I Hate Living In The City. The Worst Part Of The City. Lots Of Factories And Trash. Whenever I Go Out

I hate living in the city. The worst part of the city. Lots of factories and trash. Whenever I go out to get some fresh air I regret it. The air is almost unbreathable. The streets are too crowded. It's easier to feel magic around me during the night and when it rains and snows. One of the reasons why I believe in witchcraft is how much I love rainstorms. The sound it makes against my window. It's smell. I just pull my chair in front of my window and watch it. I love going to sleep listening to it. There was a storm at night after I experienced something that made my mental health way worse. I forgot all my problems while going to sleep listening to the thunder. Everything was okay just for that moment.

Witches who feel connected to the night, storms, snow and the rain, do you have any recommendations for a new witch? Any ideas for things to do in summer?

Not related to anything on my blog but HOLY FUCK I LOVE CHAPPELL ROAN SO MUCH

I'm really not in the position to teach anyone anything about this, but for me I started praying to Goddess Aphrodite in a time of need. She replied, even if it's just a placebo effect I really did feel better. Sometimes I trap positive energy in my hair to make me feel good in the morning. I felt the energy when my hand touched it more intensely than before. I became less cruel towards myself. One night I just had to test if she answered. I took a necklace and used it as a pendulum. I was shocked when it worked. I love actually seeing that she exists in a physical way rather than just in my head. I have heard her voice in my head. I saw a picture of her in my head and saw something very similar on pinterest right after. Could be just my mind playing tricks on me but because of my mental health I felt like I was going insane anyway. I am usually very skeptical but I thought if I'm going insane I can as well do it in an enjoyable way. I could recommend you to just look up how pendulums work and grab a necklace, preferably symmetrical but in my experience it works as long as you hold well. I'm not very good at other types of divination but I had managed to get a few messages using playing cards and a pendulum to make sure I get it right. I also want to try scrying using sea water but I didn't get the chance yet.

Genuine question-

I always see people talking about their deities reaching out to them and having conversations, seeing them, getting help or guidance, WORKING with them. How do people do this and what does it mean to work with a deity?

I would love to learn more about how to worship my deities better. Anything. Could someone reach out to me? I just want to learn more and it’s so hard to do it online, I’m not greek, I still consider myself relatively new to this. I believe in my deities and admire them, it’s just hard and I don’t know if my efforts are working towards anything, could someone teach me more?

(drama queen warning)

It's so different from what I thought religion had to be. Misogynistic, prude, self-loathing, belittling... Now it's just beautiful. Before I was told to believe without any signs. It made no sense because they would also say that there is one true god and our existence is a miracle already. If you don't believe you'll burn in hell for eternity. Now I can literally communicate and receive signs from a Divine being. Polytheism had made sense to me even when I didn't believe in anything but holy fuck I didn't think this was possible. I thought I had gone mad but nope, I'm most likely not and even if I am it is because my human brain demands it so I'm not too depressed. Which is, as far as I'm guessing, an evolutionary self protection mechanism that is normal. And unlike my previous beliefs it doesn't ask me to ask for forgiveness and drown in guilt.

Sometimes I just have to think about how wild deity work/worship really is. Like what do you mean it’s 10pm and I’m sat on my bed in my pyjamas with a biscuit and a fluffy blanket while also talking to a divine being???

I struggled with this a lot until I thought about it this way. Even if there is nothing beyond the material world my feelings are real. They are chemical reactions in my brain or something like that. They make me happy. Nothing else matters and this is the way I choose to live.

I'm still agnostic about what exists and what does not. But if a certain act at least looks like it works even if it's really just pure coincidence, I'm going to accept it because ever since I started thinking more about witchcraft everything's been more enjoyable.

As I’ve gotten into deity worship and have been more open about it with friends the number one response I get is ‘but you don’t really believe in that do you?’

and yes, I do, but if you MUST argue with me about it

I grew up non religious and described myself as agnostic for a long time, and I do still hold truth in that. I think it’s arrogant to say we know for sure whether there is or isn’t some higher powers. But if there’s really just nothing

WHO CARES

it’s fun to believe, it’s motivating, it’s energizing. Even if the gods aren’t ‘real’ in a scientific sense, they are real in my mind.

Even if when I die it’s all been nothing but a placebo effect, that’s okay!!

it’s helped me get by, it’s helped me be happy, and that is enough

Thank you, that's very useful. I can't go on walks at night because it isn't safe but I will try to collect water and learn about the weather pattern.

I hate living in the city. The worst part of the city. Lots of factories and trash. Whenever I go out to get some fresh air I regret it. The air is almost unbreathable. The streets are too crowded. It's easier to feel magic around me during the night and when it rains and snows. One of the reasons why I believe in witchcraft is how much I love rainstorms. The sound it makes against my window. It's smell. I just pull my chair in front of my window and watch it. I love going to sleep listening to it. There was a storm at night after I experienced something that made my mental health way worse. I forgot all my problems while going to sleep listening to the thunder. Everything was okay just for that moment.

Witches who feel connected to the night, storms, snow and the rain, do you have any recommendations for a new witch? Any ideas for things to do in summer?