Your-average-teenage-mess - Untitled

I made a thing

Edit: ... Okay wow only this second I noticed that everyone on the right side of the frame became double murderers (and in one case more than double) by the end of it.

Alright then. Farewell

Let's try again since radfems are stupid.

There is nothing about *looking* at sex that is any morally different to engaging in sex. Adding a camera does not affect morality either. It will not rot your brain or make you an addict or force you to change your views on sex or mess with your brain chemicals and bonds with people or any other bullshit that people come out with. Sex is ok to look at.

You know what? I'm starting to think that stories about mental illness maybe SHOULD all end on an inspirational, uplifting note.

You see, I was just trying to hold in my mind a model of "even if you fell down, you can get back up, even if your life's a wreck, you can always go and do the work to make it better", just to try and convince myself to maybe not fall apart, and then my brain was just flooded with images of all the stories that ended in suicide (or better yet, heroic self-sacrifice that redeemed them from ever needing to be given a real chance), and I just felt that sinking dread that whispered "it doesn't matter what you do, it's all gonna end the same way... And hopefully sooner rather than later. You can imagine it all going quiet, and dark, and peaceful." And I just... I know you guys hate when the representation you see is just ✨inspiration porn✨, and that it feels good to see all the darkest impulses of your brain recognized and validated, but, like... Maybe they shouldn't be. Maybe we SHOULD have our representation be inspirational and uplifting, even when our reality is not, because representation is not a neutral factor. It affects how people think, and it especially affects how people think when they're spiraling and desperately looking for a frame of reference and you address them directly.

Look, what I'm trying to say is, it's not great when the most encouraging representation I can find is from fix-it-fics that were written by people who were sad that their favorite character didn't make it.

You people should stop fucking behaving as if fighting fascism is a lifestyle choice.

I love how some of you guys think that engaging with anything Harry Potter related is going to "give jkr more exposure", as if not LITERALLY EVERYONE HAS ALREADY BEEN EXPOSED TO IT, and that making sure you don't pay her any money personally is going to move a single cent away from everything she was already going to put whatever amount of money she was planning to for either way when she's A LITERAL BILLIONER, and then try to cry "collective action" as if that's a battle any of you could ever win in your fucking lifetime, and then NOT try and tell people to mass report far-right influencers with an actual massive reach off of YouTube and TikTok, where their content independently moves towards people who, and this is true, MIGHT HAVE NOT BEEN POLITICALLY ENGAGED SO FAR. The hypocrisy just actually makes my blood boil. You guys don't know what practicality is and I'm starting to think I actually hate you for that.

I just saw someone arguing that you shouldn't use pictures of characters that were played by abusers if you want to make a half-jokey Tumblr post waxing poetically about what gender means to you.

... I'm tired, okay?

Like, even take away the fact that the majority of men in Hollywood are probably abusive, I AM TIRED. We live in a society, and I mean that in the most literal sense. We exist around other people, and around media, and you have to either lock yourself in an echo chamber or subject yourself to a pretty miserable existence if you're genuinely planning to treat this as a moral transgression every time someone tries to express anything but condemnation towards anything that bad people were ever involved in.

I'm tired. And also, if you think that way, don't talk to me. Stay away from me. I'm doing bad enough without you in my life.