Damn Straight!

Damn straight! 💯

Im done trying.

If you're not treated right, your first response should not be "let me prove how valuable I actually am, they just don't see it yet". That mindset is toxic and you're going about it the wrong way. Instead, your response should be "they don't see my value, that's on them. Clearly, we don't resonate. I have nothing to prove. Time to replace them with something/someone who does". Your response should be walking away from anything that is not nourishing your spirit.

Funny thing. The mass majority of my ex's have admitted this to me. And it has me looking at them like 🤷🏾‍♀️"well you should have realized that when we were together butthead!"

People love to come back to me once they figure out that my aura, personality, energy, and love is one of a kind. Trust, you won’t find me or the way we meshed in any replacement. I’m unmatched. Period.

Truer words have never been spoken. This one right here is the best! 💯

“Why should I get my hands dirty to destroy you? When all I had to do is sit down and watch you destroy yourself.”

— “Layers of Me” from Repressed Feelings by anastasiasyah

This one goes out to my mother, my entire family honestly. And To my ex's!

“I stop listening to people who keep telling me I’m wrong because I can tell they don’t even know the right thing to do.”

— “Cold Shoulders” from Infernal Feelings by anastasiasyah

So I went on my 1st REAL date today after 4 years of being a hermit crab and only taking my baby out places. Aaaand I'm not going to lie this dude is shocking me and coming at me at ALL angles with impressivness. However im internally scared and nervous. Like the old saying goes, "if its to good to be true....then it most likely is." And that means to RUN! Then there is the last thing my old neighbor said to me before she died, "it doesn't matter how long you've been together with someone, YOU WILL NEVER REALLY KNOW THAT PERSON." And it hit home with me because this society has gotten so self absorbed/selfish/ and greedy and narcissistic that the person you spend your life with could be withholding old ass skeletons in their closet they will take to their graves and you will have been played and manipulated a d never really loved all that time. Yet they smiled in your face all those years and had no trouble with sexing you though right? So its all those deep around the clock thoughts that made me keep to myself and made me terrified of opening back up to humans. But this new prospect has me deep thinking about actually wanting to be open to a "relationship" plus he's uber attractive. He has dimples even!😣😤😩 lord knows im a sucker for dimples! Whats worse for me is I dont know if he is God sent and actually someone im supposed to open up to and let in, OR if he's demon sent and just another narcissist trying to charm his way into my life to take advantage of me. 🤔😫😖 and not knowing the end result, not being a psychic to see that far into the future drives me crazy.😭😓 all I know is he's THE 1ST MAN that actually made me nervous, he called me out on my sped up heart rate when he asked to hold my hand, AND again when he noticed me trembling. no man Has EVER made me do that before! I'm stunned! What does that even mean? What if he's the one? What if im supposed to open up to him? Oh geez there goes that big fat floating "WHAT IF".