It Actually F*cking Happened.

It actually f*cking happened.

Guys I'm in absolute shock and disbelief right now. I never in my wildest dreams thought they'd actually do it.

"the one thing I want, I can't have"

"I love you"

"goodbye Dean"

I never thought we'd see it and I'm still shaking. I can't believe Destiel's love pierced through the veil and killed Death. I can't believe we can say that Destiel is canon. We've got confirmation.

We won but we still lost.

No respect but what the ACTUAL FUCK WAS THAT

JACK'S "GOODBYE" AND WAVE PARALLELING WITH HIS NORMAL "HELLO" AND WAVE SENT ME

and tHEN! REMEMBERING CASTIEL'S "GOODBYE DEAN" IN PARALLEL TO ALWAYS SAYING "HELLO DEAN"

the father-son parallel left me dead

Tonight's episode actually shattered my heart. I haven't cried this hard since Endgame....

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Dean saying that "Jack isn't family".... Boi do we need to have a fucking talk????

Jack's "I understand" and "You're welcome"

I was traumatized within ten minutes of this cursed episode...

Cas' immediate response when he thought Sam would kill himself... Angel you deserve the world 💙💙💙

The hallway scene

THE FUCKING HALLWAY SCENE

DEAN WHY WOULD YOU PULL A GUN ON SAM????

I was sobbing on the floor

SAM'S SPEECH TO DEAN I---

I knew it was coming but still wasn't prepared

Fucking Chuck

(but also,,,,, Amara deserved so much better)

BUT FUCKING CHUCK THO

Chuck telling TFW that their Cas was the only version in the whole multiverse who didn't follow orders. Their Cas stuck with Dean, CHOSE DEAN over Heaven, and was the only version to do so. How dare CW say that isn't love.... That's love beyond anything.

and how DARE they end the episode on my baby boi dying in TFW'S arms... tHE AUDACITY

BUT THEN!

the dam teaser for 15x18

First off Bobby's back which great whatever

Billie! We stan! But plz don't hurt my bois!

THE DESTIEL DUNGEON SCENE

I KNEW IT WAS COMING BUT SEEING THE CONFIRMATION IS NOT WHAT I NEEDED

anD THE BLOODY HANDPRINT IS GONNA KILL ME

ALSO! I feel low-key like Chuck saying what he did will probably entice Cas to finally tell Dean how he feels. I might be having wishful thinking but all the signs are there, all the dots are making the picture, and I will not accept Cas' death even if Destiel happens but!

If Destiel DOES happen but Cas gets sent to the Empty, I would much rather have that and whether it's canon or not believe that Dean follows him to get his angel back

TLDR; I'm still clowning, but not without merit

“Those poor boys”

“She deserves to be punished too.”

“I’m not saying I support rape, but-”

“Sorry to say - she deserved it.”

“She put herself in harm’s way”

“But if she was fingered, then that’s not rape.”

“She ruined their lives.”

You’ll be with me like a handprint on my heart and now whatever way our stories end, I know you have rewritten mine by being my friend