That Part!

That part!

Something I need to keep reminding myself of

Growing up poor with parents constantly fighting over not having enough, really messes up your relationship with money.

Even if you are financially stable now, buying something for yourself -even necessities- feels like an impossible task. You feel guilty, undeserving, and even talk yourself out of buying things you've wanted for a long time.

You are not a bad person for putting yourself first, for buying stuff that you like and that will make life a little more enjoyable. You deserve good things, you deserve to spoil yourself. You deserve the kindness you are always giving to others.

So im driving home and look over to my left and I witness a cop using both hands to TEXT! And she's got her head down the whole damn time! What the actual FUCK?!😡😤☠☠

SPICE WORLD — 1997, dir. Bob Spiers 

Damn straight! 💯

I love this post a lot. And its things I also need to put into affect starting tonight. My toddler is ALWAYS correcting me when I curse. So for the sake of him I will stop cursing. If other people can watch their language then I don't have any excuse now do I? 😊💯

things i’m no longer doing for the rest of 2023

using inappropriate language this goes beyond just cursing; it also includes making dark jokes, making “seggsual” innuendos, self-deprecating humor, and verbal negativity (gossip and saying negative things about self, others, or future plans).

allowing men to take up my time without them giving any type of investment in me my time is valuable, and it’s hard to gain complete access to me, let alone a little bit of access to me. phone calls will be cut short, texts won’t be too lengthy, and if they want to see me, they need to schedule and confirm a date with me.

accepting the bare minimum from not only others, but myself also everything i do from this moment forward needs to be 110% my best. i show up, i work my best, and i leave knowing that i did everything i could in that given time. i’m not leaving any room for regrets this year.

drinking alcohol because of my job in the nightlife industry, i find myself to drink a lot more than i should to help me get through the night. i usually feel gross the next day, it adds to any mental hardships i face, and it’s just not good for my body overall. the only times i will drink this year is if it’s my birthday, new year’s eve, or any other special occasion like a holiday or a special person’s birthday— if so, i’m limiting myself to one glass of high quality wine or champagne. tequila and any other spirit is an absolute “no” for me.

not keeping promises to myself if i say that i’m going to do something, i’m going to do it. i need to build trust with myself and that will allow me to also have more positive thoughts about myself and trust that whatever it is i want in life, i’ll have it because i’m used to keeping promises to myself.