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Update on my fics

Hi everyone! I just want to start off by saying thank you all so much for supporting me thus far. I cannot thank you all enough for all the compliments and words of encouragement. I have not been the best when it comes to updating, but now that I am out of college, I have more time to write. I am employed full-time now, but when I get bored, I just write lol. And now I don’t have homework to worry about, I just work and go home. Anyway, here are some updates on my fics: 

Best Friend of My Friend with Benefits (BFoMFwB, lmao thats a long acronym) - Jungkook x Reader, Jimin x Reader: After updating the last chapter, I got a bunch of inspiration to continue writing that I ended up writing the next few chapters and finished writing the series. So, you can look forward to the next few chapters being uploaded soon. 

Tease - Baekhyun x Reader: I have an idea of what the next few chapters will look like. This series elicits so much emotion out of me that sometimes I need emotional breaks to write it. But I love it, so I’m continuing on. I’m half way done with the next chapter so you should expect something soon. 

Saving Lives - Baekhyun x Reader: Okay so this is serious. Ever since the news about Kris Wu came out, I feel uncomfortable having him in my fic. So I am going to edit it to replace him with his another member. I can’t believe the things he’s done and he deserves to rot in jail for all the shit he’s done to those girls. I also hope those girls get the justice they deserve. So, yeah he’s out of my work. 

Anyways, these are all the updates I have so far, or at least the one’s I remember. Please look forward to my work and I appreciate you all once again. 

~admin L

omg an update for tease :0 i know that this series is p steamy but i cant help but love it for its sweet and gentle moments cos ngl caring baek and jealous naughty baek share the same space in my heart haha i hope mc and him have their convo tho and get to articulate what they want to be (im sure they know but saying its always a challenge altho hmm does baek confessing earlier count? :0) cant wait for the next chap and tysm for this! congrats on your grad + 1st job and hope its a great place^^

yessss, I know! I finally updated haha. Yeah I didn’t expect this chapter to be that steamy. I actually wrote a completely different chapter initially with no smut, but then this idea came to me and decided to go with this instead. But I’m saving the other chapter for later. They will eventually have to face the fact that there’s something going on between them, but we’ll see hehe. And thanks for the compliments!

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Oh goodness! An update to Best Friend of my Friend with Benefits?! 🥺😭🤧 I loved this little series since it came out in 2018 🥰😭😭 ohh lots of action going on in this part—whew but I loved it nonetheless. ❤️❤️ thank you for the update and for never forgetting about us. 💛🤍❤️ I hope all is well with you 💕☺️

I can never forget about you all! ❤️ This is one of my favorite fics to write and I’m so excited to continue updating

Best Friend of my FWB pt. 6 (M)

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader, Jimin x Reader

Genre: series, this chapter is angsty af, smut (it’s cute tho), fluff, au

Word Count: 8,771

Warnings: Swearing, grinding, oral (f & m receiving), eating out, mouth/throat fucking, riding, slight possessiveness, cute smut i think hehe, and some other stuff that i probably forgot 

Summary: You and Jimin have been friends with benefits for a while. Because of that, you’ve met his best friend Jungkook on several occasions. Some of those moments were not so appropriate. But your not-so-existent relationship with Jungkook changes when you work at the same place as him and have to pretend to be his girlfriend.

A/N: I’ve had this chapter written for so long, but every time I would reread it, I would hate it and rewrite everything lol. Anyway, here it is and I hope you enjoy it. I wrote more than I thought, probably my longest chapter yet. 

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8

Taglist: @erraaxh @bunnybearrj​ 

Part 6: 

You wake up with a slight head ache, groaning quietly to yourself as you attempt to sit up, when you feel a firm arm wrapped around your waist. You look to the side to find a semi-naked Jungkook beside you. You lift up the covers to confirm that it is not a semi-naked Jungkook, but indeed a fully naked Jungkook. You are also naked and confused.

You think back to the events of last night: drinking at Jimin’s place, him kissing you in front of everyone, Seolhyun storming out, you storming out, Jungkook comforting you, you sleeping with Jungkook. You weren’t extremely drunk yesterday, you were aware of your actions, but you weren’t sure if you made the right decisions.

Jungkook was so sweet to you and he confessed that he indeed likes you. But that’s the exact reason why you shouldn’t have slept with him. You don’t know how you feel. You know what you said, and you weren’t technically lying. You do like him, but you’re not sure if it’s more than a friend. All you know is that you like being around Jungkook and he makes you feel so nice inside. But does that mean you like him too?

He is also way too good for you anyway. You would only bring him down with your messy life and drama. You don’t know why you slept with him. Probably because he was so comforting and said all the right things. And not to forget that he is hot as fuck. The fact that he said he likes you hurts your heart. You don’t know if you have it in you to give him what he wants, what he needs. You’re problematic, you’re not the dating type for that reason. No one should be with you.

You’re taken out of your thoughts when you feel Jungkook pull you closer. He nuzzles himself in your neck and sighs. “Good morning,” he says in a deep, husky morning voice. He sounds so attractive right now, but now is not the time to be thinking these things about Jungkook, you internally scold yourself.

“Good morning,” you say quietly, trying not to startle him in his half-asleep state.

He opens his eyes slowly and smiles. He kisses your neck before leaning away and stretching his arms up. He turns to look at you as he props his head up with his hand and leans on his elbow. You do the same, facing him with a small smile. He leans forward and captures your lips which you guiltily reciprocate.

You lean back and force a smile. “Do you want breakfast?”

