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TW: depression, su!cide
My sister helped clean my room today. She found a 4 year old end of life letter I had written. It is three pages, front and back, addressing non-family members. It calls out people who hurt me and people who helped me. I didn't write it because I planned on ending my life. I wrote it because I feared depression would catch me one day. I was afraid I wouldn't heal.
"I've always wanted to say these words and maybe, one day in the future, I will."
"if there is ever a day I succumb to my illness, I hope this gets read."
"If I'm dead, please do a seance or something. I will gladly talk with you. Love y'all."
I can't recall how it felt to be so unsure of my own recovery. I remember how hard it was to process a lot of what I felt and how it plagued me for years. It's hard to believe it doesn't plague me anymore; that the dreams have stopped, the vivid memories have faded. Where I am now felt impossible then.
stepped on a plum (overripe plum) (barefoot) it was on the driveway got out of the car and accidentally (didn't know it was there) stepped on the plum (warm) (on the ground) (it had fallen from the tree) barefoot (no shoes) wearing long pants (too long) (need to hem them) plum viscera got on them (the pants) unexpected plum on the driveway (hot plum) (97 degrees out) already super hungover (throwing up all morning) (should not have been driving at all) and I stepped out of the car (black car) (97 degrees out) and onto the plum (unexpected) (didn't know the plum was there) and it burst (plum nightmare on my only good pair of sweatpants) still we find ways to keep ourselves going from day to day
I hate when people get on social media and say things like the green tea extract in Celsius put them in the hospital.
HONEY!?
How much were you drinking!? Yeah, high concentration of fucking anything will put you in the hospital. That sounds like a you problem