When Summer Comes To An End

When Summer Comes To An End

Pairing: Felix x gn!Reader

Genre: Angst/fluff, high school!au, college!au, first love, friends to lovers to exes to strangers

Warnings! Language, slightly suggestive, tears, death, car crash

WC: 885 Summary: When summer ends, it reminds you of your sweet first love, Felix. You were young and foolish and let go of something you should have cherished. But now, you want to focus on what lies ahead of you instead of what haunts you from the past.

Author’s note: Well skl finna start soon and I was like, “y not?” so yeh. !!NOT PROOF READ!! Also, I am not implying that the said idol is behaves anything close to what is written here(more specifically the angsty part)

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It’s that time of the year again. You know that it’ll come around as soon as summer starts. If you could go back, you’d do it all over again and you’d try your best to fix your mistakes. He was everything to you yet you let it all go. Maybe if that didn’t happen. Maybe if this didn’t happen. Maybe if…

It was your freshman year of highschool and you were new to town. Felix was the first to approach you with a bright smile on his face. He was a grade higher than you which meant he was a sophomore. At first, you wanted to keep to yourself but you couldn’t find it in yourself to refuse his kindness. So the two of you ended up becoming friends. You guys were similar in every way possible, except the fact that he was more extroverted. Felix was a warm ball of sunshine who radiated happiness. He easily made friends and just knew the right ways to make someone feel comfortable. You, however, kept quiet and if you really tried, you could become invisible to others eyes. You didn’t like interacting with people and when you did it was always extremely awkward. But, both of you loved to play games, especially Genshin Impact, and when the two of you weren’t playing games, you would put on some songs and let your bodies flow free.

Since he was your only friend, you were over at his house frequently. Plans usually started out as studying but would eventually just become a competition in Genshin and who could pass more levels. You knew Felix as well as he knew you because the both of you grew really close. 

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One day, when you guys were having a tickling match, Felix ended up on top of you, both breathless, his hands pinning yours beside your head, staring into each other's eyes. You felt your face heat up and your heartbeat accelerate. You could’ve sworn you saw his eyes flicker from your eyes, to your lips and back.

You gulp loudly. “Felix..?”, you pretty much squeak. “I-I-I think– Please don’t say anything.” Felix cuts you off. He leans down and hides his face in the crook of your neck. “I don’t want to wake up if this is a dream. I-I’m scared that you won’t feel the same way.”

“Felix…”

“Can you just reject me so I can move on? So I will stop having these delusions of us being more than friends.”

“...Felix…”“You're better than anything I could possibly wish for, Y/n. I just hope this is a dream because if it’s not then this is so embarrassing. I wish you could just like me back. Plea–”

“I do.”

“What?”

“I do love you, Lee Felix. More than whatever’s going on in that dream of yours.” You confess your love to him and he’s dumbfounded. He begins rambling again. “This must be a dream. There’s no way Y/n would actually say something like that. She’d never see me in that light–”

“FELIX!!”, you yell out his name. He lifts his head and stares at you in shock. You grab his face with both of your hands. “Focus on me and quit rambling. This isn’t a dream and I won’t reject you. Because I love you too. I’ll repeat it as many times as I have to. I love you, Felix. I love love love love love you. More than words can express.”

Felix takes in a shaky breath before letting out a relieved sigh. Suddenly you feel some tears fall onto you. You wipe his tears away, a little worried, until you see his smile. “Did I just move Lee Felix to tears?”, you tease. He looks back up at you with a pout. “Shut up.”

You had a sweet relationship with Felix. People around you called y'all lovebirds and claimed that you guys had such sappy puppy love. Both you and Felix denied it but we all knew the truth. The first few years were the best. Secret kisses, stolen glances, and hidden hickies. It was all until graduation came around. Everyone would think that that’s fine. Except it wasn’t because only Felix was graduating and you would be left alone.

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“I-I d-don’t want you to leave me. Y-you’re gonna go find some other girl and forget about me. You won’t remember how much I love you.” You cried into his arms on his graduation day. You didn’t want him to leave you behind. Felix soothed your hair and hushed you. He pulled you impossibly closer to his chest. “It’s ok sweetness. I actually have a surprise for you.” You looked up at him curiously. “Wh-what is it?”, you asked. He softly smiled, still holding you close and said, “I’m going to take a year off of school so that we can go to college together.” You just stared at him in disbelief. You couldn’t believe it. “W-what? Baby, you can’t do that. Even for me. You need to get your education.”

