Chapter 14 - Empty Feelings

Chapter 14 - Empty Feelings

The wind is whipping through your hair as you clutch Eren tightly. The city feels so different racing through the streets on a motorcycle at night. The evening chill is helping you sober up. You pull into the parking garage of Eren’s apartment. After parking, Eren hops off his bike and offers you a hand. You grab his hand and he helps you off the bike.

Eren chuckles, “Well, we made it. Do you want to come up?”

You smile and say, “Sure.”

Eren smiles back at you and motions for you to follow him. You both walk into the building and make your way to the elevator.

Eren turns to you, “Are you still drunk? You seem like you’ve sobered up quite a bit.”

You giggle, “Yeah between the adrenaline of being chased and then the cold air, I’m pretty much sober now.”

Eren gently pushes some of your hair behind your ear, “Good.”

You blush and the elevator dings. Eren leads the way to his apartment. Inside it’s mostly tidy, a few things misplaced here and there.

“I share this place with my brother, but he’s out of town for the weekend”, Eren says.

“Oh nice!”, You respond.

There’s a few minutes of awkward silence, neither of you knew what to do. Eren pushed back a strand of his hair, clearly nervous. He walks over to you and grabs your hand.

Eren looks you in the eyes, “Let me know if you want me to stop, yeah?”

Your stomach drops and you begin to blush. Your heart is racing with anticipation.

“Okay”, You smile shyly.

Eren leans closer, “That smile of yours is going to get me into trouble.”

He kisses you gently, putting both hands around your face. You put your arms on his hips and pull him closer. He pushes you against the wall as you both deepen the kiss. Just as you are ready for more, Eren pulls away.

“Let’s go to my room”, He says.

You nod and follow him to his room. As soon as you shut the door he is back on you. This time he picks you up while kissing you, and walks over to his bed. He flops you down and you both giggle.

Eren slightly blushes as he looks at you, “You look good on my bed.”

You laugh and playfully hit his arm, “What a cheesy pickup line.”

He smiles as he crawls to hover over you, “But I got to see your smile again.”

All of Eren’s sweet words were making your heart flutter. You wrap your hand around the back of his neck and pull him down to you. The two of you begin making out, your hand slowly traveling down.

You could easily feel the bulge through his pants. You unbutton and unzip his pants. You begin to rub his bulge while his underwear is still covering it. Eren starts to moan and you gently push him off you, so he can lay on his back. Eren kicks off his pants and you begin teasing him by rubbing his cock over his underwear.

Eren whines, “Please, Y/n. I want you so bad.”

At this point you were so wet it was laughable, but you want to please him first. He’s been so cute tonight, you couldn’t wait to unravel him. You finally pull down his underwear, and begin stroking his dick.

“Oh fuck. Oh shit, it’s been so long. I don’t know how long I can go”, Eren looks concerned.

You smile and place a kiss on his thigh, “It’s okay, Eren. I just want to make you feel good.”

Eren whimpers and places a hand in your hair. You begin stroking him again and he grips your hair. You lay on your stomach in between his legs and start licking circles around his tip. Eren starts moaning and throws his head back. You take a deep breath and begin slowly taking his cock in your mouth. Once you become adjusted, you start moving up and down faster. You can tell Eren is on the brink by the way he is moaning.

“Y/n. I’m going to cum”, Eren whispers.

You moan on his dick and that puts him over the edge. He shoots off into your mouth and it takes everything in you to swallow it. You slowly pump his dick while he rides out his orgasm.

You lay beside him, “How are you feeling?”

He tiredly looks at you, “That was amazing, Y/n. It’s been so long since someone has done that for me, I’m sorry I didn’t last very long”, Eren chuckles, “I’m exhausted. I feel like I just ran a marathon.”

You smile, “Let’s go to bed then. Maybe watch some Zootopia before we fall asleep?”

Eren looks serious, “Wait are you sure? I wanted to make you feel good too.”

“It’s okay, Eren. You look really tired, and I’m honestly exhausted after tonight”, You lie.

Eren looks at you, “Well okay. You promise this is okay? I don’t want you to feel like I used you.”

You respond, “I promise! I know you would never use me like that. Anyway, I wanted to do it.”

You reassure Eren with a smile and he relaxes. He grabs his remote and turns on the movie.

“Do you have a tshirt I could wear?”, You ask.

Eren jumps up, “Oh of course! I’m sorry I didn’t think to grab you one.”

Eren really is a sweet guy. You can’t lie to yourself, you are disappointed nothing more happened tonight. But maybe it’s a good thing.

He hands you the tshirt and you walk to his bathroom. You get unready as fast as you can, and head back to his bed.

After turning off the light, he turns to spoon you. You curl up into his arms, and within minutes you can tell that he’s asleep. Honestly, your mind is racing.

Being with Eren feels so nice and safe, but you are starting to wonder if Eren is too sweet for you. From his exterior, he seems like a completely different guy. Normally you would think that you hit the jackpot, but something is keeping you from feeling that way. You can’t help but wonder if you could ever be romantically interested in Eren. Making out with him was fun, but you’re not sure if you could see yourself actually dating him.

You begin to feel extremely guilty. You shouldn’t have let this happen, what if you’re leading him on. He’s such a nice guy, and you would never want to hurt him. As your mind is racing, you don’t notice your eyes begin to shut.

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You awaken to the smell of coffee and the feeling of sunshine on your face. You roll over and see Eren getting dressed.

He looks at you and smiles, “Good morning sleepy head. You can hangout if you want, I just have to leave soon to meet up with some work friends.”

You sit up quickly, “Oh my god I’m so sorry. You should’ve woken me!”

He laughs, “You looked so peaceful, I didn’t want to disturb you.”

You check the time and see that it’s 10:30.

“Shit. It’s late, I’m sorry”, You say as you grab your clothes.

“It really is okay, Y/n. Take your time”, Eren responds.

You change quickly in the bathroom and wash your face with water. You don’t look terrible, but you definitely don’t look good. You walk out and grab your bag and phone.

You say, “Hey I had fun last night. Thank you for taking care of me.”

Eren smiles, “And thank you for taking care of me as well.”

You both laugh as you walk to the door. You start to put on your shoes and Eren opens the door for you.

“Uh let me know if you ever want to hang out again”, Eren says nervously.

You know you should tell him that you think you want to just be friends, but you don’t want to rush that conversation. You want to be able to explain things to him.

You smile, “Will do.”

You walk out the door and to the elevator. You check your phone and see that you have a ton of unread texts.

“Shit”, You whisper.

Most of them were from your group chat with your friends. Your drunk friends just making sure you were okay and hyping you up for going home with someone. You quickly respond to them and walk out of the elevator. You pull up the Uber app to order a car, there was no way in hell you were calling your driver. Then your dad would know where you were last night.

“Hey”, Someone in the lobby says.

Your head whips around and your mouth drops open.

“How the hell did you find me?!”, You ask.

“You have your location services turned on with me, dumbass”, Levi responds curtly.

You slap your forehead and sigh. That’s why he laughed last night, there was no reason for you to run. That’s also how he knew which club you were at. You’re such an idiot.

“Come on, I can take you home”, He says and begins walking out.

You follow him, “How long have you been waiting for me?”

“Doesn’t matter”, Levi says.

Shit. He’s definitely been here since last night, he’s still wearing the same clothes. You begin to feel guilty. Levi gets into his car, and you hesitate for a moment. You’ve never ridden with him before. It’s a super nice car. You get in and lean your head on your hand.

“Well I hope you had the time of your life, my neck is so stiff from waiting for you”, Levi says clearly annoyed.

“I hate to break it to you, but it wasn’t that exciting”, You respond.

Levi asks, “Did you at least get laid?”

You scoff, “Not that it’s any of your business, but no. Eren was very tired after I suc-” You quickly stop talking, knowing that Eren was already on thin ice with Levi.

“You sucked him off and then he just went to bed? What a fucking pussy”, Levi says sharply.

“Levi! It’s not like that. He offered, but we were both really tired”, You defend Eren.

Levi responds, “He offered? I wouldn’t have given you a choice, you deserve to experience as much pleasure as he did.”

