A Quick Vent Cause I Need To Get This Out.

A quick vent cause I need to get this out.

I’m so angry all the time, I hate it and I’m so angry that someone talking to me(any way) can set me off.

Today I just told someone to move things that they took out away from my bed and dresser and instead they shoved it in my Knick nack space, knocking over some things. They’ve been doing this for so long and recently I’ve had enough.

And I’m always in pain, there isn’t a moment I’m awake that I feel relief unless I take 3 extra strong pain pills. I sprain my ankle a lot and two years ago I twisted my right ankle. I didn’t go to the hospital or a doctor and it hasn’t healed right. I can’t not walk as I have to get to school but it’s getting to be too much.

I slipped down the stairs two days ago and hurt my left hand. Which wouldn’t matter if when I got angry I didn’t hit things or myself to keep me calm(or at least to stop me from doing something I’ll regret). I could barely move my finger yesterday and it was swollen to the point I thought I had hotdogs for fingers. I was able to straighten and bend it a little today but the person that pissed me off earlier in the story decided to not listen to me.

They’ve been stealing my stuff and I just found my SPECIAL markers-case- that I barely use(so they stay nice and usable) in their stuff with only four left in them. The four that were left were the “ugly” and empty colours. They also been stealing my makeup products, my clothes, my underwear and anything I get that they want( and I’m black so the underwear part is disgusting ).

Usually I wouldn’t get as mad but because of a recent change in schedule I didn’t have anytime to cry or breakdown this weekend. So I got angry and hit my left hand on my bed post. I fell to the floor but they didn’t care and as I was silently crying they just asked “what I was going to do with that thing” the thing that they took out.

I threw it on the floor at their feet and went to my computer. The only thing that was stopping me from crying(which was my playlist) and I had to turn it off once the light was off. I turned it up a bit to get the last little serotonin left and l was told(very rudely) to turn it off. I slammed it closed and climbed up to my bed. I heard the person say how no one did anything wrong to me and how I’m angry for no reason.

I deserve to be angry for what they did and I’m crying as I write this. I can’t even do anything about it cause I’ll probably get in trouble. During this whole writing session I’ve been trying to move my finger to type and it’s so hard. I think I’ve done something to it but I’m already so tired. I just need to get all my anger out another way.

Their slowly ruining what I love and I care about them so much. They are hurting me with their comments and they know it. They steal what I like and leave what I don’t I’m done helping them.

Thanks Reader, you’ve been a great help.

*me and my mom watching one of the terminator movies*

Me: I want to do that

My mom: Me too

Me: *excited* you want to become transforming slime too!

My mom:…

My mom: no I want I blow up things with big guns

Me: oh-

Things i say but adding why

▪"Let me put my tits on" im feeling femme and is putting on a normal bra.

▪"Do i look good." If im slightly flattening my chest than im feelling masc

▪*puts on green bikini* im feelig femme and i want my boobs to look good

▪"I just want LOVVVEEE" fictional love, the shit thats in books yknos

▪"I like women." Say nothing about me being pansexual i want them to think im a masc lesbian so any guys in my neighborhood will NEVER flirt with me

▪"Hey can we take a break, my ankles hurt." Theyve been hurtin since i startsd walking and the onky reason why im saying this is cause it hurts like hell

▪"OOOOOOOOO WIPEOUT" some one or some animal fell, and i will say it louder if my dads family is near. Yknow remind them im my mothers kid

▪"Im not learning spanish" my dad is Colombian and i am spiting him by kearning Latin. And american

▪"Im so tired" I havent slept for two-eight days and im finally tired. LET ME REST

▪"im texting my friend whos a boy" hes sorta my friend, but hes also 10 and AroAce soooooo, no.