He nods his head and hums. You both get out of bed and get dressed, Jungkook only being in his boxers since his suit is in the dryer and it’s not really comfortable to wear casually. You both walk to the kitchen and decide to cook together. You decide to make pancakes, which leads to some messy chaos. You’re both fooling around, chasing each other, sprinkling flour on each other, putting batter on each other’s cheeks and licking it off, laughing at each other’s goofy actions. Once you’re done cooking, you serve yourselves, you sitting on your kitchen counter and Jungkook on his feet in front of you, leaning his forearms on the counter next to you.

He is looking at you in adoration, barely touching his food while thinking of how lucky he is to finally call you his. You look at Jungkook, seeing the sweetness in his eyes. You feel so guilty for putting him in this position, but you decide it’s best to rip off the bandaid before things get more complicated. You just hope he understands it’s for the best.

“Jungkook,” you grab his attention.

“Hmm,” he hums sweetly, big round eyes staring back at you.

“How do you feel about last night?”

“Which part?” He cocks his head to the side.

“Ummm everything?” you say more in the form of a question.

“Well the dinner was nice. I felt like we accomplished a lot. The after party at Jimin’s started out great, but ended terribly. I don’t like seeing you in distress,” he says grabbing your hand, rubbing it with his thumb comfortingly. “But the sex was amazing,” he chuckles.

“Did you really mean what you said?” you ask biting your lip.

“When I said what?”

“When you said you like me?”

“Of course I did. Like I said, I wouldn’t have slept with you if I didn’t have feelings for you.”

You sigh. Time to rip the bandaid off. “Listen Jungkook, I don’t think you should like me.”

Jungkook pauses and furrows his eyebrows in confusion. “What?”

“I’m not a good person, Jungkook. I don’t think I can give you what you want. I’m not dating material. It’s best you don’t like me.”

Jungkook suddenly stands up straight, completely speechless and confused. “I don’t- I don’t understand.”

“I think us having sex was a mistake. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that to you. I was in a vulnerable state and I took advantage of your kindness. I’m not the person you should be dating.”

He scratches the back of his neck, trying to digest what you’re saying. “But I want to date you. And besides, you said you liked me back.”

You inhale slowly, trying to calm yourself from this very nerve-wracking conversation. “I know I said that. But in all honesty, I don’t know how I feel. Yes, I like you, but I’m not sure in what way. I think you’re great, but I don’t think I can be that person for you.”

Jungkook takes a deep breath, trying to hold in his anger. He can’t believe you played him like this. He never saw this betrayal coming from you. You lied that you liked him just so you can sleep with him? Then what was all the cuddling and kissing, even the cooking this morning; what was that all about if you didn’t like him that way? Were you just leading him on?

“Where’s my clothes?” Jungkook asks seriously.

“Wait, Jungkook don’t leave,” you say hopping off your kitchen counter.

Jungkook begins frantically looking around your apartment for the dryer. You’re right behind him, trying to get him to calm down. He finds it at the end of the hall and starts retrieving his clothes.

“Jungkook please, let’s talk about this,” you say desperately.

“There’s nothing more to talk about,” he says, quickly putting on his clothes. “You lied that you liked me. You had sex with me knowing exactly how I felt about sleeping with others. I’m not like you. I can’t sleep with whoever, whenever. I can’t give myself to just anyone.” He suddenly laughs sarcastically and continues. “Yet here I am leaving a meaningless hookup after you let me confess to you. I feel so stupid. I can’t be here right now.”

He’s done getting dressed, just his pants, socks, and button up shirt on, his suit jacket in his hands. He walks past you angrily as he walks toward his shoes by the front door.

“Jungkook, I didn’t mean to lie. I don’t know how I feel. I didn’t mean to hurt you.” You say as he puts his shoes on.

He didn’t even bother responding, slamming the door on his way out.  

You take a shaky breath trying to calm yourself from the situation that just happened. You walk over to the couch and sit there, staring into nothing. What have you done? You didn’t expect things to go this way. Hurting Jungkook was never your intention. In fact, that’s the last thing you would ever want to do. He’s always been there for you and you genuinely care for him. But you knew that being with you would have hurt him more. You don’t know what to do, you don’t know who to talk to. Calling Seolhyun for advice would have been your first option, but you’re not sure if she’s even willing to talk to you after Jimin kissed you at the after party. You obviously can’t call Jimin. You sigh before going to your room and rummaging through your purse from last night. You call the person who knows you really well and that you have significant history with.

~

The door bell rings and you open it to see him standing there like it was just yesterday.

“Thanks for inviting me over,” says Hoseok.

You step to the side to let him in. “Thanks for coming. I don’t know who else to talk to. I’m having a bit of a hard time right now.”

He makes himself comfortable on your couch, tapping the seat next to him. “Well I’m all ears.”

You take the seat next to him and slump. “What kind of person do you think I am?” you ask curiously.

Hoseok hums in thought for a second before speaking. “I think you’re fun, personable, sexy.”

You roll your eyes at the last statement, but choose to ignore it. “What kind of girlfriend was I to you?”

Hoseok purses his lips. “You were cool, and sweet. Every guy wanted you and I was the lucky one who dated you.”

“Then why did you cheat on me?” you ask turning to look at him.

He puts his hands up in fake surrender. “Hey, I was just a kid. I didn’t know any better. I thought with my dick, not with my head.”

You roll your eyes at that answer. “Well how did you think I would have reacted when I found out about your other girlfriends?”

“Well initially I hoped you wouldn’t have found out,” he chuckled, but stopped once he saw your serious face. “But I knew it was inevitable because we all ran in the same circles. But to be honest, I thought you would have forgiven me because of how sweet you were. You were super trusting, innocent, and compassionate. I didn’t see it coming when you started sleeping around and partying hard.”