You sigh, “It’s really okay.”

You try to ignore the fact that he said what he would’ve done if he was Eren. If only Levi wasn’t so damn stubborn. You sneak a look at him, he’s got one hand on the steering wheel and is leaning his head on the other. He looks exhausted, but seeing him still makes your heart race. You quickly remind yourself that he would never be in a relationship with you. You can feel tears pricking the sides of your eyes, but you push them back. Levi pulls up to a red light, and you indulge in your fantasy for a few more moments.

You look at Levi and he looks back at you.

“I wish it would’ve been you last night. Having another man hold me just made me feel even more empty”, You say quietly.

Levi’s eyes widen and you look away, fighting back the tears that insist on falling. It doesn’t matter if Levi knows this or not, nothing will change. But at least you were honest, for your own sake.

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Chapter 12 - Not My Day

Your alarm clock starts blaring and it scares the hell out of you. You quickly shut it off and turn over, checking the time on your phone. It’s 9am, today is the last day of the conference and you need to be there in an hour.

The memories of last night start running through your mind. You start to blush and wonder how you’ll be able to face Erwin and Levi today. It was only casual sex, you remind yourself.

You turn to see where Levi had slept for most of the night. You assume he snuck out before you woke up. You place your face in the pillow he laid on. Damn. It smells just like him.

You slowly sit up, and you have a headache from all the alcohol you drank last night. Thankfully the hangover isn’t too bad, but you definitely need some water. You look at your nightstand and your heart flutters. Levi had brought you a bottle of water and some advil. You chug the water and take the medicine, hopefully your headache will be gone soon.

You stand up and grab your outfit for the last day. Just a simple black pencil skirt and a white button up. You place your ear to the door, there’s no sounds coming from the living room so you bolt to the bathroom. You breathe a sigh of relief when you lock the door behind you and start the shower.

With the hot water running down your back, you start to feel alive again. And with that comes the twinge of pain that last night with Levi, will probably never happen again. You place your hands everywhere that he touched you last night, and relish in every moment.

God you wish you didn’t care. The truth is, one night stands were not your thing. You have had one previously, but it just left you feeling empty and worse. This facade that you’ve created of yourself, of being a badass woman who can sleep around and not give a shit, is crumbling.

You just desperately want someone to want you longer than an evening. Is your body really the only thing people are drawn to? You can start to feel the knot forming in your throat, your eyes are burning with tears trying to come out. You finally allow yourself to cry, keeping it as quiet as possible. You start to realize why last night is having such a heavy effect on you.

“God damn it I caught feelings”, You whisper through your tears.

You can’t deny it to yourself any longer. You have feelings for Levi, and he definitely doesn’t reciprocate those feelings.

You know that if you spoke to your father about this, he could easily have Levi replaced. But that won’t solve anything for you. These feelings are already here, never seeing him again would only hurt worse, right? At least this way you can still be in his presence, even if it’s not romantically.

You pull yourself together and finish your shower. You dress quickly and begin drying your hair. When the steam from the shower finally disappears, you see yourself in the mirror. Honestly, it hurts your heart.

After your hair is dry you listen again to see if you hear any movement in the living room. You don’t, so you sprint to your bedroom from the bathroom. You know you’re running low on time so you begin applying your makeup, making sure that you look your best.

You decide that it would be best to not bring up last night when you are around Levi and Erwin. You want to try and enjoy your last day in California before heading home.

You grab your phone and purse, you text your driver that you’re ready to be picked up. When you walk to your door, your heart starts racing because you know you’re about to see Levi. You try to shake it off, you need to act like last night didn’t affect you. You open your door and calmly walk to the kitchen. You grab a banana and as you start peeling it Levi walks around the corner.

“Hey we need to talk about last night”, He says and makes his way over to you.

Your stomach sinks because you know what’s coming. You make sure your voice is even and respond, “Okay. What about last night?”

Levi crosses his arms, “Listen, I don’t want you to take this the wrong way but it shouldn’t have happened. It was a mistake, I apologize.”

Well that was a huge punch to the gut. You try to hide your hurt.

“So was what happened in the bathroom at the ball a mistake too?”, You ask.

Levi pinches the bridge of his nose and sighs, “Yes. I’m your bodyguard, last night was totally inappropriate.”

You can’t help but think about when he held your hand in the car. Does he regret that as well? If he regrets it so much why were there multiple instances where he was showing me affection.

Levi asks, “What are you thinking?”

You can’t help but be pissed. How could he be so insensitive?

You respond, “I’m just thinking about how I should’ve just gone home with Erwin. A one night stand would’ve been much easier than hearing someone say how much they regret sleeping with you.”

You quickly put on your sunglasses to hide the tears welling in your eyes. You turn and walk out the front door.

Levi is right behind you, “Y/n! Wait! That’s not what I meant.”

Unfortunately for you, you are trapped with him in the elevator. You refuse to look at him as he stands beside you.

“I’m not saying that I regret it. I mean maybe I regret being unprofessional, but all I’m saying is that it was a mistake”, Levi says.

You give him a weak smile and ask, “Isn’t that basically the same thing?”

The elevator dings and you walk out. Levi is still going on and on about how it’s not the same thing, but you don’t listen to any of it. It’s all bullshit anyway.

Once you’re in the car, Levi finally shuts up. You look out the window and fight back the tears. You’re mad, but you’re not mad at Levi. God you wish you were mad at Levi, but no. You were mad at yourself. It’s not Levi’s fault, you knew exactly how this whole thing would go down and you still slept with him. A very stupid part of you hoped that maybe Levi would start to feel something more for you. And now he’s trying to be honest with you, and you don’t want to hear any of it.

When you arrive at the final day of the conference, most of the day feels like a blur. You’re stuck in lectures for most of the day. You’re bored out of your mind when they finally release you for the lunch break.

You sit down at a table and begin eating your lunch. You didn’t realize how hungry you were.

“Y/n!”, Erwin is smiling and walking towards you.

A blush creeps on your face and you wave to him.

Erwin sits down beside you and smiles, “So? What happened after I left!? Did you two finally sleep together?”

Your face fell, “Uh yeah. Yeah we slept together. But this morning Levi told me it was a mistake.” You blush and feel awkward, “Kind of humiliating if I’m being honest.”

Erwin looks at you concerned, “Oh god I’m so sorry, Y/n. I thought that maybe Levi would finally realize his feelings for you.” Erwin looks around, “Where is that asshole anyway?”

You shrug, “Dunno. He’s been giving me space.”

Erwin smiles softly, “If it helps, I enjoyed myself last night.”

You smile and look at him, “Really? You don’t regret it?”

He replies, “Not even a little bit. In fact, if you ever want to go again just let me know.”

You laugh and playfully nudge him, “Thank you, Erwin. That honestly made me feel a little better. And for what it’s worth, I had fun too.”

You had no romantic feelings for Erwin, but he was someone you quickly began to care for. You hope that your friendship continues once you both go back to Manhattan.

The closing ceremony was after lunch. You sat with Erwin for the rest of the day, you were honestly shocked at how normal you felt with him after last night.

You’re relieved when you’re leaving the conference, honestly you were excited to get back to the real world. It feels like you haven’t seen your friends in ages. Tomorrow is friday and you’ll get home in the evening, so maybe you can get together with your friends on saturday. You honestly just want to get plastered with your friends and forget about everything that just happened.

Once you’re in the car you pull out your phone. You open the group chat you have with your friend group.

“Hey bitches! Guess who’s coming home tomorrow hehehe. Anyone able to get drunk with me on saturday?”

You text the group and it only takes a few minutes for your phone to be blowing up from your friend’s responses. Everyone is down, and they’re figuring out which party we want to go to.

You lay your head against the car window and feel relief that you’re going home tomorrow. Saturday can’t get here fast enough.

