Chapter 14 - Empty Feelings

Chapter 14 - Empty Feelings

The wind is whipping through your hair as you clutch Eren tightly. The city feels so different racing through the streets on a motorcycle at night. The evening chill is helping you sober up. You pull into the parking garage of Eren’s apartment. After parking, Eren hops off his bike and offers you a hand. You grab his hand and he helps you off the bike.

Eren chuckles, “Well, we made it. Do you want to come up?”

You smile and say, “Sure.”

Eren smiles back at you and motions for you to follow him. You both walk into the building and make your way to the elevator.

Eren turns to you, “Are you still drunk? You seem like you’ve sobered up quite a bit.”

You giggle, “Yeah between the adrenaline of being chased and then the cold air, I’m pretty much sober now.”

Eren gently pushes some of your hair behind your ear, “Good.”

You blush and the elevator dings. Eren leads the way to his apartment. Inside it’s mostly tidy, a few things misplaced here and there.

“I share this place with my brother, but he’s out of town for the weekend”, Eren says.

“Oh nice!”, You respond.

There’s a few minutes of awkward silence, neither of you knew what to do. Eren pushed back a strand of his hair, clearly nervous. He walks over to you and grabs your hand.

Eren looks you in the eyes, “Let me know if you want me to stop, yeah?”

Your stomach drops and you begin to blush. Your heart is racing with anticipation.

“Okay”, You smile shyly.

Eren leans closer, “That smile of yours is going to get me into trouble.”

He kisses you gently, putting both hands around your face. You put your arms on his hips and pull him closer. He pushes you against the wall as you both deepen the kiss. Just as you are ready for more, Eren pulls away.

“Let’s go to my room”, He says.

You nod and follow him to his room. As soon as you shut the door he is back on you. This time he picks you up while kissing you, and walks over to his bed. He flops you down and you both giggle.

Eren slightly blushes as he looks at you, “You look good on my bed.”

You laugh and playfully hit his arm, “What a cheesy pickup line.”

He smiles as he crawls to hover over you, “But I got to see your smile again.”

All of Eren’s sweet words were making your heart flutter. You wrap your hand around the back of his neck and pull him down to you. The two of you begin making out, your hand slowly traveling down.

You could easily feel the bulge through his pants. You unbutton and unzip his pants. You begin to rub his bulge while his underwear is still covering it. Eren starts to moan and you gently push him off you, so he can lay on his back. Eren kicks off his pants and you begin teasing him by rubbing his cock over his underwear.

Eren whines, “Please, Y/n. I want you so bad.”

At this point you were so wet it was laughable, but you want to please him first. He’s been so cute tonight, you couldn’t wait to unravel him. You finally pull down his underwear, and begin stroking his dick.

“Oh fuck. Oh shit, it’s been so long. I don’t know how long I can go”, Eren looks concerned.

You smile and place a kiss on his thigh, “It’s okay, Eren. I just want to make you feel good.”

Eren whimpers and places a hand in your hair. You begin stroking him again and he grips your hair. You lay on your stomach in between his legs and start licking circles around his tip. Eren starts moaning and throws his head back. You take a deep breath and begin slowly taking his cock in your mouth. Once you become adjusted, you start moving up and down faster. You can tell Eren is on the brink by the way he is moaning.

“Y/n. I’m going to cum”, Eren whispers.

You moan on his dick and that puts him over the edge. He shoots off into your mouth and it takes everything in you to swallow it. You slowly pump his dick while he rides out his orgasm.

You lay beside him, “How are you feeling?”

He tiredly looks at you, “That was amazing, Y/n. It’s been so long since someone has done that for me, I’m sorry I didn’t last very long”, Eren chuckles, “I’m exhausted. I feel like I just ran a marathon.”

You smile, “Let’s go to bed then. Maybe watch some Zootopia before we fall asleep?”

Eren looks serious, “Wait are you sure? I wanted to make you feel good too.”

“It’s okay, Eren. You look really tired, and I’m honestly exhausted after tonight”, You lie.

Eren looks at you, “Well okay. You promise this is okay? I don’t want you to feel like I used you.”

You respond, “I promise! I know you would never use me like that. Anyway, I wanted to do it.”

You reassure Eren with a smile and he relaxes. He grabs his remote and turns on the movie.

“Do you have a tshirt I could wear?”, You ask.

Eren jumps up, “Oh of course! I’m sorry I didn’t think to grab you one.”

Eren really is a sweet guy. You can’t lie to yourself, you are disappointed nothing more happened tonight. But maybe it’s a good thing.

He hands you the tshirt and you walk to his bathroom. You get unready as fast as you can, and head back to his bed.

After turning off the light, he turns to spoon you. You curl up into his arms, and within minutes you can tell that he’s asleep. Honestly, your mind is racing.

Being with Eren feels so nice and safe, but you are starting to wonder if Eren is too sweet for you. From his exterior, he seems like a completely different guy. Normally you would think that you hit the jackpot, but something is keeping you from feeling that way. You can’t help but wonder if you could ever be romantically interested in Eren. Making out with him was fun, but you’re not sure if you could see yourself actually dating him.

You begin to feel extremely guilty. You shouldn’t have let this happen, what if you’re leading him on. He’s such a nice guy, and you would never want to hurt him. As your mind is racing, you don’t notice your eyes begin to shut.

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You awaken to the smell of coffee and the feeling of sunshine on your face. You roll over and see Eren getting dressed.

