for him to carry.
You watch silently as James squeezes into the chair next to his wife, taking the small, lovely baby between his large, calloused hands. He smiles at Harry, looking at him though he was the most precious thing on earth. Jamesâ fingers bunch Harryâs tiny shirt as he brings him close to his face, gently pressing a kiss to his forehead. Lilyâs head lolls onto Jamesâ shoulder as he shifts Harry into a comfortable lying position in his arms.
There you have it. The perfect family, with the gorgeous wife and the adorable baby and the man who couldâve been yours if you wanted.
Itâs too much for you to take, and Sirius squeezes your hand as you start to shake. Harry coos, and you melt at how Jamesâ face breaks into a sunny beam. He tilts his head to press a soft peck to his wifeâs hair, and thereâs so much love in that simple gesture that you feel like you could die.
You feel Siriusâ worried gaze on you, your hands trembling and your knee bobbing up and down. The taste of blood from how hard youâre nibbling on your lip is grounding; it brings you back to yourself, who you are, and not who you couldâve been.
âHey,â he murmurs softly from beside you, but it doesnât get lodged into your brain. The only thing you feel is your vision of the perfect family blurring, soft streams of regret rolling down your cheek. Sirius makes a small noise of pity from beside you, and James looks up instantly, eyes widening as they lock on you. Lily is fast asleep, baby Harry staring at you with his thumb stuck into his mouth.
âY/n, you okay?â James asks gently, but you donât reply, still looking at him with that distraught look on your face. You open your mouth, but you donât seem to have the vocabulary to express the heartache you felt right that moment. It felt strangely like grief; like you were mourning for the version of yourself you never got to meet, for the version of James who didnât have the chance to be yours.
James' mouth twists downwards in a frown as he stands up and steps closer towards you. Itâs like an alarm is set off in your head, and you immediately jolt back to the present, sucking in a deep breath.
Your legs act of their own accord as you stand up, Siriusâs hand falling limp on the couch as he looks up at you in surprise. You gulp down the lump in your throat and fiercely brush the tears away, James coming to a halt in front of you. âY/n, baby ââ
âIâm not your baby.â
James slaps a hand to his mouth, eyes as wide as Harryâs now. âFuck, no, it â it just came out. I didnât mean to. Shit, youâre crying.â
âIâm okay,â you warble. James opens his mouth to retort but you donât let him, knowing that the longer you spent here, the more the gaping hole in your chest would grow. You couldnât bear it anymore, watching James with his wife and wishing it was you instead. The worst part was that it was all your fault, your stupidity and your rejection.
âIâm fine, really. IâŚIâm gonna go now, it was nice meeting you. Convey my love to Remus, Peter and the girls.â You pick up your bag, moving to the front door with a befuddled James tracking your movements.
âY/n ââ
âBye, James,â you call out halfheartedly as you slip into your shoes. He comes to stand at the door, rocking Harry from side to side. He looks almost disappointed as you make to leave.
âIâm sorry.â
You look up, surprised. âItâs not your fault.â
Jamesâ lips pursed together with guilt, seeming like he wants to say something as he opens and closes his mouth. He finally sighs, âItâs not your fault either.
It was startling, how he still knew just the right thing to say â he always had. The regret that had been clogging up your heart for years was drained out upon hearing that one sentence. James didnât hold the utter failure of your relationship against you, and that was enough. If you couldnât have his love, at least you had his forgiveness.
You give him a half smile and nod, turning around to leave. Youâd go back to yours, more of a house than a home. But at least no one but yourself could hurt you there, there was no one to turn away and no hearts to break. No one to love.
âHey.â
You spin back around to face the door, heart stopping upon seeing the moistness in his eyes. You hear the scratchiness in his throat as he sucks in a deep breath.
âJamesâŚâ
âNo, donât â donât say anything. I just wanted to tell you, umâŚâ he defeatedly runs a hand through his hair and exhales shakily. âI hope we worked out, you know, in another life.â
That catches you off guard, your heart involuntarily squeezing in your chest. James looks almost embarrassed as he says it, but you see the vulnerability in his eyes. He was right â maybe there was some planet on which you were less of a coward, another world where he could put a ring on your finger. Heâd been yours to lose in this life, perhaps he was yours to love in another.