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I’m Your Bodyguard, Not Your Boyfriend (Masterlist)

Summary: You honestly can’t wait for this weekend. Letting loose and having fun with your friends sounded like exactly what you need. You hop out of the car after thanking your driver and walk into the apartment building. Even though you’re happy to be on your own, you can’t help but feel a little nostalgic. The elevator dings and you walk into the penthouse suite. “Mom? Dad?”, You yell out. “In the office!”, You hear your dad respond. You take off your shoes and set your purse down. You walk into your dad’s office and your mom runs up and hugs you. “Hi sweetie! How was your first day?” She asks. “It was fine, Mom”, You respond uncomfortably because of the unknown person standing next to your dad. “Who’s this?”, You ask. Your dad beams and gestures to the man, “This is Levi Ackerman, your new bodyguard.”

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x reader

Genre: Strangers to lovers; 18+ rating

Word Count: 35k

Warnings: Foul language; alcohol consumption; violence; explicit sexual content 

Author’s Note: This story was originally posted on AO3, so I apologize for the amount of chapters. I’m also new to posting on Tumblr, so please be patient while I figure everything out 😊This story is complete, so I will be slowly getting the chapters here. I hope you enjoy!

Chapter One 

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven 

Chapter Twelve 

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter 6 - It’s Not Your Fault

You and Levi are walking into the enormous room for the opening ceremony. Your father’s company definitely went all out for this. The decorations and the snacks look amazing. You take a seat towards the back and check the time. It’s 5 oclock, hopefully this doesn’t go too long so you can get some sleep.

There’s quite a few speakers, most of them just introducing themselves so you know who they are for the week. Most of the time you tune them out and stare at the wall. You sneak a glance at Levi to see him paying very close attention to what the speakers are saying. You hide your smile that is forming.

Your Dad walks on stage and everyone's on their feet clapping.

“My name is Felix L/n, and as you know, I’m the CEO of this company”, Your Dad says with a smile.

It’s a little strange to see him in this setting. Even though you will take over the company one day, he’s always been very good about making sure you don’t experience the stress of the company. He wanted you to have somewhat of a normal life. Now that you will be graduating in the spring, you have to start learning about the company and taking on more responsibilities.

Your Dad is talking about his slideshow. He goes to the next slide and you see many different pictures of you. This makes you groan and you put your hand on your face. Levi chuckles at your embarrassment.

“This is my daughter, Y/n. She is your future CEO”, He says proudly. You hear a few gasps throughout the room. “Y/n will be graduating from University in the spring, and will be more involved with the company. So get used to seeing her face. In fact, she is here now in the crowd. Y/n please stand so everyone is able to see you.”

You are absolutely mortified. A small blush creeps on your cheeks and you awkwardly stand and wave. You look around and everyone is smiling at you.

“That’s my girl! Isn’t she beautiful? Single too!”, Your dad says happily.

“Oh my god”, You whisper. You sit down and put your head in your hands. You’re so embarrassed and ready to go back to the hotel.

Your Dad continues, “Cocktail hour will last an hour after this. Please come say hello to my daughter and I!”

You glare at your Dad. He said that on purpose so you couldn’t leave. You’re only staying for one hour and that’s it. Any longer and you will throw a fit.

As your Dad is making his final announcements, you sit with your arms crossed and a small pout.

Levi leans over, “Don’t be so childish.”

You whisper back, “I hope you realize my Dad is going to force me to talk to single men for the next hour. That sounds like torture to me.”

Levi looks at you confused, “Why wouldn’t you enjoy that?”

You sigh, “They only want me for my money and the company” You show Levi a weak smile, “But it’s okay, I can handle myself.”

The first thing you do when cocktail hour starts is chug a glass of champagne. You reach for another one and stomp over to your Dad.

“Would you like to explain to me what the hell that was all about?”, You ask angrily.

“Language, Y/n. I just wanted to give you a warm introduction”, He responds with a smile.

You roll your eyes, “It sounded like you were trying to marry me off. Please don’t ever do that again without letting me know ahead of time. I may be single, but I’m okay with that.”

Your Dad winks at you, “For now.”

You spend the next hour talking to countless men. Some talk only business with you, while others flirt incessantly with you.You were trying to be cordial, but there was one man who was really getting under your skin. Levi kept his distance during all of this, but had his eyes on you the entire time.

After one hour of non-stop talking and four glasses of champagne you were ready for bed. You were leaving the bathroom when someone put their arm against the wall, blocking you from heading to your car.

You look up annoyed, and when you see who it is you are even more angry.

“How about you tell me which hotel you’re staying at, and I’ll come spend the night”, Floch says with a wink.

“How about you step the fuck aside or else I’ll break your nose?”, You say with no hint of amusement. You were done with his bullshit.

His eyes widen, “Where did the sweet Y/n go that I was talking to 20 minutes ago?”

“She left the second you decided to put yourself in my personal space. Now please step aside”, You reply.

Floch smiles and whispers closer to your face, “Make me.”

You groan and push him aside. As you walk past him he grabs your arm hard and pulls you back to him. At this point your heart is hammering in your chest.

“Let me go now!”, You shout.

Floch squeezes your wrist so hard that your hand starts going numb.

You wince, “Ow! Floch stop messing around, you’re actually hurting me!”

You stomp on his foot as hard as you can with your heels. Just as he’s letting go of your wrist to grab his foot, something flashes in front of you.

Levi punches Floch so hard in the face that he falls onto the ground and isn’t moving.

“Holy shit did you kill him?”, You ask in shock.

Levi doesn’t answer. He runs to you and carefully picks up your wrist. You see the murder in his eyes as he sees your now bruising wrist.

You grab his arm so he looks at you, “I’m okay, Levi. It hurt, but I handled myself like I told you I would.”

He looks away from you and walks back to Floch. He checks to make sure he still has a pulse and stands up.

Your Dad and his bodyguard come running out, “Y/n! Levi! Are you alright!?”

You sigh, “Yeah Dad I’m okay. Just a little bruise. This asshole, Floch, wouldn’t take no for an answer. I stomped on his foot and then Levi took care of the rest.”

Your Dad nearly broke out into tears and ran to hug you.

“I’m so sorry, honey. This is all my fault.” He turns to Levi and scolds him, “Where were you!? Aren’t I paying you to protect my daughter? Why was she injured under your care? Why did she have to get this slimeball off of herself?”

“Dad! No it’s not his fa-”, You start to argue.

“I’m so sorry, sir. Y/n was going to the bathroom, so I took that time to also go to the bathroom. It is all my fault, I should’ve waited until we were back in the hotel room”, Levi says frantically.

You step in front of Levi and face your Dad.

“None of this is Levi’s fault”, You say sternly. You see your Dad roll his eyes, “No you look me in the eyes right now! This is not Levi’s fault. It’s nobody’s fault besides that asshole laying on the floor. Levi did everything right”, You say with fire in your eyes.

Your Dad is taken back by your little outburst. Levi is also standing there with wide eyes. He was shocked at how much you were defending him.

Your Dad stutters, “R-right. Okay. I’m sorry.” He looks at Levi, “None of this was your fault. Thank you for looking after Y/n.” He calls over more guards, “Please escort Floch off the premises. He is not allowed to return to this conference.

The ride back to your hotel room was silent. You knew you were both exhausted, but you just hope Levi was beating himself up over this.

When you get to your suite, Levi walks straight to his room.

“Hey wait”, You call after him.

He turns around and you can see the guilt in his eyes.

“Levi, I meant every word I said. This wasn’t your fault. It was just bad timing, but I would’ve been fine”, You say confidently.

Levi slowly walks up to you and gently holds up your wrist. He looks at the bruises, and his face looks like he’s in pain.

“It’s okay, Levi. I’ve experienced much worse pain”, You say with a small smile.

He looks at you and quietly says, “I’m so sorry, Y/n. I should’ve been there.”

Before you could say anything he gently kisses the inside of your wrist. When he notices you don’t pull away, he kisses all of your wrist. Covering the bruises in his kisses.

Your face is completely red and your mouth is slightly open in shock. He looks up at you, a light blush covering his cheeks.

For a second you think he might kiss you. He slowly put your wrist back down.

“Get some sleep, Y/n”, He says quietly and turns to go into his room.

His door closes and you nearly fall to the ground. Did that just happen!?

You walk into your bedroom and get into your pajamas. Your head hits the pillow and you feel your heart still fluttering from what just happened. You check the time and see that it’s only 8pm. You lift your arm and in the moonlight, the bruises didn’t look too bad. You didn’t care. All you could think about were the invisible remnants of Levi’s lips.