He looks at you and smiles, “Good morning sleepy head. You can hangout if you want, I just have to leave soon to meet up with some work friends.”

You sit up quickly, “Oh my god I’m so sorry. You should’ve woken me!”

He laughs, “You looked so peaceful, I didn’t want to disturb you.”

You check the time and see that it’s 10:30.

“Shit. It’s late, I’m sorry”, You say as you grab your clothes.

“It really is okay, Y/n. Take your time”, Eren responds.

You change quickly in the bathroom and wash your face with water. You don’t look terrible, but you definitely don’t look good. You walk out and grab your bag and phone.

You say, “Hey I had fun last night. Thank you for taking care of me.”

Eren smiles, “And thank you for taking care of me as well.”

You both laugh as you walk to the door. You start to put on your shoes and Eren opens the door for you.

“Uh let me know if you ever want to hang out again”, Eren says nervously.

You know you should tell him that you think you want to just be friends, but you don’t want to rush that conversation. You want to be able to explain things to him.

You smile, “Will do.”

You walk out the door and to the elevator. You check your phone and see that you have a ton of unread texts.

“Shit”, You whisper.

Most of them were from your group chat with your friends. Your drunk friends just making sure you were okay and hyping you up for going home with someone. You quickly respond to them and walk out of the elevator. You pull up the Uber app to order a car, there was no way in hell you were calling your driver. Then your dad would know where you were last night.

“Hey”, Someone in the lobby says.

Your head whips around and your mouth drops open.

“How the hell did you find me?!”, You ask.

“You have your location services turned on with me, dumbass”, Levi responds curtly.

You slap your forehead and sigh. That’s why he laughed last night, there was no reason for you to run. That’s also how he knew which club you were at. You’re such an idiot.

“Come on, I can take you home”, He says and begins walking out.

You follow him, “How long have you been waiting for me?”

“Doesn’t matter”, Levi says.

Shit. He’s definitely been here since last night, he’s still wearing the same clothes. You begin to feel guilty. Levi gets into his car, and you hesitate for a moment. You’ve never ridden with him before. It’s a super nice car. You get in and lean your head on your hand.

“Well I hope you had the time of your life, my neck is so stiff from waiting for you”, Levi says clearly annoyed.

“I hate to break it to you, but it wasn’t that exciting”, You respond.

Levi asks, “Did you at least get laid?”

You scoff, “Not that it’s any of your business, but no. Eren was very tired after I suc-” You quickly stop talking, knowing that Eren was already on thin ice with Levi.

“You sucked him off and then he just went to bed? What a fucking pussy”, Levi says sharply.

“Levi! It’s not like that. He offered, but we were both really tired”, You defend Eren.

Levi responds, “He offered? I wouldn’t have given you a choice, you deserve to experience as much pleasure as he did.”

You sigh, “It’s really okay.”

You try to ignore the fact that he said what he would’ve done if he was Eren. If only Levi wasn’t so damn stubborn. You sneak a look at him, he’s got one hand on the steering wheel and is leaning his head on the other. He looks exhausted, but seeing him still makes your heart race. You quickly remind yourself that he would never be in a relationship with you. You can feel tears pricking the sides of your eyes, but you push them back. Levi pulls up to a red light, and you indulge in your fantasy for a few more moments.

You look at Levi and he looks back at you.

“I wish it would’ve been you last night. Having another man hold me just made me feel even more empty”, You say quietly.

Levi’s eyes widen and you look away, fighting back the tears that insist on falling. It doesn’t matter if Levi knows this or not, nothing will change. But at least you were honest, for your own sake.

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Chapter 8 - A New Friend

The car ride to the convention was pin drop silent. Yesterday after your phone call with Sasha, you had your driver take you to In-And-Out. Thankfully, you were able to quickly sneak out without Levi noticing. As you were driving away, you saw Levi running towards the car. It was too late though, he wasn’t able to catch you.

As soon as you got back, Levi was waiting on the curb for you. He gave you a tense lecture for about an hour. Honestly you were barely listening. Afterwards you spent the rest of the evening in bed watching tv.

Your phone buzzed, bringing you out of your daydream. Sasha was just checking in to see how you were doing. You lied and said that you were 100% better. You told her that you had been drinking so that’s why you were so emotional. Obviously that was a lie, but she didn’t push you on the subject.

You spent extra time on your appearance this morning hoping that it would make you feel better. It helped a little with your confidence, but you couldn’t deny the hurt you felt deep inside.

The car pulled up to the convention center, you got out of the car and went into the building. Not bothering to wait on Levi, you knew he would be tailing you anyway.

The first few sessions were boring. You really just weren’t in the right headspace for this. Thankfully, Levi watched over you from a distance today.

It was finally time for lunch and you were starving. You grab the salmon platter and head to a table alone. You sit down and start eating. Your anxiety starts creeping in, you can feel your body start to get overheated. Even as an adult, you can’t help but feel like a loser because you’re eating alone. All of your insecurities start creeping in and it feels like everyone is staring at you. Just as you’re starting to consider leaving, someone pulls the chair beside you and sits down.

You look over, relief immediately washing over you. You don’t care who it is, you're just glad to not be alone anymore. The man sitting next to you is very tall with blonde hair and noticeably thick eyebrows.

He looks at you and offers you his hand, “My name is Erwin Smith. I’ve been meaning to introduce myself. I’m one of the senior managers at your dad’s company.”

His smile puts you at ease and you shake his head, “It’s good to meet you. I’m Y/n.”

Erwin laughs, “Yes I know.”