You sigh. It’s true, you were so naïve and you were such a romantic. You gave Hoseok your all. You loved him. He was your first everything. Shit, you would have forgiven him for cheating if it didn’t hurt so bad. But you didn’t want to feel that way ever again. So you swore off dating so you wouldn’t ever feel the pain he caused you any more. You began receiving pleasure from sleeping around, but that came with a bunch of baggage and judging. When Hoseok did it, it was fine, he was a treated like a King. But when you did it, you were called a slut, you were treated like shit, and guys would think they could grope you whenever they felt like it. But at least it didn’t hurt as much as being betrayed by the person you loved.

However, it wasn’t until now that you realized that you could hurt the people around you too. You could still fuck someone over even if you aren’t dating or exclusive.

You sigh once again. “I think I fucked up.”

“How so?” asks Hoseok, putting his arm on couch above your shoulders, almost touching you.

“You know, my, uh, boyfriend,” you say awkwardly, almost forgetting you told Hoseok that Jungkook was your boyfriend.

“Yeah, the kid with the round eyes,” he says nonchalantly.

“Yeah him. Well I think I hurt him really badly and I don’t know how to fix it.”

“Well, you’re not the dating type anymore. Just like me. You’re not meant to be in a relationship.”

You scoff at his words. “I’m nothing like you.”

“We sleep around, we like to have fun, we’re the people others want to be around because we know how to have a good time.”

You stay quiet, knowing he’s somewhat right.

“And there’s nothing wrong with that,” Hoseok continues.

“I guess,” you say quietly.

“Why don’t you remind me how good of a time you are,” Hoseok says as he places his hand on your thigh.

You quickly swat it away, annoyed that he’s really trying to make moves on you right now. “Are you serious, Hoseok? You can’t even go one fucking second without trying to fuck something.”

“Listen Y/N. This is the type of people we are. The person you have become. Why not embrace it?” he says as he puts his arm around your shoulder.

Was he right? Is this the person you are now? Incapable of having a serious relationship with someone? Did he fuck you up that bad?

You didn’t do anything when Hoseok leaned in and started kissing your neck. You just let it happen. I mean that’s who you were, right? He rests his hand on your thigh again as he moves his lips up to your mouth. You lean back to lay on your couch as Hoseok hovers above you, one of his hands already under your shirt.

You’re making out for about a minute when you receive an email notification on your phone. It’s probably from work, you thought. You turn your head toward your coffee table as Hoseok begins kissing your neck again. You grab your phone and are met with the lock screen photo of you kissing Jungkook on the cheek. You stare at it, thinking back to the memory of when you took that photo.

It was an average day at work, and you were both on your lunch break. A new cafe had opened up near your job so you both decided to try it out.

“This is cute,” you say, looking around at the well furnished cafe with dainty designs and beautiful artwork hung on the walls.

“Yeah it is,” Jungkook says sitting across from you, not even bothering to look at the place, but instead stares at you curiously looking at your surroundings.

You turn your head to look at the gorgeous pastries on display. “Oh my god, I want to eat everything in here.”

He chuckles at your comment. “Babe, you gotta eat real food, not just pastries.”

“I know, but it won’t hurt to buy one, or three,” you smirk, ignoring the way your heart fluttered when Jungkook called you ‘babe.’

“How about we take some to go?” he asks, trying to find a happy medium.

You nod enthusiastically, your childish nature coming out. “I like that idea. We can share with Namjoon and Taehyung.”

Jungkook smiles and nods as he looks back down at his menu.

The waiter comes by and takes your order.

“I’m not sure what to get,” says Jungkook. “Should I get the specialty sandwich or the pasta?”

“How about you order the pasta, and I order the sandwich and then we can split it?”

Jungkook nods and turns to the waiter. “Yeah, we’ll do that. And we’ll get one americano, light ice, and a latte with an extra shot of espresso.”

The waiter nods as he takes both of your menus and walks away.

“You remember my order?” you say to Jungkook, a little surprised.

“Of course I do,” he says nonchalantly.

“Why are you such an amazing friend?” you ask with loving eyes.

Jungkook’s heart tinged a little at being called a friend, but nonetheless hid his feelings with a smile. “I’m not. It just surprised me how much caffeine you like in your drinks the first time we had coffee together.”

You laugh aloud. “Yeah, I do like my caffeine. It helps me get through the day of being constantly berated for being your girlfriend.”

Jungkook scratches the back of his neck awkwardly. “Yeah I’m sorry about that. Honestly, if you really want to stop this, we can.”

You wave your hands. “No way. I like being your girlfriend.”

Jungkook’s heart skipped a beat at the sound of you calling yourself his girlfriend, even if he knows it’s just pretend.

“I’ll take being hated for being your girlfriend than be slut shamed and harassed any day.”

“Or you could choose neither,” he playfully suggests.

You laugh, “Yeah that’s true.”

The waiter comes by and drops off your drinks to which you thankfully accept.

You take a sip of your latte before you continue your conversation. “Well these are the consequences for dating the hottest guy in the office,” you say with a wink.

Jungkook sarcastically laughs. “Who are you cheating on me with because that sure as hell is not me.”

“What are you talking about? A bunch of girls have a crush on you.”

“This is the first time I’m hearing of this,” he says, not believing your statement.

“That’s because Mina scares them away and marks her territory before they can even approach you. Good thing I’m not easily scared.”

Jungkook chuckles. “You’re making this up.”

“Babe, I swear! Some of our coworkers came up to me saying how I was brave for getting with you, despite Mina’s wrath. They said they were too scared to try and congratulated me and everything.”

Jungkook blushes at the sound of you calling him ‘babe.’ He coughs awkwardly before slightly changing the subject. “I think the reason people hate us together is because you’re way out of my league.”

You scoff. “What are you talking about? You’re literally so fucking hot.”

Jungkook’s cheeks burn at the compliment, but composed himself quickly. “You’re just saying that because I’m your boyfriend,” he says playfully.

