Do You Ever Just Want To Burst Like A Body Of Water Being Held Back By The Weakest Cling Wrap? And That

Do you ever just want to burst like a body of water being held back by the weakest cling wrap? And that body of water is your mind and heart and soul? And that cling wrap is your own will power?

I'm currently using my voice-to-memo setting on my keyboard. Because I'm lazy.

I wanted to just write down all of my cravings that I've had over the 63/91 hour fast just so that I can refer back to them.

- dark chocolate

- papaya

- ice cream

- Ramen noodles

- crispy chicken wrap

- beef stew (literally had a dream that I was making this)

- apple crumble strudel

- soup

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having internet friends is the same as having irl friends but backwards. when you first meet someone irl the first thing you see is your face, and the first thing you learn is their name. maybe you ask where they're from, what their family is like, what they like to do in their free time. you have to figure out if you want to be friends. but if you make friends over the internet, you already have a shared interest. you might learn each other's routines, timezones, different habits. but learning their real name is a big deal. face reveals are an even bigger deal. the things you usually first learn about someone are some of the last things you learn about someone you meet online. you're making friends, but backwards.

before spotify wrapped comes out, y’all gotta realize that i went through approximately 20 personality changes and am not responsible for whatever song i looped for seven hours

it's funny that the most triggering person for me is my grandmother. for most ppl it's their mom or siblings but for me it's my grandma. she's not even thin or anything but the shit she says and does though is so...idek how to describe it. she keeps track of my weight, brags about how little she eats, and whenever i eat she always makes comments. i remember she used to buy my clothes too big because "i needed to cover up and to much would show".

my grandma literally started this shit and i just realized 💀

i am beautiful. i am disgusting. everybody is lucky to meet me. nobody can stand dealing with me. i am worthless. i am perfect. i am numb. i have experienced 20 moods in 2 minutes. i hate everybody. i love everybody. i’ve never done anything wrong in my entire life. all i do is fuck things up. i consumed 5,000 calories in 10 minutes. i haven’t eaten in three days.