Why are you acting this way? You feel so happy, but why? Does Levi really have that much of an effect on you?

Your thoughts start to jumble as you slowly drift off into a deep sleep.

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You wake up and stretch while laying down. You can tell you just slept like a rock. You check the time and see that it’s 9:30am. Holy shit you just slept for 13 hours. You slowly sit up and stare at the mirror. Your hair is a mess and you look terrible. You look at your calendar on your phone, thankfully the first event isn’t until noon.

You sneak to the bathroom with a change of clothes. You were relieved Levi didn’t have to see how disgusting you look. The warm water did wonders for your headache. You went to grab your shampoo, you notice the bruises on your wrist. You had almost forgotten about them after your encounter with Levi. They were a deep purple and covered your entire wrist. Honestly, your wrist was extremely sore but you weren’t going to say anything.

After your shower, you dry off and get dressed. When you walk into the living room you see Levi sitting there eating breakfast.

“Morning, sleepy head. I didn’t think you would ever wake up”, He says with a smirk.

You smile, “Yeah I guess I was really tired.”

He gestures to another plate, “I ordered you room service since you weren’t awake to do it yourself.”

“Oh thank you!”, You walk over to the table and sit down.

You both eat breakfast in silence. It was a little awkward, but you were trying to ignore it.

“So did you sleep well?”, You ask.

He responds, “Yeah. I didn’t realize how jet lagged I was until I laid down.”

You giggle at the thought of Levi passing out on his bed.

He looks shyly at your wrist from across the room, “Does your wrist hurt?”

“No”, You lie. Shit you definitely responded too quickly.

Levi gives you the stink eye and walks to the refrigerator. He comes over to you with an ice pack and gently lays it on your wrist.

You smile, “Thank you. It really will be okay. It’s only sore.” You change the subject, “Are you excited for all of today’s sessions?”

He responds sarcastically, “Oh yeah. So excited.”

You laugh and say, “Hopefully it won’t be too boring. At least there will be good food.”

Levi nods in agreement. Afterwards there is a knock at the door. Levi lets Historia in and she gestures you to your bedroom. You follow her and she helps you with your hair and makeup. You make sure to wear something with long sleeves.

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12 hours later

You and Levi walk inside the suite and plop on the couch.

You sigh, “I’m not going to lie, that was rough.”

Levi responds, “My brain feels like mush.”

You laugh and rub your head. Thankfully tomorrow is one of your days off, you couldn’t wait to explore.

“Hey, would you want to go to the beach tomorrow?”, You ask Levi.

“Well it’s not like I really have a choice. I will be going wherever you go”, He says curtly.

You don’t love that answer. “Well I want you to make your own choice for tomorrow. Forget about work for a little bit. What do you want to do?”, You ask curiously.

He thinks for a moment and then smirks, “Yeah I guess the beach does sound nice. I’ve always wanted to see the ocean.”

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Chapter 13 - Night Out

The plane ride home wasn’t terrible. You took a few sleeping pills before getting on, so once you got to your seat you passed out. You woke to Levi shaking your shoulder. You spent the car ride from the airport to your apartment extremely disoriented and half asleep. Once you are finally home you crawl into your warm bed and immediately fall into a deep sleep.

The sun is what finally brings you out of your deep slumber. You forgot to close your curtains the night before, so the sun is shining in your face. You groggily grab your phone and check the time. It’s almost 10am on Saturday. Damn you slept for a long time, but you definitely needed it.

You check your missed messages and see that your friends are planning to meet around 8:30 that evening at a popular bar near campus.

Campus. You let out a groan. You nearly forgot that you were still in college. That week off of homework and tests was amazing.

Your phone rings and you pick it up.

“Hello?”, You ask.

“Don’t tell me you only just woke up!”, Sasha shouts into the phone.

You smirk, “Yeah I was super tired after the week I had.”

Sasha replies, “I suppose I’ll allow it. Anyway, can Mikasa and I come over? We thought it would be fun to catch up and then get ready together!”

Your eyes brighten, “Yeah that would be great! I can order us some food too.”

Sasha squeals, “YAAAAAY!!!!! We’ll be over in an hour!”

You laugh and then hang up the phone. You schedule your food to be delivered in a few hours from now and you finally drag yourself out of bed. You’re starving so you walk to the kitchen and make yourself some breakfast. You’re sitting at the table when you notice Levi walking out of his room. He’s completely dressed for the day and looks like he’s been up for a while.

“Decide to finally get your ass out of bed?”, He says as he walks to the couch.

You roll your eyes but don’t respond to him. You continue eating your breakfast.

Levi glares at you, “Now you’re ignoring me? Damn you really are a child.”

Your head snaps in his direction and you look him in the eyes, “I’m not a fucking child.”

He snaps back, “Could’ve fooled me.”

The next few minutes you finish your breakfast in silence. Levi is annoying the shit out of you and you really need time away from him.

You stand up and take your dishes to the sink. You walk over to where Levi is reading a book and stand in front of him.

“Just so you know, I’m going to a party tonight. I’m going to have you switch places with my dad’s bodyguard until tomorrow”, You begin to walk away.

“Like hell you are. I’m not leaving your side”, Levi says.

You turn around clearly angry, “And why the fuck not?”

Levi responds, “I don’t trust anyone else to do my job.”

“My dad’s bodyguard is very capable and will take great care of me. Enjoy your boring evening with my dad”, You say curtly, thinking that is the end of your conversation.

Levi looks at you, “No. I refuse to go.”

You snap, “What the hell is wrong with you!? You don’t have a choice, you are not going with me tonight. As a matter of fact, how about you just take the damn night off. We both have had a very long week and I need at least an evening away from you.”

You stomp away and slam your door before Levi is able to argue with you. You immediately open your phone and call your dad.

Your dad answers, “Hello Y/n! How are you feeling after the week in California?”

You respond impatiently, “I’m fine, dad. I just really need a night away from Levi. He’s also exhausted after this last week, so I know he could use the  evening off.” You knew that was a lie.

Your dad responds with concern, “Oh I’m sorry to hear that. I will call Levi and let him know he is not to stay with you tonight. Are you planning to just stay home tonight?”

“Yeah I was just going to have the girls come over”, You feel bad lying. It wasn’t a complete lie though since they were coming over.

“Okay then there’s no need for you to have security tonight. I’ll even send a car over now to pick up Levi and take him to a hotel for the evening”, Your dad replied.

You breathe a sigh of relief, “Thank you, dad. I’m sorry for being snippy, I just really need some girl time tonight.”

Your dad smiles, “Of course, honey. I have some paperwork to attend to, but I hope you have a great night!”

The call ends and you feel relieved. You decide to take a quick shower to prepare for your evening. In the middle of your shower you can hear the front door slam. You smirk, knowing that Levi was forced to leave for the evening.

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A few hours have passed since your shower. Sasha and Mikasa have been here for a while, and you all have been catching up and devouring the food you ordered.

You have an hour until you are meeting the guys so you decide to get ready. You’re looking through your closet, trying to find the right outfit. You pull out a simple dress, and Sasha gives you a dirty look.

“Oh hell no. We are all dressing slutty tonight”, Sasha says with her arms crossed.

You look at her confused, “What? Why?”

Sasha comes over and grabs your shoulders, “Oh come on, Y/n. I know you’ve been super bummed ever since you came home. Especially after filling us in about your wild threesome. Which was super hot by the way.” The three of you giggle. Sasha continues, “I think you need a night out where you look and feel sexy. And if you want, maybe you can get some dick tonight.”

You laugh, “Did you forget that I just had a threesome a few days ago? Besides, I don’t really want to hookup with a random person tonight.”

Sasha smiles like she has a secret, “Oh it won’t be a random person.”

You look at her with concern, “What did you plan?”

Sasha replies calmly, “Oh nothing big. I may have invited a certain someone from your business classes to party with us tonight.”

You gasp, “Eren!? Shit. I’m going to be honest, I kind of forgot about him.”

Sasha laughs, “That’s okay. I mean you only met him a few weeks ago. But I heard that he’s very excited to see you tonight.”