▪*gets louder in an argument* My mom is near and i know you cant fuck her up

▪"oh your a fire sign" i already hae two fire signs that i hsve to see everyday, aslong as your not like them we good

▪"AmErIcA" im saying random things cause imm bored im not making fun of Tourettes

▪*twitches violently* again not mzking fun og tourretes i just twitch violently when im cold, it sucks and hurts

▪"K********" my sisters full name. She probalby took my thungs and used thsm and didnt gjve them back.

▪"I like supernatural" im only on season 5 but ik what happens in some of the other seasons

DSMP AU

The young man wept in silence, legs tired from running. He heard footsteps come down the cave he was in. "⏃⋏⎅ ⏁⊑⟒⋏ ⍙⟒ ⎅⟒⌇⏁⍀⍜⊬⟒⎅ ⏁⊑⟒⟟⍀ ⏚⏃⌇⟒, ⌇⏃⎐⟟⋏☌ ⏁⊑⟒ ⎐⟟⌰⌰⏃☌⟒⍀⌇(And then we destroyed their base, saving the villagers.)." Tommy reconized the language as Middle Ender, Ranboo had taught him before...... before that day.

(FLASHBACK)

"No tommy it's pronounced like ⍙⏃⍀(War)." Ranboo laughed as Tommy botched the pronunciation of the word. "⍙⏃⍀."

"YOU GOT IT THERE YOU GO!" Ranboo yelled excitedly finally someone other than techno speaks Ender. Suddenly a knock was heard at the door. Tommy and Ranboo got up and opened it to find Sam there. Sam looked disheveled and distraught, his armor was only partially on. "Dream escaped, he- he" Sam caught his breath. "Technoblade helped Dream escape, hes coming after you Tommy."

(END OF FLASHBACK)

Suddenly there was silence, the people were gone. Tommy, believing they were gone, looked towards the entrance only to have a young Zombie?? jump at him. This Zombie looked more human, she smiled wildly at him. "Hiiiii, I'm Sparks. Who are you?." Tommy screamed and jumped back, closer to the wall. "⌇⌿⏃⍀☍⌇, ⍙⊑⟒⍀⟒ ⏃⍀⟒ ⊬⍜⎍?!(SPARKS WHERE ARE YOU)" The male voice from earlier said, fear audible in his voice. "I found a pure human, or well a mostly pure human... HE HAS WINGS!" The Zombified girl yelled through the cave. Loud footsteps rang through the cave. A tall person, person???, wearing a dress ran at them. When he got close he gave the young girl a giant hug. "⟟ ⏁⍜⌰⎅ ⊬⍜⎍ ⏁⍜ ⌇⏁⏃⊬ ⋏⟒⏃⍀ ⋔⟒ ⌇⌿⏃⍀☍⌇.". The male suddenly stood up looking down at Tommy, eyes going wide. "Sparks, is this the boy you found?" The man asked confused. "Yup, isnt he cool Xarah" Sparks said smiling, sharp teeth glinting in the torch light. 'Xarah' looked sad for a moment, then determined. "You are going to come with me, we need to get you healthy."

Xarah looked like Ranboo in a way, although Xarah seemed more Enderman than him. "Look at you so small, just like Moxie when I found him." Sparks grabbed Tommy's hand. "Seems like mom adopted y- HEY" a long black tail swatted the girl. "Stop calling me mom, I'm too young to be a mom." Xarah said grumpily. Tommy studied the two more carefully, noticing how well they interacted with eachother. Sparks although looking like a zombie didnt have old ripped clothes, she was wearing a pink and white collared dress with two bows in her hair. Xarah wore a deep forest green gown with a white corset. Half of his body looked to be enderman while the other human, although there was a patch around his right eye that was orange and dripping fire.

Gosh, Tommy was so tired, he could- THUD.

PT. 2 COMING SOON

Idk how some people can’t understand!

I AM IM PAIN

I HAVE AN UTERUS WHICH MEANS I AM SOMETIMES IN PAIN

Don’t blame me for HIS mistakes.

I made this yesterday while in pain I’m in pain still

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