You blush and internally cringe. Of course he knows your name, dumbass.

“I think I could be helpful to you as you begin transitioning into our company. I would like to be friends if you’re okay with that”, Erwin says sweetly.

You smile, “Oh yes of course! Thank you so much. Everyone already has their groups of friends, so it’s hard to meet anyone. Especially when you’re the CEO’s daughter. I think everyone is afraid of me.”

Erwin chuckles and puts a reassuring hand on your shoulder, “Don’t worry. I’ll help you meet everyone worth knowing.”

You spend the next hour getting to know Erwin. You don’t take his kindness lightly, you’re extremely grateful to him. Little do you know, a grumpy asshole has been staring daggers into the back of your head this whole time.

Erwin leans over, “Hey, are you and Levi a couple?”

You stare at him shocked, “Uh no. Why would you think that?”

He laughs, “No reason. I was just trying to figure out why he’s been glaring at us this whole time.”

You immediately turn your head around and your eyes meet Levi’s. He’s clearly pissed.

You turn back around and roll your eyes, “He’s technically my bodyguard, but he’s more like a pain in my ass.”

Erwin lets out a loud laugh, “I like your sass. Most people are intimidated by him.”

“Well I’m not most people”, You say teasingly. “Wait, how do you know Levi anyway?”, You ask.

“Oh Levi and I go way back. I’m actually the one who recommended him to your father for this bodyguard position”, Erwin says.

Your eyes open wide, “Wow really?

Erwin smiles and asks, “Is it hard to imagine Levi and I as friends?”

You giggle, “If I’m being honest, yes. You’re so kind and open, and Levi is so...wounded.”

Erwin raises his eyebrows, “I don’t know if I’ve ever heard someone use that word to describe Levi. Scary and stubborn are normally what people describe him as.” Erwin ponders the word for another moment, “It seems that you have seen right through Levi. Right to his very core. I’m very defensive of Levi, you see. Most people don’t give him a chance because of his cold demeanor. But if you even spend one second truly looking at him, you’ll see a bird who’s wing is broken. He’s wounded.”

You don’t acknowledge the tears that are threatening to fall onto your face.

You whisper, “I just wish he would let me in.” You wipe a tear and chuckle, “I must look so stupid. He’s my bodyguard after all. He could have any woman in this building if he wanted. Why did I think I even stood a chance.”

Erwin looks at you with concern, “Did something happen?”

You hesitate but choose to trust Erwin, especially knowing that he would never intentionally hurt Levi.

“Well, we kissed and did...other things”, Your face starts to redden but you continue, “Afterwards he was very cold to me, and when we got back to the hotel room he said that it was all a mistake. That it shouldn’t have happened.”

Erwin pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration, “That idiot.” He is quiet for a moment before starting again, “What if we test him to see if his real feelings for you come out?”

You look at him curiously, “What do you mean?”

Erwin smiles mischievously, “What if we act like we are starting to become romantically interested in each other? I know Levi, and if he truly has feelings for you he will become jealous immediately.”

You ask, “You don’t think Levi will be upset when we tell him it was a joke?”

“I think he’ll be more grateful that we helped him realize his true intentions”, Erwin says confidently.

You agreed to the plan, and you both casually talked while finishing your food. Your Dad soon approaches you, and Levi decides to also come over when he sees your father.

“Y/n! I’m glad to see you’ve finally met Erwin! Handsome fella, isn’t he?”, Your Dad asks with a smile.

You blush and remember your plan, “Yes he is, Dad.”

You don’t notice Levi’s eye twitch at your answer.

“Well, Y/n, I wanted you to come with me so we could discuss your plans for the rest of the day”, Your Dad looks to Levi, “There’s no need for you to come along since I will have my guards with me. Take the next few hours off to relax!”

Levi argues, “Sir I disagree. I don’t think I should be separated from Y/n.”

Your Dad responds, “Oh nonsense! She’ll be just fine.” He motions for you to follow him, “Come along.”

You walk after your father, but stop to look at Levi. He looks pissed and doesn’t break eye contact with you. You manage to pull your eyes away from him and catch up to you Dad.

Erwin’s POV

Levi is seething as he sits beside Erwin.

“Hey Levi, long time no s-”, Erwin starts.

“What the fuck are you doing with, Y/n?”, Levi asks bluntly.

Erwin plays dumb, “What are you talking about? I was getting to know her, we are going to be co-workers.”

Levi rolls his eyes, “Cut the bullshit, Erwin. I saw her blushing and I saw you laughing. You two looked like you were on a goddamned date.”

Erwin asks, “And if we were? Why does that matter to you?”

Levi looks away, “You can’t date my client.”

Erwin pushes, “Maybe, but I can fuck her.” Erwin has no intentions of that, but he wants to see how Levi will respond.

Levi snaps his head and stares daggers into your eyes. If looks could kill, Erwin would absolutely be dead right now.

“What the hell did you just say?”, Levi continues, “Look, you’re my friend but you are really pissing me off.”

Erwin doesn’t back down, “What’s wrong with me wanting to fuck Y/n?”

Levi growls, “I swear to god if you don’t stop saying that I’m going to put my fist through your skull.”

Erwin chuckles dryly, “I don’t see why this is an issue. You used to be my wingman, why can’t you be now?” Erwin pauses and then smiles, “Unless...you want to fuck Y/n as well.”

Levi whisper yells, “Oh my god I don’t just want to fuck Y/n! Can you stop saying the words fuck and Y/n!?”