“Yeah, I am,” you say. “You think I would date someone ugly?” You both laugh at your joke, but you continue. “Seriously Jungkook, I don’t know when the last time you looked in the mirror was, but you’re genuinely one of the most attractive people I know. You have a cute smile, gorgeous bone structure, and a body that resembles a Greek god. You sir, are way out of my league.”

Jungkook’s heart skipped a beat at the compliments, he just wishes he believed you.

It is then that the waiter comes by with your food. He places the pasta down in front of Jungkook, and the sandwich in front of you, along with two separate plates for sharing food. You both thank him as you begin splitting the food, Jungkook pouring half of his pasta onto one of the empty plates and you placing his half of the sandwich and chips on the other. You both taste the food and moan at how delicious it is.

“Wow, okay we need to come here again,” you say, taking another forkful of pasta into your mouth.

He nods quickly, taking another bite of the sandwich.

“Oh, I’ve been meaning to ask you something,” you say abruptly.

“What?”

“How are you planning on getting yourself a real girlfriend if everyone thinks we’re dating? People think you’re off the market.”

Jungkook freezes, not really knowing what to say. He doesn’t mind people thinking he’s off the market. He doesn’t really want to date anyone unless it’s you. Even if that means it’s just pretend.

“I’m not really interested in pursuing anyone right now. I’m happy with what I have now.”

“You’re happy with a fake girlfriend and a creepy stalker?” you ask lifting a suspicious eyebrow.

“Fake girlfriend, yes. Stalker, no,” he says chuckling.

You laugh as well. “Well just let me know when you wanna break up and I’ll be out of your hair,” you say with a smile as the waiter approaches to pour you both more water.

He gives you a weird look after hearing your words. Once he leaves, you and Jungkook burst into laughter at the waiter’s reaction.

You spend the rest of lunch doing what you normally do on your lunch breaks with Jungkook: you speak about dumb things, debate about conspiracy theories, and laugh about nothing.

The waiter tending to you offered to take a picture of you both. You accepted the offer and leaned closer for the photo, one of them being your current phone background of you kissing Jungkook on the cheek.

That was such a great day, much like most days you spent with Jungkook. It feels like you’re the only people on Earth when you’re with him. It was always a fun time with him by your side, even when you do the most simple things like have lunch.

You can’t believe how badly you hurt him, one of the sweetest people in the world. He’s caring, supportive, and perfect. He’s a person you cherish so much and you blew it. You hate that you’re the reason he’s hurting right now. And all because you selfishly wanted protect yourself. You feel so empty, but all you really want right now is Jungkook, and you want him now.

You’re taken out of your thoughts when you feel Hoseok unbuttoning your pants. You grab his shoulders and gently push him away. “I can’t do this,” you say sitting up.  

“Why not? We were just getting started baby,” says Hoseok as tries to lean in to kiss you again.

You place your hands on his chest to stop him. “I don’t want to be like you. I don’t want to fuck around anymore.”

“You can’t escape what you are Y/N.”

“Well I’m going to try. Now get out.”

Hoseok scoffs, but gets up nonetheless.

“Call me when you change your mind,” he says as he finishes putting on his shoes.

“Probably not going to happen.”

“We’ll see about that,” he says and leaves your apartment.

You roll your eyes but nonetheless, that does not deter you from your determination to make things right. You have a list to go down from.

You grab your phone and begin to call Jungkook. A few rings pass before you’re sent to voicemail. You expected this much to be honest, but you’re not going to give up. You call him a few more times and get sent straight to voicemail. Ok, don’t panic, you’ll just have to come back to that.

You go to your kitchen to get yourself a glass of water before you begin your mission. As you’re drinking, your phone rings. You immediately snatch it from the counter, hoping it’s Jungkook, but to your disappointment, Jimin’s caller ID shows up. You don’t bother picking up, not wanting to deal with him right now.

You decide to skew from your initial goal and make a group chat with Namjoon and Taehyung. You draft a text to both of them, hoping they’ll be receptive.

You: hey guys, it’s Y/N. I just want to apologize for what happened last night. I’m sorry if I made things awkward and ruined your night

To your surprise, Namjoon responds rather quickly.

Namjoon: no need to apologize Y/N. it wasn’t your fault Jimin kissed you. he should be the one apologizing

Taehyung responds as well.

Taehyung: yeah, you didn’t do anything wrong. Jimin has always been kind of a problematic slut, but this was a new low for him

Your eyes widen at Taehyung calling Jimin a slut. You haven’t heard someone call a guy a slut before. This reassures you that Jungkook was right about Namjoon and Taehyung.

You: thanks guys. I thought you guys would be mad at me

Taehyung: for what?

You: for basically cheating on Jungkook

Namjoon: it’s not like you initiated it. plus you pushed Jimin off. trust me, you’re good in our book

You smile at the texts, some of the heavy weight being lifted off your chest.

You thank the boys once again before calling Seolhyun.

~

“Thanks for meeting with me Seolhyun,” you say as you take a seat in the coffee shop table.

“It’s no problem,” says Seolhyun, giving you a small smile.

“Listen, I’m so sorry about what happened last night. I didn’t mean to disrespect you in any way.”

Seolhyun looks a little confused. The change in her facial features worry you so you continue.

“You are one of my best friends. I wouldn’t do anything to intentionally hurt you. I promise I-“

Seolhyun interrupts you when she places her hand above yours on the table. “I’m not mad at you. You didn’t do anything. It was Jimin who did this.”

Even though that maybe true, you feel guilty nonetheless. This could have technically been prevented if you didn’t have some sort of sexual relationship with Jimin. You think it’s only right for you to come clean.

“I’m going to tell you something, but please don’t hate me.”

Seolhyun takes an unsteady deep breath, but nods nonetheless.