You blush, you can’t deny that a small part of you is also excited to see him.

Mikasa speaks up, “If Sasha had to pick out my outfit, she also has to pick out yours.”

You giggle, “Fine. Go ahead, Sasha.”

Before Sasha reveals what she picked out for you, she and Mikasa get dressed. When you see then your eyes widen.

“Damn you guys look amazing!”, You squeal. You quickly realize the theme and cringe at the thought of you wearing something similar.

They both have lingerie on the top with denim on the bottom. It’s sexy but tasteful, they totally pull it off. You on the other hand, don’t think this look will work for you. Sasha holds out one of your favorite lingerie pieces. It’s black and the boob area is completely covered, but the rest of the top is only covered by lace. So a lot of skin will be showing.

You sigh, “Do I have to wear this? I don’t think it’ll look very good.”

Sasha rolls her eyes, “I know you workout with Mikasa fairly regularly. I promise it’ll look good.”

You grab the outfit and get changed in the bathroom. You look in the mirror and a burst of confidence rushes through you. You h/c hair is straightened and you put on some deep red lipstick. You walk out and Sasha immediately starts howling.

“See! I told you! You look hot!”, Sasha yells.

Mikasa smiles, “Don’t worry, Y/n. You really do look amazing.”

You smile and say, “Okay okay! Let’s get going, I need a drink!”

Sasha drives you three because you can’t let your driver know you’re leaving for obvious reasons. You do feel bad for lying to your dad, but it was for the best. You and Levi needed a night away from each other.

The three of you walk up to the club, there’s a short line so you get in the back.

“The boys saved us a table on the second floor”, Sasha says.

You and Mikasa nod, for some reason you start to get butterflies. You haven’t seen Eren in a few weeks, but the last time you did you guys made out and then he snuggled with you all night.

You turn to your friends, “So are you two officially dating Connie and Jean yet?”

Sasha giggles, “Connie and I aren’t official yet, but I think that’s coming soon.”

You smile at Sasha and then look at Mikasa.

Mikasa becomes shy, “Honestly I don’t know if I want a relationship with Jean. He’s just been a fun fling.”

A huge smile is on your face, “I’m so happy for you! There’s no need for labels if you two are just having fun.”

The line is moving quickly, the bouncer takes one look at the three of you and lets you in for free.

Sasha whispers to you, “We still got it!”

The three of you are giggling as you walk in. The bar on the first floor seems pretty empty so you walk up and order your first round of shots. You all were feeling nervous, so shots would definitely help with that. After downing your first drink you order a vodka redbull that you can sip on. The three of you pick up your drinks and head to the stairs. The music was loud and the lights were dim. The alcohol was providing a small buzz that helps boost your confidence.

Sasha leads you to the corner of the large room where the guys are all sitting in a booth. They were all laughing about something, but the moment the three of you approach the booth they stop laughing. They are all gawking at you and your friends.

You cross your arms, “I missed you guys too.” You roll your eyes and the guys start saying their hellos and asking how you were.

The booth was a U shape, Eren was sitting in the middle and Jean and Connie were on the sides. Jean steps out momentarily so you can sit beside Eren. Once Jean sits back down he puts his arm around you.

“Hey let me know if you want to hang out with me instead of that blockhead tonight”, Jean says with a smirk.

You playfully push Jean off of you, “Shut up you pig.”

You both laugh and you ask the group, “Where’s Armin?”

Connie responds casually, “He wanted to skip tonight since we would all be coupled up.”

You try to hide your surprise, “Oh, right.”

You feel butterflies when you think of you and Eren being coupled up. This is ridiculous, you haven’t even spoken to him. You take a big swig of your drink and then turn to him.

“Did you miss me?”, You say with a smile.

He leans down to be eye level with you, “More than you know.”

Your heart starts racing. He has his hair up in a messy bun, a few pieces are down and framing his face. You forgot how piercing his green eyes were. You’re practically drooling over him.

You clear your throat, “Uh, so how was class while I was gone?”

Eren fills you in on what you missed from the last week. You begin to feel a lot more relaxed with him. You and Eren are clearly flirting and you are definitely enjoying it.

“Hey I really like your hair. It’s cute when it’s in a bun like that”, You say with a smile.

Eren looks mischievous, “Well I really like the top you’re wearing. You look sexy, Y/n.”

You can’t help but blush, “Thank you. I was really nervous about wearing it, but I’m glad you like it.” The two of you begin to scoot closer, Eren rests his hand on your thigh.

Sasha interrupts, “Uh, Y/n. Isn’t that Levi over there?”

Your heart stops and you whip your head to where she’s looking.

“Oh for fucks sake”, You say.

Wait. Who the hell is that? Levi has his arm resting on the chair beside him, sitting in the chair is that same red head he was flirting with last time. He pulls her close and whispers something in her ear. She’s blushing so you can only assume he’s said something sexual. Your blood begins to boil and you chug the rest of your drink. The bar on this floor was right behind their table.

“I’m going to go get another drink and see why the fuck he’s stalking me on his night off”, You say clearly annoyed.

Eren asks, “Do you want me to come with you?”

You smile, “No it’s okay. This shouldn’t take too long.”

Jean lets you out of the booth and you are feeling pretty buzzed at this point. You decide to sneak past their table and get some more liquid courage first. You walk up to the bar and take a shot of vodka before asking for another mixed drink. You discreetly check your phone camera and make sure your hair and makeup look perfect.

Levi and this mystery girl are sitting on the same side of the table. You walk with confidence and grab the empty chair across from Levi and sit down. The moment you do, both of them look at you.

“Why the fuck are you here?”, You ask Levi.

He smirks, “I can’t have a little fun on my night off?”

You roll your eyes, “Did you follow me?”

He pretends to act confused, “I don’t know what you’re talking about. This is a very popular club in the city.”

“Cut the bullshit, I know you followed me”, You say bluntly.

The girl interrupts your heated conversation, “I’m sorry, but who are you?”

You look at her, she actually seems sweet and looks genuinely confused by the situation.

You sigh, “I’m sorry, I should’ve introduced myself. I’m Y/n, Levi is my bodyguard and is supposed to have the night off. So imagine my surprise when I see that he followed me here.”

She looks surprised, “Oh I had no idea.” She looks at Levi, “Is that true? Did you really follow her?”

Levi looks annoyed, “Of course not, Petra. I frequent this club, it’s just a coincidence.”

You knew that was a lie. You stand and put your hands on the table and lean forward, now you’re closer to Levi. You’re feeling ballsy having your cleavage right in front of his face.

“I guess we’ll find out the truth once I leave this place”, You say with confidence.

Levi looks caught off guard with you being so close, “W-Well aren’t you just going home? That’s where your father thinks you are anyway.”

You look at him and giggle, “See you later, Levi.” You look at Petra, “It was nice meeting you.” You push off the table and walk away, unable to wipe off the smirk on your face. You know that you’re driving Levi crazy and you have to admit, you fucking love it.

Once you get back to the table it’s only Eren. He points to the dance floor, and you spot the rest of your friends dancing. You motion for Eren to follow you and you both go over to where your friends are. You chug the rest of your drink and now you know that you’re drunk. A smile appears on your face.

Sasha shouts, “Oh no!! Drunk Y/n has arrived! If you don’t want grinded on you better run now!”

You’re known for becoming very touchy with everyone when you’re drunk. Your friend group is laughing, and you spot your first victim. You walk to Mikasa and you grab her hand. You dip in front of her and start shaking your ass on her. You and Mikasa laugh while you dance together. A few minutes later you walk over to Jean.

He smirks, “You sure you can handle this?”

You roll your eyes and start dancing with Jean. You look to see Sasha and Connie making out instead of dancing. Gross. Then you see Mikasa and Eren dancing together, it’s only friendly of course but you can’t help but think they look good together.

Jean whines, “I don’t like the way Mikasa is looking at Eren.”

You complain, “Ugh you’re such a buzzkill. I’m trying to dance.”

Jean surprises you and grabs your hips and pulls you back to him. You both spend the next few minutes dancing and grinding on each other. You step on Jean’s foot by accident and you start laughing when he grabs it in pain.