Erwin teases, “Hmm so there’s more you want? Do you have feelings for this woman, Levi?”

Levi pushes out of his seat and as he walks away he says, “Fuck you.”

Erwin lets out a hearty laugh. His plan is already working.

Y/N’s POV

“Dad, do I have to?”, You ask.

“Absolutely. I won’t budge on this, it’s very important that you have a date to the company ball”, Your dad responds bluntly.

You sigh, “Well that would’ve been nice to know considering it’s tomorrow.”

Your dad chuckles, “I happen to have a few eligible bachelors that I could set you up with.”

You shake your head, “No that’s okay. I have someone in mind.”

You sit while your dad is talking to someone else, and pull out your phone. Luckily you had exchanged numbers. You pull up his name and start a text.

“Hey, Erwin. This is super last minute, but my dad insists that I have a date to the ball tomorrow. Would you like to go together?”

Erwin responds quickly, “Of course. I’ll pick you up at 8.”

You sigh and look out the window of the building. At least you’ll have someone to dance with, even if all you can think of is those gray eyes.

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Chapter 1 - My First Day

The shrill sound of an alarm on a cold winter morning. Arguably one of the worst feelings. You roll over in bed and hit snooze, maybe in 5 minutes you’ll be more awake. The next alarm goes off and you groan. You decide to sit up and stare at the wall for a few minutes while you slowly come to.

Looking at your phone you see a text message waiting for you. Sasha texted you that she would be over at 7:30 to go to school together.

You look at the time and see that it’s 6:40. You walk to your bathroom and start getting ready.

Today was your first day of your senior year of college. You were so glad to be done with school in two semesters.

You spent a few extra minutes on your hair and makeup. Because of your name, you’re expected to be put together. Not that you couldn’t have fun, but when it came to school you needed to be extra focused.

After graduating, you were expected to start working at your dad’s company. One day he would pass down the responsibilities to you. Was it something you dreamed of doing? No, not really. But it also wasn’t the worst thing.

Sasha texted you that she was at your door. You walk over and buzz her in. Thank god your family allowed you to move into your own apartment after high school. You were almost forced to live at home.

“Come in!”, You yell at the knock on the door.

Sasha walks in with a bright smile, “Hi Y/n!”

You smile and wave as you grab a piece of toast and coffee. You text your driver that you’re ready to leave. Yes, unfortunately your parents insisted that you have a driver.

“Let’s head downstairs”, You say to Sasha.

Both of you walk to the elevator.

While waiting to get to the ground floor Sasha asks, “So where’s the new bodyguard?”

You grumble, “I have to meet him tonight after classes.”

You walk into the lobby and stand by the doors waiting on your driver.

“Y/n, I don’t think a bodyguard is a bad idea. With everything that happened last month it might be a g-”

“Sasha. I appreciate your concern, but I’d really rather not think about that right now”, You give her a weak smile and she drops it.

Seeing your driver you walk to the car and slide in.

“Good morning, Miss. Y/n”, says your driver.

You give him a smile, “Good morning.”

Sasha looks to you as the car starts moving, “Look I’m sorry I brought that up, Y/n. I was just worried about you, but let’s focus on having a good first day.”

You look at Sasha, “Of course. I’m sorry for being so cold earlier, I honestly didn’t get much sleep last night.”

Sasha giggles, “That’s okay.”

You and Sasha goofed around the rest of the car ride. Both of you are trying to get rid of the first day of school jitters.

“I’m so sad we don’t have any classes together”, You whine.

Sasha laughs, “Well you should have majored in nutrition instead of business!”

You both laugh. Sasha is truly pursuing her dream career which was food. You admired her for following her passion.

You hop out of the car and thank your driver.

“Do you want to meet up for lunch after classes? Maybe we can get together with the rest of the gang?”, Sasha asks.

You smile, “Yeah let’s do it! I’m done at noon so just text the group chat where we’re meeting.”

Sasha replies, “Okay! Good luck!”

You both head to your separate buildings. You’re feeling pretty nervous since it’s your first day. The only classes you have left to take are for your major, and you’re the only business major in your friend group. You have a few acquaintances in your major, but your school is huge and you don’t know if they’ll be in your classes.

You quickly walk into the classroom and find a seat in the middle row. You pull out your laptop and get your notes ready. You check your phone and see you have a few minutes until class starts. You check the group chat to see that there are a bunch of unread messages.

You smile at your friend’s messages. They’re excited to meet up for lunch because it’s been a few months since the gang got together. The room is starting to fill up and you notice someone pulling out the seat beside you.

The boy smiles and says, “Hi I’m Eren. Is it okay if I sit here?”

“Yes! I’m Y/n”, You smile back.

He has dark brown hair, but what really sticks out to you are his piercing green eyes. You had never seen him before.

“I transferred to New York from my school in California”, Eren tells you.

You respond, “Oh that explains why I didn’t recognize you. Are you enjoying the city so far?”

Eren laughs, “I am. I’m excited about the change of pace.”

You smile at him, unable to respond because your professor starts the lecture.

The rest of your classes go by in a blur. To your relief, Eren had the same classes as you so you felt less alone. You thought about inviting him to lunch, but decided against it since you hadn’t seen your friends in a while.

You face Eren and say, “Well it was great meeting you. I’m assuming I’ll see you tomorrow?”

Eren replies with a smile, “I hope so.”

You feel a small blush creep on your face and say, “I’ll see you tomorrow then.”