“Jimin is, or rather was, my friend with benefits,” you pause slightly to see her reaction. Her face shows an unreadable emotion. You don’t know what to expect so you continue to explain. “I met him before I met Jungkook. And I’m not actually dating Jungkook. I’m only pretending to because this girl from work, Mina - remember her from the dinner, she won’t stop bothering him at work and he asked me to pretend to be his girlfriend so she can leave him alone. I agreed to help him out because he’s Jimin’s friend and we work at the same place. I invited you to the dinner as Jimin’s date because I was going to be with Jungkook all night and Jimin wanted to tag along, but with a date. I suggested for you to go because I think you’re great and Jimin is, or was, a great friend, and I wanted you both to have a good time. I knew you guys would vibe well together and if one thing led to another, then I would have supported that. I didn’t know at the time that Jimin had feelings for me, and I should have been honest with you about my relationship with him to begin with. I’m sorry.”

Seolhyun hasn’t reacted or said anything during your whole rant. You’re scared of her reaction because you don’t want to lose her as a friend.

Seolhyun takes a sip of her coffee and sighs. “I forgive you.”

“What? Really?” you say, holding her hand tight.

“Yes,” she says chuckling at your exaggerated actions. “I don’t actually have feelings for Jimin. Yeah he’s cool, but not boyfriend material. Besides, I knew he had a thing for you because he would stare at you all night and he went up to dance with you and never asked me. I stormed out because I was humiliated and embarrassed, not so much because I liked Jimin. So trust me, water under the bridge.”

She squeezes your hand back and gives you a genuine smile. You smile back, rubbing your thumb on top of her hand.

“Thank you,” you sigh.

“No problem,” she smiles and takes a sip of her drink. “Oh, by the way. You were really convincing, pretending to date Jungkook. You had everyone fooled. You should consider acting,” she says with a laugh.

You give her a small smile, but immediately lose it at the thought of Jungkook. “Yeah, a lot of people say that.”

Seolhyun looks at you worriedly. “What’s wrong?”

You look her in the eyes and sigh. “I messed up big time with Jungkook.”

“What do you mean?” she tilts her head.

“After I left Jimin’s place all angry yesterday, Jungkook accompanied me home. He comforted me and cared for me, like he usually does. He was making me feel things, good things, so I attempted to have sex with him. The thing about Jungkook is that he doesn’t have sex with someone unless he has feelings for them and they reciprocate it back.”

“Awww, such a sweet boy,” Seolhyun coos.

You chuckle at her comment. “I know right! Before we slept together, he confessed that he liked me, like more than a friend. And I told him I liked him back too and had sex with him. This morning, I was in my head and thought about how I would corrupt Jungkook if we dated and how I would be bad for him. He deserves better than me. So I told him that we shouldn’t be together and that sleeping with him was a mistake.”

“Oh no,” says Seolhyun, squeezing your hand.

“I know. You can imagine how hurt he was. He probably felt used. He stormed out of my apartment and now he won’t pick up my calls.”

It’s Seolhyun who is now rubbing your hand with her thumb. “Well, how do you feel about Jungkook?”

You scrunch your eyebrows as you take a sip of your drink. “What do you mean?”

“I mean do you like him?”

You think about it for a second. You’ve only had great times with Jungkook, amazing times. Every time you’re with him, nothing else around you matters, except for him. You care for him so deeply. But you don’t know if that’s enough to like him as a significant other. And regardless of that, you wouldn’t be good for him anyway.

Your lack of response elicits Seolhyun to continue. “All you’ve been saying is that you’re no good for Jungkook and that he’s better off without you, which is not true. But you haven’t said how you feel, or whether you like him back or not. You want the best for him, even if the best isn’t with you. But how would you know that unless you try? You have to stop being afraid of falling for someone. Right now, you’re hurting Jungkook the same way Hoseok hurt you. You felt just as used and betrayed as Jungkook probably feels right now. You shouldn’t protect him from yourself, especially if that means sacrificing your own happiness. You’re not Hoseok, and Jungkook isn’t you. Let go of the past and let yourself be happy. You deserve it.”

You didn’t realize the tear that fell down your cheek until Seolhyun leaned over and wiped it away.

“It’s okay,” she says softly. “It’s okay to be happy. And it’s okay to fall for someone. I can’t promise you that you won’t get hurt, or that it’ll be an easy journey. But I can tell by the way Jungkook looks at you that he’s a great guy and wouldn’t intentionally hurt you. Relationships are a risk, but when it works out, the pay off is worth it.”

You nod as you sniffle away the tears. Seolhyun stands up and gives you a hug as you wipe your tears away. “I can’t believe you made me cry in public,” you joke.

She chuckles as she lets go and returns to her seat. “Hey, I’m just trying to be a good friend here.”

“You are. You’re an amazing friend,” you smile.

~

You wave goodbye to Seolhyun and begin walking back home. You’re listening to music when suddenly your phone rings for the 40th time. You look to see it’s Jimin again, not taking the hint that you don’t want to talk to him. Then again, you shouldn’t be talking because you’re doing the same thing with Jungkook. You haven’t stopped calling him and he refuses to answer. You don’t even know how to reach him, you don’t even know where he lives.

You immediately stop in your tracks when the realization hits you. It’s time to take advantage of this opportunity. You decide to finally answer Jimin’s call.

“What?” you say harshly on the phone.

“Oh my god. Y/N, you answered. Listen I’m sor-“

“I don’t really want to talk to you right now Jimin,” you interrupt. “But I have a favor to ask you. We’ll chat after when I’ve gathered my thoughts.”

“Alright, for sure. I’ll do anything,” he says desperately.

“Text me Jungkook’s address.”

Jimin pauses for a second before coughing awkwardly. “O-oh yeah, sure. I’ll send it right now.”

