
The casually gathered thoughts, musings, and writings of a feral old woman.40s, Black, Puerto Rican, neurodivergent, atheist/ex-christian, cis gendered, heterosexual, heteroromantic, allosexual, sex positive, disabled; survivor since childhood STILL stubbornly continuing to survive.Always learning. Always trying to find ways to remain human despite the pressures of this capitalist hell-machine.โจ๐๐๐พโ๏ธ๐๐ฟ๐ต๐ท๐บ๐ช๏ธ๐๐๐พ๐โจ[This is more often than not going to be a collection of slightly cleaned-up, random thoughts and musings, and responses that I've given in various conversations that people seem to have really liked and asked to see. ^^;It's not a place where I'll debate, so. Conservatives will not be entertained... more likely deleted and blocked...admittedly, with pleasure. :3 ...And I can't believe I have to say this, but this "will-be-blocked-not-entertained" rule ***includes TERFs!*** ๐]{ And...To be perfectly honest, it's better if minors don't follow me. I will get smutty on occasion ^^; It's only a matter of time.}Friends In Need: My home situation is..not good. I don't control my household or have my own money. ๐ฅ I'm so sorry. I wish that I did. (Or I wish I at *least* lived with someone who shared my values, who would agree on what is important to spend on.)IF I ever do have anything, I'll probably give through one of the pages that has vetted requests. Please focus your energies on getting listed there.Again, I am sorry. I know it doesn't mean anything, but I will hope and yearn always for your safety, liberation, and comfort, and for victory against every oppressor.โจ๐๐๏ธโ๐พMay the land be yours once againโ๐พ๐ ๐โจโจโ๐พ๐๐๐ต๐ธ๐๐โ๐พโจ
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I'm A Cis Woman, But The Concept Of Gender Euphoria Sounds Strangely Familiar To Me.
I'm a cis woman, but the concept of gender euphoria sounds strangely familiar to me.
I get the feeling of being happy and satisfied to be a woman (though, obviously, not happy with the way that some people and some institutions treat me because of my womanhood ๐ ), on occasion.
I remember the first time that I felt it.
The first time that I realized that I was a girl.
I couldn't have been older than three, though I suspect that I was only two.
I was in the house, playing in the hallway.
Bright sunlight was spilling from the big window above the kitchen counter at the end of the hall, where my mom was at the stove, cooking.
I ran -- or rather partly-ran, partly-pedaled, partly duck-walked towards the kitchen: because I was sitting on top of a tricycle.
And just outside the entrance to the kitchen, there was a full-length mirror.
So as I passed by, I stopped and turned to my left to take a look.
I saw me:
A plump, strong, healthy, brown little girl; sitting on top of a red-and-white tricycle; dressed in a delicate, pale-yellow, tulle-ruffled dress with short poofy sleeves (it had to have been my birthday or something, it was really pretty and nice).
My eyes were dark, deep-brown; and wide from play and excitement. Taino nose. Natural coily afro hair HUGE and out and floating free in a wild halo of airy softness.
I stuck my tongue out of the side of slightly berry-colored lips.
And after a moment, I grinned wide...
Me.
Hey!
That's me!
YES!!
*n0n* ๐ฅณโจ PERFECT!!!! โจ๐ฅณ (โ ๏พโ โโ ใฎโ โโ )โ ๏พโ *โ .โ โง
It was pure joy, learning that about myself -- seeing myself, recognizing myself -- and feeling that who I looked like matched who I was completely; and being so happy with that knowledge.
I remember my mom's voice, full of mirth and surprise, asking, "What in the world are you doing over there?"
I giggled with a squeal of absolute delight and finished running towards her...
....
I want that for EVERYONE.
EVERYONE deserves to feel that way.
To look in the mirror, and feel affirmed and at ease and confident in who they are.
I will never understand those who feel that the answer to the pain and discomfort of trans folk is to "just force them to conform".
Fucking fuck that shit. Pure nonsense!
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