You both wave and you start walking a few blocks to the cafe you’re meeting your friends at. Trying to shake those green eyes out of your head.

“Y/n!!!”, You look to see your group of friends already at a table.

You get a big smile on your face and run over to hug each of them.

“I’ve missed you all so much!”, You gush.

Jean squeezes you extra hard, “But you missed me the most right?”

You laugh and slap his arm. You all get seated and start catching up.

“Armin, how was your summer internship?”, You ask.

He replies with a smile, “It was never boring! Lots of experiments and work. The person I was shadowing was a lot of fun, but she was a bit of a workaholic.”

You giggle, “So not much free time?”

“No”, He responds, “But I learned a lot and I’m hoping I’ll get a job there once I graduate.”

Connie interrupts, “My turn! I had a blast working at a really cool restaurant! Sasha and I got into some trouble though.”

Jean scoffs, “Why doesn’t that surprise me?”

You smile and say, “What about you, Mikasa?”

Mikasa replies quietly, “I spent most of the summer working out. I even learned how to fight!”

Your eyes light up, “You are so cool! Please teach me sometime!”

Mikasa smiles and nods.

Jean puffs out his chest, “Well I spent my summer interning with a company in Europe. The internship was okay but the girls wer-”

“Please don’t make me lose my appetite!”, Sasha yells.

Everyone laughs and eats lunch while catching up.

“So now that we are all back together, when are we going to go to a party? I heard Floch’s frat is having one this weekend to celebrate the beginning of the semester”, Jean says.

“I thought we were going to take our senior year more seriously?”, You laugh knowing that was never going to happen.

“I’m down!”, Connie says.

Sasha agrees, “Me too, as long as there’s food.”

“So then it’s settled! This friday night! We should all meet up at Y/n’s and pregame”, Jean says happily.

“That’s fine with me, I can supply the booze as long as you guys bring some snacks”, You reply.

You look at your phone and see a text from your dad, reminding you to be home in 30 minutes.

Crap. You text your driver and let him know where you are.

“Alright guys this was fun but I’ve gotta head out. Let’s get fucked up this weekend for old times sake”, You say with a smile.

Your group of friends erupt in agreement and you leave the cafe.

As you’re sitting in the car you sigh. You’re finally starting to feel more like yourself since the incident happened last month. You know your friends are worried about you, but hopefully this weekend can show them that you’re doing better.

You honestly can’t wait for this weekend. Letting loose and having fun with your friends sounded like exactly what you need.

You hop out of the car after thanking your driver and walk into the apartment building. Even though you’re happy to be on your own, you can't help but feel a little nostalgic. The elevator dings and you walk into the penthouse suite.

“Mom? Dad?”, You yell out.

“In the office!”, You hear your dad respond.

You take off your shoes and set your purse down. You walk into your dad’s office and your mom runs up and hugs you.

“Hi sweetie! How was your first day?” She asks.

“It was fine, Mom”, You respond uncomfortably because of the unknown person standing next to your dad. “Who’s this?”, You ask.

Your dad beams and gestures to the man, “This is Levi Ackerman, your new bodyguard.”

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Chapter 12 - Not My Day

Your alarm clock starts blaring and it scares the hell out of you. You quickly shut it off and turn over, checking the time on your phone. It’s 9am, today is the last day of the conference and you need to be there in an hour.

The memories of last night start running through your mind. You start to blush and wonder how you’ll be able to face Erwin and Levi today. It was only casual sex, you remind yourself.

You turn to see where Levi had slept for most of the night. You assume he snuck out before you woke up. You place your face in the pillow he laid on. Damn. It smells just like him.

You slowly sit up, and you have a headache from all the alcohol you drank last night. Thankfully the hangover isn’t too bad, but you definitely need some water. You look at your nightstand and your heart flutters. Levi had brought you a bottle of water and some advil. You chug the water and take the medicine, hopefully your headache will be gone soon.

You stand up and grab your outfit for the last day. Just a simple black pencil skirt and a white button up. You place your ear to the door, there’s no sounds coming from the living room so you bolt to the bathroom. You breathe a sigh of relief when you lock the door behind you and start the shower.

With the hot water running down your back, you start to feel alive again. And with that comes the twinge of pain that last night with Levi, will probably never happen again. You place your hands everywhere that he touched you last night, and relish in every moment.

God you wish you didn’t care. The truth is, one night stands were not your thing. You have had one previously, but it just left you feeling empty and worse. This facade that you’ve created of yourself, of being a badass woman who can sleep around and not give a shit, is crumbling.

You just desperately want someone to want you longer than an evening. Is your body really the only thing people are drawn to? You can start to feel the knot forming in your throat, your eyes are burning with tears trying to come out. You finally allow yourself to cry, keeping it as quiet as possible. You start to realize why last night is having such a heavy effect on you.

“God damn it I caught feelings”, You whisper through your tears.

You can’t deny it to yourself any longer. You have feelings for Levi, and he definitely doesn’t reciprocate those feelings.

You know that if you spoke to your father about this, he could easily have Levi replaced. But that won’t solve anything for you. These feelings are already here, never seeing him again would only hurt worse, right? At least this way you can still be in his presence, even if it’s not romantically.

You pull yourself together and finish your shower. You dress quickly and begin drying your hair. When the steam from the shower finally disappears, you see yourself in the mirror. Honestly, it hurts your heart.

After your hair is dry you listen again to see if you hear any movement in the living room. You don’t, so you sprint to your bedroom from the bathroom. You know you’re running low on time so you begin applying your makeup, making sure that you look your best.