“Good, I’ll talk to you later then.” You hang up before Jimin can say anything else. You speed walk home, hearing the ding of Jimin’s message on your way back.

~

You knock on the door frantically. You’re hunched over with your hands on your knees, out of breath from running up the stairs to Jungkook’s apartment. Why don’t these places have elevators?

Right when you think he’s not going to answer, the door suddenly opens. Jungkook’s eyes widen as you straighten yourself out, the realization hitting him that you were standing right in front of him.

“Can we talk?” you say out of breath. “Please?”

Jungkook hesitates for a second before moving to the side to let you in. You gratefully step inside and remove your shoes by the entrance. You stand there awkwardly as Jungkook just looks at you in silence.

You decide to speak nonetheless. “Listen Jungkook, I’m so sorry for hurting you.”

“I know you are,” says Jungkook. “Are we done now?”

Your heart tinged at the unexpected attitude from Jungkook. You deserve that, but it still hurts.

“Can we please sit on the couch and talk for a minute?”

Jungkook sighs, but nonetheless makes his way to the couch. You take that as a yes and follow him there. You sit next to him but not too close to make him uncomfortable.

“Jungkook, I’m so sorry,” you repeat again. Jungkook sighs, annoyed by your continuous apologies, but says nothing, so you continue. “I never intended to hurt you. That’s the last thing I wanted to do.”

“But you intentionally lied to me and led me on to think that you liked me too.” He runs a frustrated hand through his hair. “Do you know how humiliating it is to be used like this?”

“But I do like you Jungkook.” He opens his mouth to say something, but can’t find the words to say it, so you continue. “At least I think I do.”

Jungkook looks away with a scoff, annoyed at your unsure response, but you continue, not wanting him to get away again.

“Look, as you know, I’m not a relationship type of person. I used to be, but that was until someone I trusted and loved the most in this world hurt me. I didn’t want to feel that way ever again, so I thought the best solution was to not catch feelings for anyone. But I did. I caught feelings for you.”

Jungkook turns to look at you, trying to see if you’re telling the truth. “Really?”

“Yes, really. It’s been a while since I’ve felt this way about someone, and I got really confused and scared. I got scared of getting hurt again, but I also got scared of hurting you. I see a lot of my old self in you and I didn’t want to fuck you over like Hoseok fucked me up. But I didn’t realize that in trying to protect you, I hurt you more.”

“You don’t have to protect me,” Jungkook says abruptly. “And you’re not Hoseok.”

“I get that now. And I want to trust again. I want to be committed again. Yes, I’m terrified of getting hurt, but I’m more terrified of losing you.”

You close your eyes momentarily and take a deep, shaky breath. You’re not used to being this vulnerable about your emotions, but you know you have to if you want Jungkook, so you continue.

“Look, I’m not good at talking about my feelings or understanding them. But all I know is that when I’m with you, I feel the best about myself. You are the highlight of my day, of my week. Fuck it, meeting you was the highlight of my year and I’ve never said this about anyone. I’m sorry it took me this long to realize my feelings for you.” Caught in the moment of your bold statements, you lean forward and grab his hand. “I like you Jungkook. I want to be with you. I’m sorry I hurt you and I hate myself for it. But I promise I will spend the rest of my days making it up to you, if you’ll let me.”

You nervously look into Jungkook’s eyes expectingly. You were beginning to get worried at his lack of expression when he suddenly cracks into a smile. You let out a sigh of relief and smile.

“Oh god I almost had a heart attack,” you say with laughter, clutching your heart with your free hand that isn’t holding Jungkook’s.

“Relationships are really that scary for you?” he jokes.

“Yes, they are. But I want to be brave for you.”

Jungkook smiles at your words. He knows that took a lot for you to say, or do. He’s proud of how far you have come and he’s flattered at the work you are willing to put in for him.

“So does this mean you’re going to be monogamous now?” asks Jungkook jokingly.

“One hundred percent. I’m all yours.”

“All mine?” he teases you.

“Only yours, if you’ll be only mine.”

Jungkook leans forward and places a kiss on your lips. “I’m all yours,” he says smiling. He leans forward again and you happily reciprocate the kiss. You wrap your arms around his neck and deepen the kiss as you open your mouth slightly, inviting his tongue to mix with yours. You slowly lay yourself down on his couch as he places both of his hands by your head and hovers over you, never breaking the kiss.

This is the position you want to be in, under Jungkook and no one else. You feel one of Jungkook’s hands roam the sides of your body, feeling every inch of you. He slides his hand down to your thigh before lifting it so you can wrap it around his waist. You get the memo and lock your legs around Jungkook. He ruts against you, feeling his semi-hard on against your clothed core. He groans in your mouth in pleasure, sounding absolutely euphoric. You decide to tease him to hear more of his sinful sounds, thrusting your hips up to meet his, causing him to growl against your mouth.

He breaks away from the kiss, looking at you with lustful eyes. “You don’t know what you do to me,” he says deeply.

“Why don’t you show me?” you say quietly. Jungkook lifts a challenging eyebrow and smirks before reaching behind you to grab your ass, and swiftly lifts you up. You yelp in surprise, but cling onto him nonetheless. You continue to make out as he makes his way to what you presume to be his room. You only confirm it when your back gently touches his bed, never breaking the kiss.

Jungkook’s hands make their way under your shirt, to cup your breasts. You moan into his mouth when he squeezes your tits.

“Who’s tits are these?” he asks against your lips.

“Yours,” you say breathlessly.

“That’s right. They’re only mine.” With that, he swiftly pulls you up into a sitting position so that he can remove your confining shirt. He reaches behind you and takes your bra off as well, leaving you half-naked on his bed.