“Shh, shh, sweetness. I’m choosing this because I love you. I’m choosing this for us.”, he reassured you. “Okay?” You nodded your head and wiped your tears away. He hugged you even tighter and put his chin over your head. “You know…”, he started. “Hmm?”, you replied. “...you’re so cute when you act like that. ~I don’t want you to leave me~”, he imitated you.

You pushed him away with a pout. “You just ruined the mood.” All he could do was chuckle at your remark.

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When you finally graduated, Felix was the first one there to congratulate you. You ran into his embrace as he picked you up and spun you around. He immediately peppered you in kisses. You giggle at his antics. “I’m so proud of you, sweetness. You know that?”

“Yes, yes, I know, Lixie. I love you so much.” You placed a small kiss on his nose. He smiled widely and let out a cheeky chuckle. “I’ll show you how much I love you tonight.” You slapped him on the arm as he headed toward the car his parents bought him a few weeks back. “FELIX!! STOP!! NO!! HELP!!”

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The shared apartment that you moved into with Felix seemed almost perfect for you guys. It took the both of y’all a full two weeks to finally finish moving in and another two to finish decorating and setting up. You guys were the definition of a perfect couple so when obstacles came, they were unexpected.

You were both busy with your own studies and on top of that, your part-time jobs. Y’all wanted to at least support yourselves in some way. The deal was that Felix would go out for groceries and you would cook. Then study sessions and movie nights on friday. But suddenly, Felix started falling behind but you brushed it off as him being stressed. A week became two. Then a month. Then three months. You became worried so you tried to check up on Felix.

“Hey, baby.”, you said when he arrived home. “Lixie? Sunshine? My love?” He continued to ignore you. “Baby come eat.”, you said, worried. “I’m not hungry.”, he grumbled. 

“You know that’s not healthy. At least have a bite.”

“I’m good.”

“Please, Lixie. Just a bite.”

He was slowly growing irritated. “I said I’m not hungry alright!”, he lashed out at you.

Your breath hitched in your throat. “Sorry, I was just worried.” You looked down at your hands.

“Well being sorry won’t change the fact that you’re being annoying!”, he yelled at you. You looked at him in shock. “What?” Your patience was growing thin. “I’ve had enough today! Now I have to come home and listen to your nagging ass. No one’s giving me a fucking break today!”

He rubbed his temples and sighed heavily. “What!?”, you asked a little more loudly. “WHAT THE FUCK Y/N!!! YOU HEARD ME ALREADY!! Just shut your FUCKING MOUTH and leave ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!” You couldn’t believe your ears. “Are you being serious right now? I’M FUCKING WORRIED BECAUSE YOU DON”T WANT TO EAT SUDDENLY AND NOW I’M GETTING THIS BULLSHIT!!! ME CARING FOR YOU IS WHAT YOU CALL NAGGING!?!? YOU KNOW WHAT!? FUCK YOU AND YOUR PROBLEMS!!” You stormed off angrily to your shared bedroom. “FUCK YOU TOO!!!”, you heard Felix yell back before the slam of the front door.

It was a good two hours before you finally calmed down and your tears stopped falling. You realized you never heard Felix come back home and it was already 8pm. You decided to step out of the room and wait for him on the sofa. But now you’ve been waiting for hours and it’s almost already 12am. He must’ve gone to his friend's house, is all you summed it up to.

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Early in the morning you woke up to the sound of your phone ringing. You rubbed your eyes and reached to grab your phone from the nightstand. Not even checking the I.D, you pick up.

“Hello?”, you say groggily. You checked the time and it was still two in the morning.

The other end replies, “Hello. Is this Ms. Y/n l/n?”

“Yes, this is.”

“You have been listed as the guardian and emergency contact of Mr. Felix Lee. We need you to immediately come to the hospital. There are some things to be discussed and–” You hang up on the caller and you get dressed as fast as possible.