“Jean! I’m sorry!”, You shout in between laughing.

You feel someone hold your hand. You turn to see Eren smiling at you.

“My turn yet?”, Eren asks.

You smile, “I was saving you for last.”

You aren’t sure if it’s the alcohol or the adrenaline, but you’re feeling extremely ballsy. You grab the collar of Eren’s shirt and bring him in for a kiss. You two are kissing in between dancing. Your body is starting to feel like it’s on fire. You need more.

Eren leans to your ear, “Wanna go back to my place?”

You shake your head yes, “Let me tell everyone else.”

You grab your friends, “Eren and I are leaving! Have fun, but not too much fun.” You wink and everyone laughs.

Eren grabs your hand and you walk to the stairs. You look back and see Levi with your friends, he looks frantic. They point to where you are across the room, he looks at you and starts walking quickly to where you are.

You yell to Eren, “Hurry we have to run! Levi is coming!”

Eren turns and sees Levi pushing through the crowd. You both start running down the stairs. Thank god for Eren or else you would’ve fallen down the stairs. You weren’t drunk anymore because of the dancing earlier, but you were definitely still buzzed.

Eren does a good job at finding openings through the hoards of people. You look back and see Levi barreling down the stairs.

“Go go go! He’s catching up!”, You shout.

You and Eren finally make it to the door and once you’re outside you cross the street. Eren jumps on the back of a motorcycle and turns it on. You stop right beside it, you’re surprised that this is his ride.

“Are you sure you’re okay to drive this?”, You ask.

He looks at you, “I had one beer when we first got here. I’m totally sober.”

You both hear the front entrance door slam open. You see Levi looking around and he spots you.

You squeal, “Fuck!” You jump on the back of Eren’s bike, “Hurry!”

Eren revs his engine and he pulls out of the parking spot. You look to your side and you see Levi running across the street. But it’s too late. You stick your tongue out and give Levi the middle finger. His reaction shocks you, Levi laughs.

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A Trip to Remember- Chapter Two

Summary: The year is 2031, and y/n is looking for a fresh start on her vacation with her sister. 3 months post breakup, and she's ready to stop wallowing. Korea has been a dream location for y/n for years, she is excited for all the sightseeing and food! Her sister has other plans, when she suggests attending a certain someone's charity birthday event.

Pairing: idol!Seonghwa x corporate!reader

Genre: fluff, romance, angst, seonghwa x reader, ateez ensemble, suggestive, cursing

Length: 4,643 words

Author’s Note: I'm still figuring out Tumblr, so an updated masterlist will be coming soon. I hope you enjoy the second chapter! :)

You’re surprised by how forward Seonghwa is, but you also can’t deny the sexual tension you’ve been running from the moment you met him. The way he’s fiddling with your dress strap while he waits for your answer, all while staring into your eyes. You feel the electricity in the air, it scares you, but you’re too busy staring into his brown eyes.

“Okay,” You say shyly.

Seonghwa smiles with so much endearment, “Okay.” He waits a moment and then decides to ask, “Do you mind telling me about yourself? I want to know more about you.”

You nod, “I’m a manager for a tech company, I’ve spent years working to get where I am now. I’m 35, and well you’ve met my only sibling.” You both smile at the mention of Emma. You’re not very good at coming up with fun facts so you ask, “Is there anything specific you want to know?”

Seonghwa hesitates and then asks, “Are you single? You don’t have to answer that if it’s too personal.”

You smile, “It’s okay. I am single, I went through a pretty bad breakup a little over 3 months ago. Actually, this trip was my way of a fresh start. I was tired of being sad, and my ex started officially dating his mistress. I’m ready to move past that time of my life. We were together for 5 years, but I don’t miss him at all.” You giggle and look at Seonghwa, “Is that bad?”

He laughs, “Not at all! I’m sorry that it didn’t end well, that must’ve been really hard. But look at you! In Korea, riding with me to an after party. Would the past y/n believe it?”

You start laughing, “Absolutely not! I’ve been working 24/7 for the last 3 months, but I meant it when I said this trip is my fresh start. I’m not going back to how I was.”

Seonghwa grabs your hand, “I’m so proud of you, y/n. I know we just met, but you’re really inspiring. I was completely blown away from your generosity towards the orphanage in Jinju. Now hearing what the last few months have been like for you, I am captivated by you.”

Your eyes widen as the blush spreads across your cheeks, “I-I just really enjoy helping people financially. It’s one of the major perks of my job.”

Seonghwa smiles, gently puts his hand on your cheek, and leans in, “You didn’t say anything about the last part.”

His cologne fills the air you breathe. His touch is like fire to your cheek. When Seonghwa is this close, your thoughts are less reasonable and more on instinct. How are you supposed to be making good decisions while Seonghwa is holding you like this? You thought the sexual tension was bad before, well it’s a hundred times worse now. You’re scared to move, to blink. Fighting every ounce of your body to not just jump him right here right now. You notice his other hand that’s not on you, is shaking. The thread you had left of self control snapped, and you kissed him. 

It’s not just a kiss, it doesn’t feel like one you’ve had before. Seonghwa quickly reciprocates, fully making out now. The feeling you get is unlike one you’ve experienced. Most first kisses are a little awkward with silly mistakes. Not this one. It was like your mouths were made for each other and fit perfectly. You didn’t know anything besides the fact that you needed more. The kiss has turned frantic, you both need more of each other right now. It was like a dam breaking, there was no stopping this now. 

“Oh shit! We were wondering what was taking so long!” 

You find yourself straddling Seonghwa. His arms wrapped tightly around your waist, and your hands holding his face. The two of you look absolutely horrified, and you clumsily get back into your seat. Wooyoung wished so badly that he had a camera. 

Seonghwa clears his throat, “Sorry about that. Give us a second.” Seonghwa closes the car door. Wooyoung is laughing maniacally, most likely running to tell the rest of the members.  

You both sit quietly for a moment, fully back down to earth. Seonghwa’s kiss sent you to outer fucking space. 

You decide to break the silence, “I’m really sorry about that. I’m not sure what overcame me. I’m sorry if that made you un-”

Your sentence is cut off by him grabbing your chin, pulling you in for a sweet kiss. He pulled away, but is still close and is looking directly into your eyes. 

He smooths out your hair with his hands and says, “Don’t do that. Not with me.”

You open your mouth to ask what he means, but you can’t form the words. He doesn’t even have to tell you, you already know. This is the fastest and most connected you feel to a person in this moment, and you would be lying if you said it didn’t scare you. 

Seonghwa goes back to his side of the car, “You might want to fix that red lipstick.”

You finally notice how smudged Seonghwa’s face is with your lipstick. You’re embarrassed, but it’s also kinda hot. The two of you spend the next ten minutes removing every trace of your time together. 

He sighs, “Wooyoung has probably told everyone by now. I wouldn’t be surprised if your sister knows.”

You cover your face in an attempt to hide your blush, “Oh god. I’m never going to hear the end of this.” Seonghwa chuckles and gently pulls your hands from your face, “That makes two of us. We should probably head in, I’m sure everyone is waiting for us now.”

“Alright, let's get this over with then,” You say as you open your door.

Seonghwa looks you over once to make sure you didn’t miss anything. You notice a bit of red lipstick on his neck. Your face is turning red again, but you reach out and wipe the lipstick off. 

Seonghwa has a mischievous smile, “I left that there on purpose. I wanted them to see how you marked me.”

You lightly smack his arm and whine, “Stooooop. I’m going to be permanently red at this point.”

Seonghwa smiles and kisses your cheek, “I like it.”

The two of you walk into KQ together, trying to act as normal as possible. Seonghwa explains that the party is happening in their cafeteria. You see birthday decorations lining the walls, and hear music blaring from what you assume is the cafeteria. The two of you walk in, you spot your sister sitting at a table and head for her. 

“Hey guys!” You and Seonghwa greet everyone at the table. 

Hongjoong responds, “Ah there’s the birthday boy. We were wondering if you two were ever going to show up.” Everyone at the table is looking between you and Seonghwa as you sit next to your sister. Seonghwa takes the chair next to Hongjoong, which is a few people away from you.