You’re loving this possessive side of Jungkook, never having seen it before. This makes your heart flutter at the fact that he wants you, and only you.

“You’re so beautiful,” he says as he grabs your tits and squeezes them. “So big. So perfect.” He leans down and begins to suck on one of your nipples while pinching the other one with his hand.

“J-Jungkook,” you moan, arching your back at the feeling, holding yourself up with your arms behind you.

“Yes baby. Say my name again.” He moves on to the other nipple, gently holding it between his teeth.

“Jungkook,” you whine.

He licks the sensitive nub before backing away and slowly pushes you against the sheets again. He kisses the valley of your breasts, down your stomach, until he reaches the waist band of your jeans. He looks up at you through his eyelashes to see you in bliss.

“I’m going to make you feel so good,” he says as he unbuttons your jeans and pulls down your zipper. You lift your hips as he swiftly removes your jeans and underwear in one go. He throws it with the other pile of clothes before laying on his stomach, in front of your pussy. He grabs your legs and hoists them up to rest on his shoulders, being completely exposed to him.

“Your pussy looks so delicious,” he groans. Before you have time to lift your head to see what he’s doing, he gives you one swift lick across your core. Your head hits the pillow again, moaning at the feeling.

“So wet already, just for me.” He leans in again and gives your pussy a few good licks before pausing on your clit, and sucking on it. Your back arches in pleasure, his mouth wrapped around your most sensitive part.

“J-Jungkook,” you gasp. He hums against your clit, causing you to squeeze your thighs around his head. He lets go of your clit and kisses the inside of your left thigh.

“Relax babe.” He goes back and licks your pussy, before shoving is tongue into your hole, causing you to reach down and grip his hair. He continues to thrust his tongue in and out of your pussy until you’re a whimpering mess.

“Jungkook, please stop. I’m going to cum.” However he doesn’t stop fucking you with his tongue, only going faster as he lifts his thumb to rub your clit repeatedly. That’s all it took for you to see stars and begin cumming. Your thighs grip his head again as you pull Jungkook’s hair, his ministrations overstimulating you.

With one last kiss to your clit, Jungkook sits up and licks his lips. He crawls back up your body and kisses your lips hard. You can taste yourself on his tongue. “You taste so good,” he says against your lips. “I’ll never get tired of the taste.”

He breaks the kiss one more time, sitting up on his knees and takes his shirt off. You bite your lip at the view of Jungkook’s abs.

“You’re so fucking sexy, did you know that?” you say bluntly.

Jungkook chuckles at your comment. “You’re the only person who says that to me. I mean except for Mina, but she doesn’t count.”

You look at him dumbfounded. “Are you serious? No one has ever called you sexy before?”

“Nope, no one.”

“Then everyone must be blind. I found you attractive even before I started liking you,” you say.

“Really?” he says, looking surprised.

“Yes Jungkook. I have eyes. 20/20 vision to be exact.” You suddenly sit up and get on all fours as you crawl toward Jungkook. “But you don’t need perfect vision to see how fucking hot you are.” You sit in front of him and reach for the button on his pants. “You call me perfect, but I genuinely think you were hand crafted by God himself.”

Jungkook chuckles at your comments as you undo the zipper on his pants. You swiftly pull his pants and boxers down, exposing his hard length.

He sits down completely as he helps you take off the rest of his clothes. Once you remove them completely, you discard them somewhere in the room.

You’re sitting between his legs when you reach over and grab his hard cock. You circle your thumb around the tip, spreading his pre-cum, eliciting a hiss from Jungkook. You smile at his reaction, loving that it’s you who is doing this to him. You lean down and place small kisses on the tip of his cock before taking him all the way in your mouth. Jungkook moans loudly, your warm mouth feeling so good on his hard cock. You bob your head up and down, letting the tip hit the back of your throat.

“Fuck baby, just like that,” Jungkook says gripping the sheets. You bob your head a couple more times before pulling away with a pop.

“Jungkook,” you say, causing him to open his eyes he didn’t realize were squeezed shut. He looks at you expectingly, waiting for you to speak again. “I want you to fuck my mouth.”

Jungkook’s dick twitches at your words. “Really? You sure?”

“Very sure.” You begin making a ponytail with the hair tie you had on your wrist.

“B-but won’t it hurt?” asks a worried Jungkook.

“No. I’ve done it many times. I’m used to it.”

Jungkook purses his lips at your words. He doesn’t like hearing about your sexual experiences with other guys.

You notice his annoyance at what you said so you reach up and gently place a hand on his cheek. “You’re the first person I’ve ever asked to do this. Others guys just do it without warning and I never enjoy it. But I want you to fuck my throat until I can’t speak for days.”

Jungkook looks into your eyes and smiles.

“That’s my boy,” you say placing a peck on his lips.

You lower yourself down again and place your lips on his cock. You bob your head slowly until you feel Jungkook take hold of your ponytail. You stay still, his dick still in your mouth as he begins to slowly thrust into your mouth. You can tell he’s holding back because he’s nervous about hurting you so you decide to give him a little push. You reach over and cup his balls causing him to thrust up hard.

“Fuck,” he groans. You continue to massage his balls as he thrusts into your mouth stronger and faster. The sounds of slick saliva is filling the room.

“Babe,” Jungkook moans. “You look so hot with my cock in your mouth.”

You hallow your cheeks as you suck him off harder, causing his hips to stutter.

“Shit, I’m about to cum.”

You pop of his dick briefly. “Cum in my throat.”

“But I want to cum inside you,” he says breathlessly.

You chuckle before nodding. “Okay, how do you want me?”

“On your back. I want to see your face while I fuck you.” And you do just that, lay yourself comfortably on his bed. He hovers over you and give you a few quick pecks on the lips before backing away.