You get to the hospital quickly and you rush to find where Felix was. God, you hoped he was okay. You managed to get some information on him but all it was, was that he was still in the ER. You began panicking as you frantically called his parents. You knew it was very very early morning but you needed them to know too. Just in case, is what you told yourself. But you also knew that you just didn’t want to face this alone. They quickly came and they were panicking just as much as you were.

Everytime a nurse or doctor came out, you rushed to their side asking about Felix’s condition. But all you got was, “We’re trying ma’am.” As soon as you saw the sign above the ER go off, you got up and went to the door. The doctor came out, taking his mask off his face. “S-so..?”, you asked, still afraid of his answer. The doctor looked at you with sympathy in his eyes. “I’m sorry for your loss.” You broke down in tears and you felt your knees going weak, dropping to the floor. Your tears saw no sign of stopping. You couldn’t believe it. Felix was gone, just like that. Your warm ball of sunshine was gone and and a-and it was because… it was because of you…

You scrambled to your feet and ran over to Mrs. Lee apologizing over and over and over. “I-It’s all my fault. I was arguing with him before he left a-and he must’ve drank because of the frustration I caused him. He crashed because he was angry at me. I was the reason for all of this.” Mrs. Lee consoled you saying that it wasn’t your fault and that what happens, happens.

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It’s been three years since the incident. You tried your best to move on but everything reminded you of him. Now the end of summer is arriving. But your summer truly ended three years ago. You walk to his grave and you place some irises down. Felix’s favorite flowers. “Hi, Felix. It’s me again. I hope you’re doing well. I love you. Always. Summer isn’t the same anymore.”

“You were my sun and I lost it. With no sun, there is no summer. Goodbye, my summer.”

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This is my first ff I've written and I would really like some feedback or tips to improve my writing. If you've found this and read, ty very much! (✿◕‿◕✿)

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I'm actually crying bc Yuna didn't make it on A2K

Skz makes a bet on you Maknae Line

Pairing: OT8 SKZ x f!Reader

Genre, AU: angst ofc, lovers to exes!AU

Warnings: cursing, mentions of cheating, many mentions of insecurities. I think that abt it

Summary: you happened to learn one day that the never really loved you and only made a bet with the other members to see if you would fall in love with them

A.N: Not proof read at all and this is the maknae line to the previous one. Both part twos will be coming out soo I promise🤭

Parts: Hyung Line Part 2

HAN JISUNG It was his birthday and you were more than happy to surprise him. The members were in on it too. To suddenly stop during practice and sit him down.

For the whole day you were preparing. Making a cheesecake for him and baking a cake for the rest of the members. You decorated the cheesecake in some little quokka cake pops. After you were done, you began cooking his favorite meals and packing them up. When all the cooking, making, and cooking was done, you found that you had more time on your hands. So you felt the need to clean the house so it’d be all tidy when he got back.

You checked the time before heading out. The house was clean, food was ready, now all you needed to do was get a gift and drive to the company. As you strolled through the store a very particular item caught your eye. A small clip earring with a feather at the end. It was perfect. Jisung always called you his, quote on quote, “Little Dove.”

So you grabbed it and put it in a little box with a bow.

You drove to the company excitedly. Giving the food to the staff before making your way to the practice room. You were just about to step in when you heard it. The color drained form your face and the excitement you held earlier, gone.

“I can’t believe it’s been a year since me and y/n started dating and we made that bet.” You heard your boyfriend say.

Bang Chan tried to stop him. “Jisung, I think—”

“You guys have to remember! We made a bet to see if I could pull y/n. Y’all made me go up to her and ask if she wanted to date me because she seemed lonely and if she agreed then I’d get 20 bucks from each of y’all.”

You could hear the boys try to stop him since they knew you were here but it was too late. They turned to see the door to the practice room slowly creak open. Standing there with the cake in your hands and tears in your eyes.

“Happy Birthday, Baby.” You said as tears fell from your eyes. Quickly wiping them away since it was supposed to be a happy occasion. Placing the cake into a staff members hands, you shoved the box into your pocket. “I-I-I guess I’ll give you what you want for your birthday gift.” You turned and ran as far as you can. Dropping the gift into the trash can on your way out. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ LEE FELIX He knew you were this insecure so how could he say that. You’d always hated your figure since before you could remember. Whenever you met someone new, that was the first thing they noticed. The size of your body. You hated the way you looked but Felix always told you different. He made you believe you were as beautiful as you are and you slowly gained your confidence.