You clear your throat, feeling nausea brimming in the pits of your gut. âYeah, I⌠I hope so too.â
You spare yourself one last glance at him before turning towards the exit, praying he didnât see the tears dribbling down your cheeks.
You squeeze your eyes shut and will yourself to trudge forward, before he can call out to you and break your heart all over again.
In a few long strides, youâre out the gates; out of Jamesâ life again.
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Hi, i wanted to request a james potter x reader thingy :))
So the idea is that james and reader broke up during hogwarts/directly after because they had the children talk, james really wants to be a father but reader is terrified of pregnancy so they break up. But over the years the reader keeps yearning for james and eventually they meet again when james and lily are together and have baby harry and its just really angsty đđ
Hope all of this makes sense i thought of this while listening to a song lyric
thank you for the request babe i love how your brain works <3 this is quite angsty so hopefully you like it! and now iâm curious to know what song đ
also hereâs some shameless promotion for @astonishmentâs series with the same name, itâs deliciously tragic (âšď¸âšď¸âšď¸) and everyone should check it out!!
in another life | j.p.



âCalm down, babe,â Sirius mutters as you walk in step, looping his arm through yours.
You nibble on your bottom lip anxiously, sighing as you glance over at him. âItâs not that easy, Siri. Iâm seeing him after what â four years? I canât just calm down!â
He rolls his eyes, reaching towards you and thumbing at your lip to save it from your torment. âYouâre seeing me after four years.â
You turn to Sirius, and he huffs out a laugh at your deadpan expression. âWell, you never asked me to marry you.â
Sirius wiggles his eyebrows, his lips curving up into a grin. âMarry me?â
âFuck off, Black.â
James and Lily Potter were holding a meet-up of sorts, and had invited most people in your year at Hogwarts. You were hesitant to go, given your history with James, but Sirius insisted you tag along. You knew he, Remus, and Peter had stayed in touch with James. Rightfully, you ought to have too. But neither of you tried to; maybe you both knew it was better that way.
Sirius simpers, coming to a halt in front of the large black gates of the mansion. He reaches forward and begins to twist the lock, and you instinctively reach over and grab his hand to stop him. He turns to you, confusion twisting his features. âWhat are you â oh. Oh, sweetheart.â
He softens when he sees the expression on your face. Youâre biting your cuticles, and the anxiety in your features is palpable. Sirius sighs and firmly pulls your hand away from your mouth, intertwining your fingers together. âItâs gonna be okay. Just be cordial with him. Thereâs no bad blood, right?â
âRight,â you mutter, albeit uncertainly.
âBut, umâŚâ he sighs, dropping your hand to rake his fingers through his hair. âThereâs something I shouldâve told you before. But I didnât wanna freak you out.â
âWhat?â
The apprehension in your tone causes Sirius to wince. âJames and Lily, they⌠theyâve got a baby.â
Thereâs a beat of loud silence as the fact sinks in, a mount of uncertainty and hurt settling in the pit of your stomach.
âOh.â
Youâre trying not to show it, but the heartbreak on your face is painfully obvious. Sirius pouts, moving to take your hand again. âBabe, Iâm sorry. I shouldâve ââ
He doesnât get the chance to finish his sentence, the gates swinging open to reveal a beaming James Potter.
âPads,â he grins immediately, eyes locking on Sirius as he moves towards him and swoops him into a quick hug.
You take the moment to look James over. He looked exactly like you remembered â messy curls, toned biceps, that movie-star grin. Yet something felt different, in the way he pulled Sirius into a hug without all the raucous fervour he wouldâve at 16, how he held him so gently at armâs length while talking to him. Heâd softened, you realised, from the responsibilities of fatherhood and being a husband.
They pull apart a moment later, and his gaze drifts to you. His smile loses a bit of its sunshine, not softening but not quite dimming either. âY/n, hey.â
Thereâs a moment of hesitation as he looks at you, but then he seems to decide upon giving you a hug too.