Seonghwa comes up with an excuse, “Yeah sorry our driver took the wrong turn, so we were stuck in traffic.”

Emma stares directly at Seonghwa, “Is that so? How interesting, we heard a completely different story from Wooyoung. Something about Seonghwa being covered in y/n’s lipstick, and y/n sitting on your-”

You cover Emma’s mouth, “Anyway! We’re here now! Let’s drink and have some fun!”

Emma removes your hand from her, and she has the biggest smirk on her face. Before she can say anything, you shoot up from your chair.

“I-I’m going to get a drink!” You manage to say as you’re walking over to the makeshift bar. 

You miss the way that Seonghwa follows you with his eyes the entire time. Emma didn’t. The rest of the table is engrossed in their conversations, so Emma catches Seinghwa’s eye and motions for him to sit next to her.

He’s sweating bullets and sits down, “What’s up?”

Emma chuckles, “I’m just going to be honest. I thought maybe you and my sister would hookup, I was actually hoping you would. I’m confused though. I’ve seen the way you look at her, the way you just watched her walk over to the bar. Do you have feelings for her?”

Seonghwa is taken back by Emma’s boldness, “Uh-I mean I really enjoy being around her. I just want to get to know her more, since we only just met tonight.”

Emma doesn’t fully believe it but doesn’t push it, “Okay. I didn’t mean to come off so strong, I was just surprised since you just met. But just between the two of us, I’m rooting for you.”

Emma and Seonghwa smile at each other, and he goes back to his seat before you come back. You’re at the bar, and decide to take another shot before coming back with a mixed drink. As you walk back to the table, you notice a girl you haven’t met before. She sits in the open chair next to Seonghwa. Something inside of your stomach drops, you already have a feeling something bad is going to happen. You sit back in your chair, and already notice that this girl is doing everything she can to flirt with Seonghwa. 

The alcohol is pumping through you at this point. You’re fully tipsy, as you continue sipping on your drink. 

Emma grabs your hand, “Let’s dance!”

She pulls you along with Nari, and the three of you walk to the makeshift dance floor. 

“Who the fuck is that girl sitting with Seonghwa?” Emma asks Nari as soon as you all are far away enough. 

Nari looks and rolls her eyes, “It’s one of the manager’s nieces. She’s been trying to get with one of the members for years.”

You notice the way Seonghwa and this girl are laughing together. Talking as if they’ve known each other forever. It makes your stomach turn. You down the rest of your mixed drink, which you already know is a bad idea but you really don’t care.

Emma is visibly annoyed, “Okay but why is he being so friendly with her? Wasn’t he just making out with my sister?”

Nari sighs, “Well the boys have to be careful with her, they don’t want anyone getting in trouble. Seonghwa is probably just being friendly, I’m more worried about what she will do.”

Your eyes start to burn, you didn’t notice that tears were forming. Nari and Emma immediately notice, and pull you so you’re not facing him anymore.

Nari tries to comfort you, “I wouldn’t worry about it, y/n. People flirt with the members all the time and nothing ever happens. I think Seonghwa is just being nice.”

Emma rolls her eyes, “Well we also feel like being extra friendly. Nari, do you know any guys who would want to dance with us?”

Nari’s eyes light up, “Oh my god you’re diabolical. Let me go find some of the members from bbtrippin!”

All you know is the music is blaring, and you are dancing on someone. Nari brought a bunch of her work friends over to dance. The alcohol hit you hard, quickly becoming drunk and having zero care in the world. The staff was well prepared for this. The room is dark, but they brought in different portable strobe lights. 

The guy who is dancing with you is one of the cute dancers from bbtrippin. Everyone is just letting go and having fun, nothing serious. The music is mainly a mix of songs that are popular, not just ateez. But the next song that started was Bouncy, and everyone went crazy. Now everyone is singing and dancing even more. Someone bumps into you, and you see it’s Hongjoong. So then you and Hongjoong start singing and dancing together. The two of you are drunk, and just having the best time. Even in your drunken state, this still feels like the best night of your life. 

Someone turned on Cyberpunk, and the members couldn’t help but get into formation. Everyone was laughing their asses off, the members were all so drunk. Obviously they weren’t in their right mind enough to sing as well, but it was crazy to see how their bodies moved almost automatically. They were all giggling so much, it was so cute. At the end, we all clapped for them as they fell into the nearest seats panting. 

Everyone is laughing and finding an open seat. You unintentionally make eye contact with Seonghwa who is sitting across from you. It looked like he was about to say something to you, but was interrupted by the girl from earlier who came and sat in his lap. He looked surprised, but didn’t immediately push her off. It feels like someone dumped ice water over your head, you feel yourself starting to sober up almost immediately. You’re not sure why you feel a pit in your stomach, it’s not like you guys were dating. You watch Seonghwa flirt openly with her, whispering something in her ear. She giggles and you stand and start to walk away, before Hongjoong stops you.

He looks concerned, “What’s wrong?”

You put on your best show, hoping he doesn’t notice the tears brewing in your eyes, “Nothing! I just have to pee.”

Hongjoong reluctantly lets you leave. You take this as your chance to get the fuck out of here. It’s 1am, so you book a car to come pick you up. Thank god Emma downloaded the app for you at the hotel. At this point you’re nearly sprinting out of KQ, you know it’s only a matter of time until your sister realizes you left. Especially since you know you weren’t very convincing to Hongjoong. Once you finally find the right car, you’re on your way back to the hotel. You decide to text Emma, now that there’s no way for her to stop you.

Hey! I’m in a cab headed back to the hotel. Sorry, I wasn’t feeling well. Have fun and stay safe! Let me know if you need money for anything. 

Emma instantly starts calling you. You feel guilty, but you also can’t talk to her right now. What are you supposed to say? You made out with Seonghwa, and then you saw him flirting with another girl, and now you’re crying in a cab. You’re sure that Emma has already figured it out anyway. 

You finally make it back to the hotel. It feels like a major walk of shame going to your room after your night. You’re embarrassed at how much seeing Seonghwa with another girl impacted you. He’s single, he’s allowed to be with whoever he wants. So why are you unable to stop the tears from falling? Maybe, somewhere in your subconscious, you were hoping that Seonghwa felt the same as you. 

The shower is boiling hot, but it feels so good. At this point, you’re not as sad but angry. Why was Seonghwa being so lovey with you, and leading you on. He said all the right things, just to go and flirt with another girl. Well whatever. Fuck him. You’re in your comfy pajamas, and crawl into bed. You can’t believe everything that has happened, and it’s only your first night of your vacation. Well one thing’s for sure, you learned your lesson from Seonghwa. You text Emma that you made it, and are going to bed.

She responds almost immediately, “I’m going to kill him.”

You shake your head at your sister’s temper, “Please don’t. It’s really okay. We are both single, he can do whatever he wants. I guess I just misinterpreted.”

The tv is on, and you’re attempting to fall asleep. Your body is absolutely exhausted, but your mind is racing. You feel like an idiot. Why did Seonghwa tell you he was interested in you, if he was just going to immediately get with another girl. Maybe he just said those things to get you to kiss him. That thought was even more upsetting, you didn’t think he was like that.

You hear the door unlocking, and brace yourself for a lecture from your sister.

“Before you start asking me a million questions, can you at least bring me water from the fridge?” You ask your sister. 

Emma doesn’t respond, but you hear the fridge open. 

You turn and sit up, “I’m really sorry I left you. I just needed to get out of there-”

You stop talking at the sight of Seonghwa standing in your room, holding a water bottle for you. 

He sounds out of breath, “You didn’t misunderstand.”

You’re shocked that he’s actually in your room right now all you can manage to say is, “Seonghwa.” 

He starts towards you but stops himself, “Do you mind if I sit on your bed?”

You sit up and motion for him to come over. He sits right next to you, his feet still on the ground. You’re surprised by how frantic he looks. 

“I’m so sorry about earlier. I was jealous that you were dancing with other guys, so I was acting like an idiot. I’m sorry that hurt you, after everything you told me about your ex-” He can’t even finish the sentence, he just puts his head in his head. 