You decide that it would be best to not bring up last night when you are around Levi and Erwin. You want to try and enjoy your last day in California before heading home.

You grab your phone and purse, you text your driver that you’re ready to be picked up. When you walk to your door, your heart starts racing because you know you’re about to see Levi. You try to shake it off, you need to act like last night didn’t affect you. You open your door and calmly walk to the kitchen. You grab a banana and as you start peeling it Levi walks around the corner.

“Hey we need to talk about last night”, He says and makes his way over to you.

Your stomach sinks because you know what’s coming. You make sure your voice is even and respond, “Okay. What about last night?”

Levi crosses his arms, “Listen, I don’t want you to take this the wrong way but it shouldn’t have happened. It was a mistake, I apologize.”

Well that was a huge punch to the gut. You try to hide your hurt.

“So was what happened in the bathroom at the ball a mistake too?”, You ask.

Levi pinches the bridge of his nose and sighs, “Yes. I’m your bodyguard, last night was totally inappropriate.”

You can’t help but think about when he held your hand in the car. Does he regret that as well? If he regrets it so much why were there multiple instances where he was showing me affection.

Levi asks, “What are you thinking?”

You can’t help but be pissed. How could he be so insensitive?

You respond, “I’m just thinking about how I should’ve just gone home with Erwin. A one night stand would’ve been much easier than hearing someone say how much they regret sleeping with you.”

You quickly put on your sunglasses to hide the tears welling in your eyes. You turn and walk out the front door.

Levi is right behind you, “Y/n! Wait! That’s not what I meant.”

Unfortunately for you, you are trapped with him in the elevator. You refuse to look at him as he stands beside you.

“I’m not saying that I regret it. I mean maybe I regret being unprofessional, but all I’m saying is that it was a mistake”, Levi says.

You give him a weak smile and ask, “Isn’t that basically the same thing?”

The elevator dings and you walk out. Levi is still going on and on about how it’s not the same thing, but you don’t listen to any of it. It’s all bullshit anyway.

Once you’re in the car, Levi finally shuts up. You look out the window and fight back the tears. You’re mad, but you’re not mad at Levi. God you wish you were mad at Levi, but no. You were mad at yourself. It’s not Levi’s fault, you knew exactly how this whole thing would go down and you still slept with him. A very stupid part of you hoped that maybe Levi would start to feel something more for you. And now he’s trying to be honest with you, and you don’t want to hear any of it.

When you arrive at the final day of the conference, most of the day feels like a blur. You’re stuck in lectures for most of the day. You’re bored out of your mind when they finally release you for the lunch break.

You sit down at a table and begin eating your lunch. You didn’t realize how hungry you were.

“Y/n!”, Erwin is smiling and walking towards you.

A blush creeps on your face and you wave to him.

Erwin sits down beside you and smiles, “So? What happened after I left!? Did you two finally sleep together?”

Your face fell, “Uh yeah. Yeah we slept together. But this morning Levi told me it was a mistake.” You blush and feel awkward, “Kind of humiliating if I’m being honest.”

Erwin looks at you concerned, “Oh god I’m so sorry, Y/n. I thought that maybe Levi would finally realize his feelings for you.” Erwin looks around, “Where is that asshole anyway?”

You shrug, “Dunno. He’s been giving me space.”

Erwin smiles softly, “If it helps, I enjoyed myself last night.”

You smile and look at him, “Really? You don’t regret it?”

He replies, “Not even a little bit. In fact, if you ever want to go again just let me know.”

You laugh and playfully nudge him, “Thank you, Erwin. That honestly made me feel a little better. And for what it’s worth, I had fun too.”

You had no romantic feelings for Erwin, but he was someone you quickly began to care for. You hope that your friendship continues once you both go back to Manhattan.

The closing ceremony was after lunch. You sat with Erwin for the rest of the day, you were honestly shocked at how normal you felt with him after last night.

You’re relieved when you’re leaving the conference, honestly you were excited to get back to the real world. It feels like you haven’t seen your friends in ages. Tomorrow is friday and you’ll get home in the evening, so maybe you can get together with your friends on saturday. You honestly just want to get plastered with your friends and forget about everything that just happened.

Once you’re in the car you pull out your phone. You open the group chat you have with your friend group.

“Hey bitches! Guess who’s coming home tomorrow hehehe. Anyone able to get drunk with me on saturday?”

You text the group and it only takes a few minutes for your phone to be blowing up from your friend’s responses. Everyone is down, and they’re figuring out which party we want to go to.

You lay your head against the car window and feel relief that you’re going home tomorrow. Saturday can’t get here fast enough.

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Summary: The year is 2031, and y/n is looking for a fresh start on her vacation with her sister. 3 months post breakup, and she's ready to stop wallowing. Korea has been a dream location for y/n for years, she is excited for all the sightseeing and food! Her sister has other plans, when she suggests attending a certain someone's charity birthday event.

Pairing: idol!Seonghwa x corporate!reader

Genre: fluff, romance, angst, seonghwa x reader, ateez ensemble

Length: 8,947 words

Author’s Note: I’m not sure yet if this fic will have smut! Once that has been figured out, I will update the tags if I need to :) I hope you enjoy! I don’t have a proofreader, so I apologize if there are any errors!

You jolt awake to the sound of your airplane pilot asking everyone to remain seated, because the plane will be landing soon. It takes you a few minutes to figure out where the fuck you are. You decided to take sleeping medicine since flying isn’t your favorite. The last thing you remember is the flight attendants making your bed. You are an established 35 year old, so the first class seats on a long ass flight were much needed.

