Day 25 Since 15x20 Aired: No, But He Did Comment Go Get Em Cowboy On Jareds Instagram Walker Trailer

Day 25 since 15x20 aired: no, but he did comment ‘go get em cowboy’ on Jared’s Instagram Walker trailer to support his friend. Pure.

That’s not the important bit though- some of y’all have been incredibly disrespectful to his and Misha’s privacy today on both Instagram and Twitter, so I’m gonna lay it out for you:

Do not, under ANY circumstances, share “Cockles” content, opinions, or otherwise with the actors. That is the number one huge ‘No.’ in fandom, guys. A lot of you might be new here and might not have known yet. And I understand, but I’m telling you now that any behavior like that is simply unacceptable. Any attempt to incorporate fan ‘theories’ with real life is essentially just harassment. It’s invasive, and it reflects poorly on the fandom as a whole. Ship what you want here on Tumblr, make up as many crack theories as you want, no one will stop you- but the minute you bring this stuff off this site into real life, that’s when it becomes a problem. Misha and Jensen are real people, with real lives. No matter what fans THINK they know, you/we DON’T actually know them. They aren’t characters, and they don’t owe you/us any answers, and they aren’t just a substitution or replacement for Destiel, because Dean and Cas aren’t real. The actors are. Be better, guys.

I love you all but it needed said. Just play nice in the future. Don’t ruin their friendship for them by making them feel as if it no longer belongs to them. Their relationship is theirs and their alone. Let’s keep it that way.

wow, I love Supernatural REAL ending

2020, we are never ever getting back together. Bye bitch

i know everyone’s super preoccupied with bi!dean and oh boy do i get it but have we considered the absolute chaos that is fresh bi!dean and recently human!cas.

cas comes back from the empty totally human, and he and dean just… avoid each other in the bunker because cas is embarrassed and doesn’t want to pressure deal also well well well if it isn’t the consequences of my own actions–while dean is quietly freaking out because he loves his man but he’s human now and what if he’s changed his mind? he might have changed his mind. he is definitely sleeping in his own room because he’s changed his mind.

and dean’s love confession, when it does happen, is something halting and loud. Blurted out like an argument–I love you, okay?!–because he’s trying, he’s really trying, but big emotions still make a powder keg of him, no matter if they’re rooted in anger. and cas is overjoyed, and they kiss a lot, but there’s this weirdness surrounding sex because, hey, the last time cas slept with someone he was killed, and dean’s relationship with fucking has been equal parts trying to put food on the table + a tool for care and positive touch. 

and then it also turns out that you don’t just un-learn 41 years of repression because a really great guy is in love with you. so dean postures for people needlessly, and is equal parts an embarrassed, proud, terrified mess in public with cas, while also sometimes flirting with the waitress on autopilot. he stops himself from touching cas only to remember he doesn’t have to, and sometimes he’s brave enough to keep reaching but sometimes he isn’t. and every day, he wishes he was more open, more honest, just… better to cas. and every day he is, a little. 

and while dean is out here being a complete mess, our friend castiel is coming to terms with the fact that he’s mortal now. the first time he gets injured, there’s hell to pay; he won’t stop bitching and moaning. his first cold? fucking forget it. he’s unbearable. he’s grumpy, and feeling helpless sometimes makes him mean; he’s petty and bitter and he spends whole days in the gym working himself to the bone. he goes for long runs. is neat as a pin. won’t quit on research until he’s asleep on top of the book. when dean gets hurt, he forgets he’s human and presses two fingers to his forehead–cas can’t fly away but he disappears for two days. when he informs dean that he’ll be driving an motorcycle from now on, dean has a fucking heart attack and the argument lasts for a week. 

it’s hard; cas needs things dean’s only just starting to be able to give himself, and dean needs stuff cas is only just starting to learn–i love you isn’t that enough?–but like… there’s so much that’s so good. dean being so blindly happy that he forgets to be afraid or self-conscious, dean shyly pecking cas’s mouth in the parking lot of the mini-mart. cas forcing himself not to run, but to get… comfortable; he starts to leave his 50 used mugs all over the place, and forgets his socks in the dean cave after date night. cas learning to drive a motorcycle and taking dean flying, beaming the whole time as dean hangs on for dear life. cas channeling his frustrations into crafting (badly). 

they sleep together half a dozen times before it gets really really good–before cas stops thinking and dean quits worrying; cas makes some lame joke when he’s half inside him and dean can’t stop laughing. they both realize that there are a lot of different ways and reasons to sleep together; that it can be intense and aggressive and slow and sweet and silly and fun.

there are good days and there are bad days, and one morning dean wakes up and realizes he doesn’t feel conflicted or ashamed anymore. one morning, cas looks at dean and realizes he actually really likes being human. are they absolutely obnoxious about their new discoveries? of course they are.

but sam and eileen have had to bear witness to every other obnoxious aspect of their relationship, so what’s one or two more?

WHY WAS THIS EVER CUT OUT THIS IS GOLDEN??? I WANT A WHOLE SEASON OF THIS.