That was until today. The confidence he helped you build, he tore down himself.

Today, you came home a bit earlier than usual. When walking through the door, you announced your arrival but Felix was nowhere in sight. You could hear the slight mumbling coming from another room. You had forgotten. He had told you that Minho was coming this morning.

After taking off your shoes and hanging your coat, you walked over to the door. Just so happening to hear what they were conversing. The cat-like boy began first. “You remember that bet we made?”

“Hmm?” Your boyfriend replied.

“You’ve got to give it to me that you and y/n started dating in the first place.” “Ohhh!!! That’s what you’re talking about. The bet, right?”

“Yeah, when I told you I’d give you one hundo if you got the fat girl’s number. Now it’s been two years since you guys started dating.” Too immersed in your own shock, you dropped the items you were holding. Tears filled your eyes. Both, Felix and Minho’s, heads jerked in your direction.

“Y/n? How long have you been standing there?” Felix asked you in a panic.

“N-not long…”

You picked up your things from the floor, reput on your shoes and coat, grabbed your keys, and headed out the door. You didn’t know if you could stay any longer. You felt hurt to hear that. He helped you through your insecurities just to make it worse than before he arrived. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ KIM SEUNGMIN Your whole world fell apart. And so did your oh so perfect relationship with Seungmin.

It was just a petty argument that came from stress and the lack of sleep but it still hurt you. It actually hurt more than you thought it would. But what hurt most of all was what you had to find out.

Seungmin returned home after tour extremely tired so you did your best. You made sure he had every meal and wasn't overwhelmed. But apparently, you didn't do enough. He began to berate you for even the smallest things and it tore your heart apart.

One day, as you laid on the bed the two of you shared, he slammed the bedroom door open. You flinched and looked up at him. A little bit annoyed you asked, "The hell was that for?"

He sighed and glared at you.

"You want to know? This comeback has been stressful and all you do is lay in bed all day. You never clean around the house even though you're only doing a part-time job. I mean seriously, are you just going to be that FUCKING LAZY!?"

You looked at him in disbelief. Never in a million years did you ever expect to see this side of him.

"I literally just got done cooking and came to lay on the bed. I was waiting for YOU to get home. I washed our clothes, folded them, put them away, then cleaned around the house. I did all this because I know you like your place tidy. Plus, a clean space is better for the mind."

"You call this clean!? It looks like a pigsty." You felt the tears blazing at the corner of your eyes. "Don't fucking say that. I'm trying my best to not say anything right now." "Say it then!!" He yelled. You huffed and turned away not wanting to argue any longer. "Yeah... turn away like you always do. I should've just left you as a bet. Never loved you in the first place."

It was a slip of the tongue. He didn't mean it. Or did he? Either way, it hurt you. Seungmin knew he was wrong but didin't want to admit itin the heat of the moment.

You turned to face him, finally letting the tears out. "Fuck you..." Was all you said before grabbing your phone and leaving the house. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ YANG JEONGIN It was accidental. Jeongin was so flustered in the moment that he confessed everything to you. He didn't intend for you to find out like this but how else were you suppose to?

The both of you were at dinner with the other members. They all teased Jeongin for being such a simp for you. You just chuckled at their antics. It was cute to see the youngest member get teased by his hyungs and you were glad to witness it all in first person.

Jeongin, being fed up, accidentaly let it slip.

"Well it was because you guys made a bet with me that if I could pull y/n then y'all would buy me the new Bruno Mars album."

Everyone went silent as you slowly faced him. "What did you say..?"

Jeongin immediately placed a hand over his mouth. Tears brimmed your eyes. You stood up, excusing yourself. "I-I'm gonna go to the bathroom real quick." None of them even tried to stop you. They knew that they'd be devastated in your situation too.

Were you being a little dramatic? The answer was yes. You could've heard Jeongin out instead of hiding in the bathroom. But at this point, you weren't so sure. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ taglist: @lolareadsimagines @garrixer-06 @bandolls @chansbabygirlsstuff @camilagonzalex @mariteez @beccaskz

I'm writing a Seungmin angst fic but I'm too lazy to finish it😔😓