âHi,â you mutter as he shortens the distance between you, needling his arms under yours to press them to your back. You embrace him in return, and a sudden pang of hurt shoots through your heart at the familiarity of the action.
Perhaps he was remembering it too, from the way he tightened his grip. Both of you were heavy on physical touch, and it was undeniably the best part of your relationship back in Hogwarts â how heâd always have a hand wrapped around your waist, how youâd wake up to cuddles and hugs every morning. You didnât exactly have anyone to hug anymore, living alone.
So you convince yourself that the reason you hold on to James for slightly longer than necessary was because you craved human touch, not because of⌠anything else.
Finally, James pulls away, his arms dropping to his sides as he gives you a small smile. You plaster one onto your face too, for his sake. âSo,â he starts as he turns around, beginning to lead you and Sirius into the mansion, âhowâve you been, Y/n?â
You can feel Siriusâ gaze burning holes into the side of your head, but choose to ignore him. âIâve been great, yeah. You?â
James nods. âThatâs cool. Yeah, Iâve been good too. Things have been fun, but kind of busy; you know, with work and Lily and the babyâŚâ He seems to realise what heâs said, and clears his throat awkwardly. Oh, of course. The baby.
Sirius is beside you in an instant, arching his eyebrows and nudging your elbow to respond.
âOh, um⌠congrats on the baby, by the way.â
James turns around to face you as you walk, and you give him a grin to prove that youâre being genuine â to show him that it didnât feel like there was a knife being twisted in your gut every time the word baby was brought up.
His eyes soften, and you know he can tell how youâre feeling. But he gives you a grateful smile, and says no more as the three of you come to a stop in front of the house.
âBy the way,â James mutters as he pushes the door open, âyou guys are like, an hour early. Youâre the only ones here.â
You immediately turn around to glower at Sirius for subjecting you to more torture than necessary by bringing you early. But he all but smirks as he follows you in.
Your eyes coast around the mansion, taking it all in. Itâs decorated in a minimalist aesthetic, white couches and brown rugs. It was pretty, that was for sure; but you couldnât help but think how different it was from Jamesâ place in the dorm â posters and stickers all over the walls, boisterously red curtains and LED lights. It used to be so full of life.
Honestly, you mightâve guessed an old couple lived here, if not for the small signs of their life as a family â the pacifier on the dining table, a cradle at the far end of the living room, and the heart-shaped photo frames lining the walls.
James watches you, a small smile playing on the edges of his lips. âYou like it?â
He knows you wouldnât like it, itâs everything you arenât. Your dorm had been just like his; trying to fit as many vinyls and posters onto that small space next to your bed as possible. There would be fairy lights in every corner and succulents on the nightstand, a dreamcatcher which heâd gifted you hanging right above your bed. You were messy, as a person, and with your love too. You thought he was messy as well; but apparently heâd gotten his shit together already.
âYeah, itâs simple. Pretty.â
âHoney ââ Lily bustles out the kitchen, a small gasp escaping her lips as she sees you and Sirius. Sheâs holding a ladle in one hand, and has her other arm wrapped around a baby perched on her waist.
You donât register it when she kisses your cheek and hugs you, asks you how youâre doing and leads you to sit on the couch. Your gaze is locked on the baby, every second spent staring at him worsening the nauseous feeling at the back of your throat.
You mustâve asked for his name, because the word, âHarry,â registers in your head. This beautiful baby, with Lilyâs deep green eyes and Jamesâ luscious curls, was Harry.
Would you have named your baby Harry? Probably not, it was too generic. But it was too late now, to pick out names and choose a less boring aesthetic for a house together.
You had lost your chance back in seventh year, that night when you were laying on Jamesâ bed, limbs tangled together as he raked his hands through your hair with all the love in the world. Youâre gonna be my husband one day, youâd whispered, feeling so much affection for him you thought your heart would burst. Yeah, baby, heâd replied with a soft smile. Weâre gonna live in a mansion, with our dogs and children and â
Children?
