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the cunt who makes my life decisions (me) and the idiot who has to live with them (also me) somehow have diametrically opposed world views how am i supposed to live like this

You ever start writing something and it turns out so much darker then expected and your just like “you okay in there?” to yourself or is it just me?

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might I please request a donnie x nb! reader oneshot where they both have feelings for each other, but the reader can’t make a move because they grew up feeling like falling in love was something to dread or be afraid of but then Mikey steps in as Dr Feelings and encourages them to go for it? please, and thank you

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Mikey the best wingman™

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But feelings are scary...

Love.

It always scared you. The only idea of it made you afraid, an uneasy feeling spreading through your body making it numb. To others it may not even be that big of a deal, natural emotion that most people can experience without issue, but to you it was difficult. You always thought of it as something out of your reach, mysterious and unsolvable case that you're not able to figure out. And it scared you, not knowing what exactly that feeling was, how to acknowledge it or what to do after that.

Until you met him.

The one and only genius mutant ninja turtle - Donatello Hamato.

You met him and his brothers by pure accident, going to a store for something you can't even remember anymore, where April just got her new job. You and her probably both hoped for it to be normal day, you not having to tire yourself anymore after a long day and her to not loose a job again. Though, apparently, none of you had any luck that day when a mutant hippo decided to destroy exactly this one shop. Why? You haven't thought of asking about that when on the scene appeared four more mutants, turtles this time.

After the whole event you were politely asked (and kinda threatened) to just pretend to never saw them, you also remember April muttering romething about not being able to have a one normal day, but you were to fascinated with them that forgetting everything wasn't even in the picture.

That's how you found yourself spending most of the time with April and the turtles. You were on good terms with everyone, even their dad, but most of your time was passed in the lab beside the softshell turtle.

You always liked to listen to Donnie when he expressively talked about his inventions, showing you each one of them and explaining how they worked. The passion and commitment he put into his tech were so fascinating, it always had you captivated.

You hoped you could tell him all that if only you weren't so scared.

And that's precisely what you told Mikey who was now sitting across form you in your room.

The youngest of the brothers, despite his carefree behavior, was very attentive to everything and everyone around him. That's why he was the first to notice change in his brother's and yours actions around each other, him being more considerate of your emotions and safety, and you making sure he rested and ate enough. That visible spark between you two and lack of any moves form both sides, made him take the matter into his own hands.

The box turtle already talked with Donnie about his feelings, trying to make him understand and accept that he likes you. It took some effort because the purple turtle was in so much denial that Mikey thought he'll need to take drastic measures (fourtanetly it didn't came to that).

And now it was your turn to encounter Dr. Feelings.

"Hmm..." the turtle nodded to himself looking up from his colorful notebook, pencil pressing against his bottom lip. "I understand that you're scared. Sometimes, feelings can be scary and overwhelming and make you feel like you want to just hide in your shell and never go out."

You only nodded lowering your gaze.

"But don't worry! That's why I'm here." he send you sunshine bright smile. "I know several different techniques that could help you with adapting to this feeling and making it less scary! Of course, it can't be done in one day, but we'll take it slow so you don't get overwhelmed."

Looking up at Mikey, you sent him a small smile. You were really grateful for his help.

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After several sessions with Dr. Feelings (that really helped both of you), he decided you were ready for a talk. Non of you knew that the other also had problems with confessing, Mikey only briefly mentioned Donnie on your session and vise versa, so you we're shocked seeing the softshell turtle sitting on your usual spot during meetings with his younger brother.

"Uh, Michael?" Donnie looked at his brother unsure of the situation.

"Okay, guys!" Mikey sat you across form the other turtle. "I'm really glad I was able to gather you both here today. Before I'll let you sort everything out, I want you to know Dr. Feelings is really proud of you both!"

He reached to the pocket of the sweater he was wearing and pulled out two smiley face stickers, sticking one of them on the fabric covering your front and the other in the same place but on Donnie's purple hoodie. You and the turtle looked at each other confused.

"Now, I'll leave you to talk!" you tried to protest but before you opened your mouth, he was already gone.

Awkward silence filled the room.

"Hey-"

"So-"

"You first, sorry-"

"No, you-"

"..."

"..."

You both avoided each other's gaze. You took a deep breath.

"I guess we both had some issues then." a dry chuckle left your lips.

"Yeah..." he replied quietly. "If-... If you're not ready to talk then we don't have to. I'm certainly very nervous as well and talking about feelings isn't my thing-"

"No! No, it's okay. I-" you slightly lifted your gaze observing as the turtle nervously fiddled with his fingers. "I don't want all Mikey's work to go to waste. He did make effort to talk to us so..."

Donnie hummed in understanding not knowing what actually he was supposed to say. You took another deep breath trying to relax at least a little bit, following Mikey's advices. Still, an uneasy feeling started to build up in your stomach.

"I can start if you want?" you heard another humm telling you to continue. "Well... I guess you already figured out that I like you, romantically. I wanted to tell you sooner but... I was afraid. Of the feeling and what it took with it. I'm still trying to figure everything out, but I'm willing to try if- if you're also willing to..."

Suddenly, you started to feel shame. Was it really good to talk about it now? Isn't it to soon? Or maybe you were completely wrong and he didn't even felt the same?

"I..." you could hear anxiety in Donnie's voice, making you lift your gaze at his face. He was looking at his linked fingers, dark hue covering his cheeks making his purple markings seem to glow.

"I know I'm not very acknowledged with the concept of feelings, nor do I know how to express them, but I'll try." he looked up at you, but not quite meeting your eyes. "I also have romantic feelings for you. I know how you feel and I'm willing to work on them, even though I'm not fully understanding them yet."

You could swear your heart stopped beating for a second, even if the turtle told you straightforwardly that he likes you, it still felt surreal. You knew well enough about Donnie's problems with the verbal expressions of his feelings, and the fact how much effort he was putting in talking about it, made you admire him even more.

If he could do that, then you can too.

Soft smile made its way on your lips, the slight movement caught the reptile's attention making him fully look at you. He could see the shine of hope in your eyes mixed with adoration at which his cheeks darkened more than before. His heart quickened and weird feeling swirled in his stomach. After his 'lessons' with the youngest of brothers, Donnie was finally able to put a name to the foreign emotion he experienced every time while being beside you.

Shifting forward, he lifted his hand and put it on your own, squeezing it lightly. Smile similar to your own graced his face, this time your cheeks started to feel warmer.

"We'll figure it out together." not being able to form any words, you nodded sheepishly.

He really was in love, wasn't he?

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"I cannot believe that Don Ton, out of everyone, is the first to be with someone!" the blue-masked twin threw his hands in the air with defeat.

"Well, if you want to, I can sign you up on Dr. Feelings sessions-"

"No thanks, I'm not ready to have all my emotional trauma exposed."

The dotted turtle only chuckled knowing that his brother won't be able to escape for to long.

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Okay I posted the whole fic

Everything is good now

No one saw me publish not finished request right?

No?

Good

Because it didn't happened