You touch his arm, “Hey it’s okay. I overreacted. We are both single, you’re allowed to do whatever you want.”

Seonghwa looks at you with wide eyes, “Don’t say that. I know you feel the same. When we kissed- I’ve never felt like that before.”

“S-stop. Please. I can’t do this.” You say with a lump in your throat.

Seonghwa looks like he’s trying not to cry, “What do you mean?”

You take a shaky breath, “I think the way I acted tonight is proof enough that I’m not ready for a relationship. The instant connection I feel with you is scary. When I saw you with that other girl…I didn’t respond how I should have.” You look in his eyes, “I’m so sorry, I just don’t think I’m ready yet.”

A tear falls from Seonghwa’s eyes, “I fucked up, I lost your trust. Please can I have a chance to rebuild your trust in me? I’ve never felt this way about someone, y/n.”

You think for a minute, and almost give in. Almost.

“You have nothing to apologize for. We just met. Besides, I live in America and you’re all the way over here. I don’t speak Korean, and you’re a celebrity.” You collect your thoughts for a moment and meet his watery eyes, “I just think there are a lot of things working against us. I’d rather things just end things now, if I feel this way after just one kiss…I can’t start something like that. I’m so sorry Seonghwa. I just think I’ll be the one getting my heart broken at the end of it.”

Seonghwa feels speechless, his vision is blurry from the tears falling from his face. He stands quickly, surprising you. He walks to the edge of the room. 

“Well I disagree, but I respect that you need more time.” He meets your eyes, “Just so you know, the things you brought up, none of them are deal breakers for me. I already speak English, and I would make regular visits with you mandatory for my contract. Just think about it, okay?”

You respond quietly, “Okay.”

Seonghwa immediately turns and walks out of your hotel room. You fall onto your bed, and the tears immediately stream down your face. 

Five minutes later, Emma enters your room. She walks to your bed, and sees you all curled up eyes red from crying. 

She sits with you, “What happened? I gave Seonghwa twenty minutes, but he only used ten. Then when he came down, it was obvious he had been crying. Now I find you crying. What’s going on, y/n? I thought the two of you would’ve made up.”

You shake your head, “I’m just not ready to put myself out there again. Things with Seonghwa…the way I feel about him, I just need more time. Can we talk more in the morning? I’m exhausted.”

Thankfully Emma doesn’t argue, and goes to shower before bed. You turn off your lamp, and promptly cry yourself to sleep. 

You wake up to the smell of food. You roll over and see Emma standing awkwardly as the hotel worker brings in your tray of food. They speak for a moment, and then the employee leaves. 

“What time is it?” You ask. Your voice raspy from the light before. The memories quickly come flooding back, and your head starts throbbing.

Emma laughs at your disheveled state, “It’s 6pm, we slept all day.”

You groan, “Oh my god my head is pounding.”

Emma brings you over an assortment of food, as well as medicine for your headache. 

You smile, “Wow thank you. You were so prepared!”

Emma shrugged, “It wasn’t me. Seonghwa had all of this sent over. He asked me to text him when we woke up, he knew you were going to be in bad shape.” 

You are pretty shocked to hear that after last night's fiasco, but are also grateful. You begin digging into your food, and chugging water.

“So I was thinking”, Emma starts, “What if you spent the next few days in Jinju? Nari told me that the people at the orphanage are already asking when you’re coming. It seems that they are eager to show you their hospitality since you gave such a large donation. You could spend a few days away from Seoul, clear your head, and then we could meet in Namhae since it’s not far from there.”

Y/n is surprised by Emma, “You aren’t coming with me?”

Emma responds, “Only if you feel comfortable taking the train there alone. A local guide will be picking you up from the station. I was planning to spend a few more days here with Nari. We could meet up in Namhae, and then continue our trip from there?”

Well you definitely don’t want to hold your sister back, but this is rather surprising. But maybe Emma is right, it would be nice to get away from the city for a few days. Even though you literally just got here. Park Seonghwa really did a number on you. 

You ask, “You said someone will be picking me up from the train station?”

Emma smiles, “They were so insistent and excited to have you, I couldn’t say no. But yes, a local guide will be picking you up so you don’t have to do any navigation. Your train leaves tomorrow Monday morning at 8, and then I’ll meet you in Jinju on Wednesday and we can travel to Namhae together. Does that sound okay?”

Honestly, you were a little confused as to why it felt like your sister was trying to get rid of you. But you were also too exhausted to question further. You can’t deny it though, you are pumped at the idea of exploring Jinu for the next few days. The people who work for the orphanage you donated to are extremely kind as well. 

You shrug, “Sure. You are acting suspicious by the way, but I’ll go along with it.”

Your sister giggles, “Nothing gets passed you does it? This will all make sense soon enough.”

Y/n ignores her sister’s very suspicious comment, honestly you’re too jetlagged to care. You scarf down your food, and go to the bathroom to take a quick shower. 

After your shower, you and Emma make a quick stop to the 7-eleven across the street from the hotel. The two of you spend a good thirty minutes just being excited, and looking at all the different food and beverage options. You both decide to sit inside and snack on some cup noodles. 

“So how’s your head?” Emma asks.

You respond, “After the food, medicine, and shower I’m doing much better. What about you?”

Emma gives a thumbs up, “I’m great! You forget, I’m much younger so I bounce back fast.”

You scoff, “I suppose that’s true.”

There’s an uncomfortable pause followed by silence as the sisters finish up their snacks. Emma wants to ask about Seonghwa, but she can feel that y/n isn’t wanting to talk about it. This whole situation has really shocked Emma. She wasn’t expecting you to be so into him. You’re normally pretty reserved, so when Wooyoung came in yelling that you and Seonghwa were making out in the car she didn’t believe it at first. But then she saw the two of you walk in together, and she instantly realized that Wooyoung wasn’t lying. The way you look at Seonghwa, she’s never seen you look at someone like that before. Based on what Nari was telling her, this also isn’t normal for Seonghwa. He was more into flings, and relationships that weren’t going anywhere. 

Emma also will never forget the look on Seonghwa’s face when she was screaming at him. He looked absolutely panicked when he realized you had left, and that his behavior was why. Emma was ready to grill him, but his response surprised her. Seonghwa was nearly in tears when he was begging Emma to let him apologize to you. The whole ride to the hotel, he was so upset with himself. The original plan that Emma and Nari had come up with, was just for the two of you to hook up with no strings attached. Emma knew you were in desperate need of a good fuck, and Nari said that Seonghwa would be the perfect match since he’s not really into relationships. Or so they thought. 

The rest of the night consisted of you packing up the few things you took out from your suitcase, and scrolling through your phone in bed. You fell asleep around 8:30pm (thank you, jetlag). You wore something cute but comfortable to the train station. Emma was nice enough to come with you, so at least you didn’t have to navigate yourself to the station. 

“Alright I think you’re all set! The train leaves in 15 minutes, so that’ll give you enough time to get situated,” Emma says.

You smile, “I’ll see you on Wednesday, and no more surprises after this okay? I think I’ve had enough for a lifetime since getting to Korea.”

Emma laughs, “Of course. Just remember, keep an open mind. I know how stubborn you are, but maybe just this once see where it goes before shutting it down completely.”

You look at your sister confused, “Okay now I’m even more suspicious. What the hell are you planning, Emma?”

Emma smiles and nods to the train, “You better go, I don’t want you to be late because you missed your train. I love you, and just try to relax and have fun! You deserve to be happy.”

She gives you a hug and gently nudges you to the train. You get on the train and find your seat. You get situated in your seat, and now your mind is racing. What could Emma have possibly planned for you?! 

The ride to Jinju was actually delightful. You loved being able to look outside the window, and see so many different parts of Korea. Your playlist and convenience store snacks also make the trip very enjoyable. You’re only a few minutes away from Jinju when you realize you didn’t ask where to meet your guide. 

The train has finally arrived in Jinju. You pack up your things, and go to grab your suitcase. It takes a few minutes, but you have made it off the train. The station is pretty packed, so you begin looking around and walking towards the exit.

“Y/n!”

Your head turns and your eyes widen, “Seonghwa?”