I donât⌠I donât want children. And thatâs where it all started going downhill, thatâs the moment Jamesâ smile turned upside down and his hand dropped from your hair. It had turned into an argument, a screaming match â and eventually a reason to break up. James couldn't understand much you feared it, the pain of pregnancy and the exhaustion that came with motherhood. And some part of you knew that you werenât blameless either â calling him awful things and accusing him of not loving you; though love was all he ever gave till the day you told him it was over.
The feeling of Siriusâ nails digging into your palm brings you back to the present, and you see him nodding absentmindedly as Lily rambles about how much trouble Harryâs been, and oh, sheâs picked up a hobby of crocheting, andâŚ
You flit your eyes to look at James sitting opposite you, gazing at you with his brows pinched in concern. Your emotions mustâve been obvious on your face, then. But he immediately looks away when Lily calls out to him, holding up Harry for him to carry.
You watch silently as James squeezes into the chair next to his wife, taking the small, lovely baby between his large, calloused hands. He smiles at Harry, looking at him though he was the most precious thing on earth. Jamesâ fingers bunch Harryâs tiny shirt as he brings him close to his face, gently pressing a kiss to his forehead. Lilyâs head lolls onto Jamesâ shoulder as he shifts Harry into a comfortable lying position in his arms.
There you have it. The perfect family, with the gorgeous wife and the adorable baby and the man who couldâve been yours if you wanted.
Itâs too much for you to take, and Sirius squeezes your hand as you start to shake. Harry coos, and you melt at how Jamesâ face breaks into a sunny beam. He tilts his head to press a soft peck to his wifeâs hair, and thereâs so much love in that simple gesture that you feel like you could die.
You feel Siriusâ worried gaze on you, your hands trembling and your knee bobbing up and down. The taste of blood from how hard youâre nibbling on your lip is grounding; it brings you back to yourself, who you are, and not who you couldâve been.
âHey,â he murmurs softly from beside you, but it doesnât get lodged into your brain. The only thing you feel is your vision of the perfect family blurring, soft streams of regret rolling down your cheek. Sirius makes a small noise of pity from beside you, and James looks up instantly, eyes widening as they lock on you. Lily is fast asleep, baby Harry staring at you with his thumb stuck into his mouth.
âY/n, you okay?â James asks gently, but you donât reply, still looking at him with that distraught look on your face. You open your mouth, but you donât seem to have the vocabulary to express the heartache you felt right that moment. It felt strangely like grief; like you were mourning for the version of yourself you never got to meet, for the version of James who didnât have the chance to be yours.
James' mouth twists downwards in a frown as he stands up and steps closer towards you. Itâs like an alarm is set off in your head, and you immediately jolt back to the present, sucking in a deep breath.
Your legs act of their own accord as you stand up, Siriusâs hand falling limp on the couch as he looks up at you in surprise. You gulp down the lump in your throat and fiercely brush the tears away, James coming to a halt in front of you. âY/n, baby ââ
âIâm not your baby.â
James slaps a hand to his mouth, eyes as wide as Harryâs now. âFuck, no, it â it just came out. I didnât mean to. Shit, youâre crying.â
âIâm okay,â you warble. James opens his mouth to retort but you donât let him, knowing that the longer you spent here, the more the gaping hole in your chest would grow. You couldnât bear it anymore, watching James with his wife and wishing it was you instead. The worst part was that it was all your fault, your stupidity and your rejection.
âIâm fine, really. IâŚIâm gonna go now, it was nice meeting you. Convey my love to Remus, Peter and the girls.â You pick up your bag, moving to the front door with a befuddled James tracking your movements.
âY/n ââ
âBye, James,â you call out halfheartedly as you slip into your shoes. He comes to stand at the door, rocking Harry from side to side. He looks almost disappointed as you make to leave.
âIâm sorry.â
You look up, surprised. âItâs not your fault.â
Jamesâ lips pursed together with guilt, seeming like he wants to say something as he opens and closes his mouth. He finally sighs, âItâs not your fault either.
It was startling, how he still knew just the right thing to say â he always had. The regret that had been clogging up your heart for years was drained out upon hearing that one sentence. James didnât hold the utter failure of your relationship against you, and that was enough. If you couldnât have his love, at least you had his forgiveness.