Ten minutes later, you’re situated and looking out the window. You peek to the seat next to you, to see your younger sister somehow still asleep. It’s her 21st birthday, and you both are finally going on the trip you’ve been trying to make happen for years now. You gently wake her up so that the seat can be upright. She has the same look on her face that you did, so you leave her alone until she’s more awake.

So what exactly is this trip you’re on? Well it’s you and your sister’s dream trip to Korea. You’ve been promising your sister a trip together to Korea since she graduated high school, but could never get the timing right and here you are in 2031, finally making it happen. Over the years, you both have formed a love for Korea through k-pop, k-dramas, and food. It was exciting to be going to all these places you’ve been dreaming of seeing for years. You weren’t into k-pop as much anymore, but still had your favorites of course. You love to travel so knowing you’re about to land in Korea feels surreal.

“Oh my god, Y/n! I can’t believe we are about to land!” Your sister whispers excitedly.

You smile back at her, “Me either!”

You both watch the window in excitement during the landing process. You will be in Korea for at least the next two weeks. Your first stop and most likely home base is Seoul, but you both plan on going to as many different cities as you can.

A few hours later

Your sister pushed open the hotel room door, “Damn, Y/n! You rolled out the red carpet for me. This room is huge!”

You laugh and respond, “Well we’ve been trying to make this happen for so long, and we don’t get to travel together often so I wanted it to be special. My new promotion didn’t hurt either.”

You both laugh as you’re taking in the room, and the views from the room. You’ve spent the last decade climbing the corporate ladder, it all feels worth it in moments like this. Being able to have no budget on this trip and spoil your sister rotten, what’s better than that?

“Em, do you mind if I take the first shower?” You asked as you started gathering your shower things.

Emma responds, “You’re good! I need to rest and eat my snacks for a little bit!”

You smile and nod. The bathroom is honestly luxurious. You spent a few minutes just looking around. The shower is huge, and the water feels amazing. After taking an extra long and boiling hot shower, you’re at least feeling somewhat more human. Walking back into the room, you find your sister frantically speaking Korean on the phone with one of her friends. You just smile and lay in your bed, assuming it’s just something about her friends.

Emma is in the fall semester of her third year of college. She is also minoring in Korean, which is partially why we are here. We planned a few grad school visits, just to see if she is interested in them. But her being fluent in Korean is so helpful for this trip. You’ve always been the older sister, the second mom to Emma. Now that you’re in a new country where only Emma speaks the language fluently, it’ll be nice to take the back seat to some things.

Honestly this trip for you is a break from life altogether. You’ve been crushing it at work, as usual, but went through a pretty nasty breakup almost 3 months ago. It was definitely one of those moments where you felt as if you had to start all over again. You thought your ex of 5 years was going to be your husband. He got scared of how serious things were getting, and decided to cheat. So yeah. This trip is the start of your new life. The last 3 months have been filled with unimaginable grief and hurt, but you were done crying. Your ex making things official with his mistress was exactly what you needed to make this trip happen.

As you’re mindlessly scrolling on social media, you hear your sister end the call with her friend. She comes over and sits on the bed, and you can tell something is up just by the look on her face.

“What?” You ask in an exaggerated tone.

Emma puts on a smile and the most charm she can muster, “Thank you so much for bringing me on this trip, y/n! I love you so much and I’m so excited to start our adventures together.”

You’re completely confused now, “What the hell did you do, Em? I’m so excited for us too, but why are you acting suspicious as fuck right now?”

Emma responds, “Nothing! I’m just really excited for our adventure to get started, so I made plans for us tonight!”

Y/n’s mouth drops open, “Tonight?! EM! Are you crazy? We just had an almost 20 hour travel day! Look I know you’re young, but I can’t do the same things you can. I’m 35! I need my sleep.”

Emma looks dejected, “I’m sorry. I was just really excited, and my friend was able to get us tickets to this event tonight. It’s going to be really cool, lots of celebrities too. My friend works for the company, so it’s a really cool opportunity.”

Y/n grabs Emma’s hand, “I’m sorry if I came off aggressive, I was just surprised. You should totally go, Em! What a cool opportunity for you! I wonder if you could even network.” Y/n finished talking, but is now lost in thought trying to figure out how to give her sister tips on how to network.

Em squeezes your hand, “Hey. No work talk on this trip okay? I have barely seen you because of work the last 3 months. You haven’t been slick.” She pokes your side.

Y/n smiles, “Yeah because of the breakup, I kind of turned into a workaholic. But no more! I’m starting brand new on this trip. –About earlier, please go? Can you go with your friend? I would hate for you to miss something like this because I’m too tired.”

Emma responds as she’s standing up from your bed, “Oh I suppose I can just go with my friend. But you didn’t even let me tell you who’s at the party. Or I guess who the party is for.”

You quirk your eyebrow, “Who’s the party for?”

Emma smiles deviously, “Park Seonghwa.”

You immediately freeze. Surely Emma isn’t talking about the Seonghwa from ATEEZ. They’ve been doing things as a group here and there, mainly in Korea. After their military service, they’ve been slow to return to their previous schedule. Which you were happy with, they deserve a break. Coming to Korea, you hadn’t even thought of the chance of getting to go to one of their events. They have always been your ult group, but it’s definitely slowed down since their hiatus, and your life getting busy. Your ex hated ateez, but especially hated Seonghwa. Honestly, a huge red flag you simply ignored.

