Heybtw, Here My Interpretation Of Ep249 (or At Least How My Skill See It)Lets Remember That Shes Now

hey btw, here my interpretation of ep249 (or at least how my skill see it) Lets remember that shes now more purplish(?) than her in first blood-gold clothes

i was a bit traumatized by this ep tho (yeah. a bit late, but i had some important things to do sorry)

and. ta-da. my rambles. only them and no more bc no one of my friends knows a thing abt wtnv and current eps

somewhere in the corner, three of my many sides are flexing, each for its own reason. 1st one hopes for a post-Kevin au (to be at least half-real), where Kevin at least refuses the smiling God and opens his eyes (lol) to what is happening and it dawns on him and he gets a little better, but still traumatized. 2nd side is flexing because, like.., well.... Kevin stopped smiling, the Prophet himself(!!!), even for a while, but renounced the main commandment of his God. Where has this been seen? and if it not that, if he doesnt want to save Night Vale from adversity, then at least deal with the reflection of his other ver. past (and spit at Mother Lauren, but this is from mymself back though. optional action) And my 3rd side is flexing from just Kevin. Yeah. Like, my type of fictional characters are miserable poor characters with a difficult traumatizing past. those ones, when in the end it is no longer the character himself who suffers from their past, but their fans. I want to hug suchcharacters, light kiss (platonicaly) them on the forehead, and sit next to this poor thing (yes, I know they will kill me, but everyone has their own flaws, I forgive em) So, we saw Kevin again, not even after an eternity, but only a couple of episodes. My pants are full of happiness. and then the eyes are full of tears. Kevin is clearly up to something, he is clearly serious in his intentions, he knows what he is doing And Cecil is still a brainwashed moron, but hes allowed, he's Cecil

I'm just saying that Kevin is such an important and powerful and meaningful character to I think MANY queer listeners who have survived religious (and other) abuse, and it would actually genuinely hurt my heart if his arc turned out to be:

"Once upon a time, there was a genuinely kind and selfless person who loved the people in his life enough to sacrifice himself to save them. But he wasn't strong enough, and found himself violently transformed into a tool of incredible violence, against his will.

"And the version of himself that still remembered what love and kindness were, that longed for human connection, survived within him. It persisted long after everything and everyone he had ever known had long since passed away. That version of him ached to live again, to be more than a twitch of the wrist in a body that no longer felt like his, to even remember his own name.

"That desire was so powerful that it manifested in the form of a young boy, one who hated everything he knew he would become and desperately tried to dismantle him.

"And finally, looking at his younger self, seeing it play out in this way, the older one finally regained enough pieces of his will. He consciously encountered a chance to change, to allow at least the young version of himself to be free again, to live happily in the real ways that a person can be happy, in ways that did not wrench the soul. He realized he had the choice to define his god with his beliefs, rather than the other way around. He took his younger self away from a god who wished to control him, and promised to raise him as his own.

"But in the end, the cycle could not be broken, because the violence within him was his, and he would not part with it. In the end, he chose to do harm. In the end, one day, he still chose to put the pot on the stove, and pour the boiling caramel into his own cupped palms."

"In real news, I’m getting word from my reliable (and extremely handsome) source in the Science District—my husband Carlos"

Well, some things never change even if you're terribly brainwashed, I suppose

Now I love Cecil's fashion (and well... everyone in this podcast dresses Like That actually) but I do wish more posts praised literally anything else about it. His fashion sense is on the brink of, if it's not already, being flanderised and that's a shame because Cecil is lovely in many ways. He's just so much more than a flamboyantly dressed gay man.

He's so creative! He paints in watercolours and writes!

He gets so deeply attached to those he loves and stresses out about them so much.

Not even low-key undiagnosed with so much, someone please help him.

He was so willing to go to couples counseling, he was not going to lose someone due to poor communication again but also he was so nosy.

We can literally measure his depression by his vocal tone.

He described himself as very handsome once like yes, love the confidence!

Doesn't get sports at all even though his niece is a jock.

Embarrassing uncle and embarrassing dad energy.

I honestly just think he's grown so much and it's been so hard for him because he is so stubborn.

So many of his guests straight up disrespect the hell out of him it's so funny.

And more and more and more

momentary break from capital L Learning to type abstract thoughts about Cecil and Kevin and their relationship with their parents and the symbolism of a mother that absorbs everything and makes everything about her and still isn't satisfied, and the act of becoming your own father by circumstance and also perhaps by the will of some other kind of force

im also thinking about Cecils experience of becoming a father, versus Kevins becoming a father, and how Kevin remembers his father, and cecil does not. and yet. and yet !

im also thinking about closing the door, the door literally at the end of the episode, sort of like a closed circuit where things bounce back and forth between the same limited number of points. Which ? is sort of like what the DOW is, BUT ALSO. what is also a loose definition of a time loop when it happens again. something about Kevin being doomed to repeat the past, as is cecil. like fixed paths are fixed paths and it doesn't matter what you change type deal? which applies to both cecil and Kevin..... YOU KNOW and yet.. and yet..........

at the beginning of the arc, Kevin asks "can a person change?", and the end of the arc indirectly answers this question, which gives a strong scope for the inevitable But it was not noticed because of the very poor presented ending