You give him a half smile and nod, turning around to leave. Youâd go back to yours, more of a house than a home. But at least no one but yourself could hurt you there, there was no one to turn away and no hearts to break. No one to love.
âHey.â
You spin back around to face the door, heart stopping upon seeing the moistness in his eyes. You hear the scratchiness in his throat as he sucks in a deep breath.
âJamesâŚâ
âNo, donât â donât say anything. I just wanted to tell you, umâŚâ he defeatedly runs a hand through his hair and exhales shakily. âI hope we worked out, you know, in another life.â
That catches you off guard, your heart involuntarily squeezing in your chest. James looks almost embarrassed as he says it, but you see the vulnerability in his eyes. He was right â maybe there was some planet on which you were less of a coward, another world where he could put a ring on your finger. Heâd been yours to lose in this life, perhaps he was yours to love in another.
You clear your throat, feeling nausea brimming in the pits of your gut. âYeah, I⌠I hope so too.â
You spare yourself one last glance at him before turning towards the exit, praying he doesnât see the tears dribbling down your cheeks.
You squeeze your eyes shut and will yourself to trudge forward, before he can call out to you and break your heart all over again.
In a few long strides, youâre out the gates; out of Jamesâ life again.
Reveals Day 1

Hello, everyone! We are so excited for day 1 of reveals! We are so proud of all of the hard work that the Fest participants have put in! We will be revealing new works each weekday for the next two weeks!
As a reminder, please keep in mind that a lot of Conan's material (and the Marauders Fandom) can be angsty, so please mind all ratings and tags!
I want ya (like everyone else here tonight) - by starsbythepocketfuls
Everyone loves Mary. Itâs a fact, anyone who meets her loves her, and the only people who didnât clearly had issues. So itâs no surprise that Lilyâs one of the many. Maryâs just got that gravitational pull, she's impossible to stay away from. It might be a new year, a new party but itâs just the same. Someone asks Mary out, she kindly rejects them, the world keeps spinning. So Lilyâs not going to ruing their friendship over something unrequited. Sheâs not going to sit there and die inside every time someone dances with Mary. Sheâs not going to do anything. Until she gets really drunk⌠Mary doesnât like her back, she canât, can she?
the day the stars died (and our hearts misaligned) - by saturnitystar
He draws his lower lip between his teeth, still refusing to meet Regulusâ eyes. âYou promised. You promised it wouldnât go this far. You â you said you were okay, that everything was going to be fine but itâs not, itâs not fine anymore.â
âEverything is fine ââ
âNo, itâs not!â Sirius almost yelled, eyes widening at the way Regulus immediately pulled away to shield himself. He felt as though someone had plunged a knife into him, seeing his younger brother scared and curling in on himself with his eyes squeezed shut â scared of him.
Sirius discovering Regulusâ dark mark, and the conversation that ensues. (inspired by Conan Grayâs âAstronomyâ <3)
sleeves - by ilookinpeopleswindows
âPads!â
Sirius turned around. A football, in all its black and white glory, greeted him with a smack to the face. âBloody hell, James!â He was going to have a bruise.
(or: severe sirius angst. proceed with caution.)
The Cut That Always Bleeds - by fictional_simp09
Alice struggles being in a secret relationship with Narcissa, especially when she finds out her parents have arranged for her to marry Lucius Malfoy
~ Based on The Cut That Always Bleeds by Conan Gray
Don't leave me hangin' alone again - by 29_AonekoLee
They never bothered to give a name to their relationship; there was a mutual agreement that it was ephemeral, just an interlude. But as they approach the inevitable end, Sirius and Remus try desperately to prolong their time together. [fanart]
Please feel free to reblog, comment, kudos, and otherwise encourage the participants! They worked so hard!
back at the cafe and iâve dragged a friend along this time!!
guys im sitting in a cafe having a maple syrup ice blended drink and wearing my cosy cardigan and working on an essay <333
your barista remus is going to be de death of me
HAHAHA pls donât die but thank you lovely!!
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thank you so much for the star brooke!! <3 love you and hereâs a star in return âď¸