“Hold on,” he says as he reaches over his bedside table and takes out a condom. He opens it with his mouth and rolls it on to his hard cock. He has one arm by your head, holding himself up, and the other hand aligning himself with your entrance. He slowly thrusts in, causing you both to moan.

“Fuck,” he groans. “How are you so tight? We literally fucked yesterday.”

You chuckle as he slowly begins to thrust in and out, keeping a steady rhythm. He looks at you with adoration, everything feeling like complete bliss. He leans down and kisses your lips briefly before saying, “mine.”

He kisses your cheek. “Mine.”

Your nose. “Mine.”

Your forehead. “Mine.”

Your lips again. “Mine.”

You chuckle at his actions, leaving kisses all over your face.

He stops kissing you to briefly look at you. “I can’t believe you’re all mine.”

“I’m yours,” you say happily. “And I’m not going anywhere.”

Jungkook leans down and smiles into the kiss as he picks up the speed on his hips. You moan into his mouth as he hits your sweet spot.

“Jungkook, right there.”

“Right here?” he says as reaches down to rub your clit.

“F-fuck,” you whimper. “I’m going to cum.”

“Cum on my cock baby,” he groans.

You wrap your legs around his waist, the angle somehow making him reach deeper into your pussy.  

“Jungkook,” you whine.

“Cum for me. Cum for me baby girl.”

“Want you to cum too,” you say breathlessly.

“I will, don’t worry. I’ll cum in that tight hole of yours.”

You want him to cum now, so you reach under and cup his balls as he thrusts. His hips stutter at the sensation.

“Y/N,” he moans your name.

With a couple more thrusts, Jungkook is cumming. His hard thrusts consistently hit your sweet spot that you start to cum too.

“Fuck. You’re clenching onto my cock baby. You’re so perfect.” His voice sounds strained as he gives a few more thrusts before thrusting in fully and staying there.

He looks at you so kindly as he’s pushing your hair away from your face. “So pretty. My pretty baby.”

You smile, never getting tired of the compliments.

Once he feels that you’ve both come down from your highs, he pulls out and lays next to you. He quickly discards of the condom before turning to you. You’re already staring at him, a smile on your face.

“How did I get so lucky,” you say wholeheartedly.

“That’s my line,” says Jungkook, bringing his hand up to cup your cheek.

You turn your head and kiss his hand. You turn back and look him in the eyes once more. “I’m so sorry I hurt you Jungkook,” you say genuinely.

“You can stop apologizing now. I know you’re sorry. And I forgive you.” He rubs your cheek with his thumb.

“It just hurt me to see you so broken, and it was all because of me.”

“But I get it. You were trying to protect yourself. And me. I’m just glad you decided to give us a chance.”

“I’m glad too. I’m nervous, but excited to start this journey with you. Officially,” you smirk.

“Right,” he chuckles. “No more pretending. This time it’s real.”

“It doesn’t feel that much different, besides the sex part.”  

Jungkook chuckles and you continue.

“I think pretending was natural for me because it was so easy to fall for you.”

Jungkook smiles at your words. “You don’t even understand how quickly I fell for you. I’ve had a crush on you for a while now.”

“Really?” you ask surprised.

“Really. You can even ask Namjoon. It was like the first few weeks of us pretending to date that I told Namjoon I was falling for you.”

“Wait, Namjoon knew about us fake dating the whole time?”

Jungkook scratches his head. “Yeah. He’s like an older brother to me. And I was asking for advice on how to approach my crush on you when you were Jimin’s friend with benefits.”

“What advice did he give you?” you ask curiously.

“He said to be your friend first and that everything should fall into place on its own if it was meant to be.”

“Wow, I guess he was right,” you chuckle.

“Yeah he was,” smiles Jungkook.

You grab Jungkook’s hand on your cheek and bring it down as you start playing with his fingers, avoiding his eyes. “What did he think when you told him I was Jimin’s friend with benefits?”

Jungkook notices your uneasiness. He knows you feel insecure about people judging you for your sex life. But that isn’t anyone’s business, but yours. “He didn’t think much of it. He actually thought you were cool for punching Jin.”

You chuckle at the memory. “Oh yeah. I forgot that happened.”

It’s Jungkook’s turn to avoid eye contact. “So what’s going to happened between you and Jimin?”

You look up at Jungkook biting his lip nervously, avoiding your eyes. “I’m going to stop messing around with him and try this monogamous thing out.”

Jungkook chuckles and looks up at you.

You grab his face with both hands so that you’re looking him straight in the eyes. “I’m going to break things off with Jimin. And he better be supportive of us or I’ll kick his ass.”

Jungkook laughs at your threat before sighing. “Are you still going to be friends with him?”

“I think I’m ready to forgive him. He’s lucky that Seolhyun forgave me or I would have dropped him in a heart beat. But I’m still planning on being friends with him. I also know he’s your best friend and I don’t want you to have any bad blood with him either. Especially if it’s because of me.”

Jungkook nods in understanding. “Have you spoken to him?”

You deeply sigh. “Not really. He’s been calling me nonstop to apologize but I didn’t want to talk to him, especially in the middle of my apology tour.”

Jungkook smiles at your joke.

“But I did answer him once,” you admit. “I told him I wasn’t ready to talk, but I made him give me your address so I could see you.”

Jungkook smiles warmly at your confession. “I’m glad you came.”

“Me too. Now, I’m not letting you go,” you say as you snuggle into his chest. Jungkook wraps his arms around you, embracing you fully. “You can’t get rid of me. I know where you live,” you say jokingly.

“I won’t. I promise.”

“Good.”

With that, you fall asleep in each other’s arms just like yesterday. Except today, you were officially dating. Day 1 to a new, monogamous life.

~

A/N: Here it is y’all, two more chapters until the end of the series.