Y/n sighs, “Is this like a public event? I don’t want to be creepy and just show up to a closed event.”

Emma sits on the bed next to you, “So it’s Seonghwa’s birthday, but he wanted to make it a charity event. Hence the tickets. It’s actually a really big event, since it’s the first one KQ has put on in a while. There will be a handful of different organizations there, and all the proceeds from tonight will be split amongst the groups!”

You smile, “Wow. That doesn’t surprise me, they’ve always been generous.”

Emma responds, “There’s going to be a bunch of different fun activities. Lot’s of KQ staff, atiny’s, and just people who support Seonghwa and ateez. My friend who works there said the members would love it if fans came too.”

Y/n is in disbelief, “Your friend works for KQ? Damn Emma, that's crazy.”

Emma chuckles, “Minoring in the Korean language helps. I did a project on KQ last year, and my friend was just an intern at the time. Now she’s a full-time employee! I’m so excited to finally meet her in person. But I told her all about your situation, and how you’d be hesitant to come. She wanted me to tell you that Seonghwa is really excited at the thought of seeing international atiny again, since it’s been a few years since they’ve performed outside of Korea.”

Y/n thinks for a moment and sighs, “So I guess I’m going tonight?”

Emma squeals, “Yes!!! You won’t regret it! I really think tonight is going to be a lot of fun! And you’ll get to see ateez members again!”

You groan and pull the covers up, “So what do we wear? I’m barely functioning right now, so I’m going to need your help.”

Emma jumps right up, “I’m on it! You can just rest until it’s time to get ready.”

You hum in response and immediately fall asleep.

You awaken to Emma shaking you awake.

“Oh my god I started to think you were dead. Get up, we need to get you ready! We leave in an hour and a half.” Emma pulls on your arm and helps you stand. To be honest, the jet lag was hitting hard. Everything currently didn’t feel real. You just knew you needed to move.

Emma was able to get you into a chair in the bathroom. She starts brushing and straightening, as you try to come back to reality by going through social media. A coffee and thirty minutes later, you were in a much better place.

Emma sighs in relief, “There. All straight. I’ll get your dress and accessories all set up! Come out once you’re done with makeup.”

You grab her arm and smile, “Thank you. I literally couldn’t have done this without you. And oh my god!! You look so cute! I was so out of it, I’m so sorry I didn’t notice!”

Emma smiles at her sister and spins to show her the full outfit. After more compliments, Emma is begging you to start makeup because time is running short.”

You giggle and start going through your makeup bag. You weren’t sure what dress Emma picked out, so you just went with your normal makeup routine. Adding extra things here and there, since this is a big event.

Emma peeks her head in, “You look hot! My one request is that you have a red lip! It will be perfect with your dress.” She’s gone before you can respond.

You shrug and start digging in your bag for your red lipstick.

A few minutes later, you’re walking out to see what Emma picked out for you. The second you see the dress you protest.

“Isn’t this a charity event? I packed this dress in case you forced me to go clubbing.” Y/n crosses her arms.

Emma puts her hands up, “Hey, you can’t be mad at me for trying.”

You both are laughing as she gets out her option b dress. She pulls out a strappy a-line black dress. It was mid-length with a slit in the side, but it hugged every curve. Your cleavage is on full display.

Y/n looks at her sister horrified, “You don’t think this is too much” as she gestures to her chest.

Emma shakes her head, “You’ll definitely get some stares, but we’ll cover up on the train. I already asked my friend, and she said there’s no problem with showing some skin! They’ll know we’re foreigners anyway.”

You look in the mirror again. You can’t deny that you look hot, adding red lipstick was definitely the move. Emma and y/n move around the room gathering their purses and making sure they aren’t forgetting anything. One of your straps has already fallen twice, it’s beautiful but a pain in the ass. Your sister hands you your coverup for the train, and you both rush out the door.

As you’re walking you ask, “So where is this happening?”

Emma responds, “They rented out an event center like ten minutes away from here. Nari, my friend who works at KQ, already gave me directions so we’ll be good. She’s going to be watching for us as well!”

“Wow how generous of her. Are you two pretty close?” Y/n asks.

Your sister smiles, “Yeah we’ve been online friends for almost three years now! I can’t wait to finally meet her.”

Y/n smiles back at her sister, and the two of you walk to the train in comfortable silence. You both are admiring all of the new around you. Once you’re seated on the train, the anxiety starts building. The thought of seeing ateez again after being a fan for so many years. The last time you saw them was the tour before they enlisted, which was maybe around four years ago. The nerves are settling in. Before a few hours ago, you had no idea that you would even have the opportunity to see ateez. You are laughing at yourself in your head, feeling like a young fangirl again. You push the nerves down, tonight was all about having fun with your sister and admiring ateez from a distance.

Emma pulls you out of your thoughts, “So I guess I should mention that there’s going to be a ton of cameras outside the event.”

You raise your eyebrow, “Cameras? Well I guess that makes sense. Maybe there will be a way we can go around them?”

Emma smirks, “I wouldn’t count on it. Ours is the next stop.”

You look up and see the next stop is Gangnam. You’re pretty sure that’s the wealthy area of Seoul, makes sense. You can’t help but notice your heart picking up its pace when it’s time to get off the train.

“Are you sure this dress is okay? And that it’s okay for us to be at this event?” Y/n asks Emma.

Emma tries to comfort her sister, “Of course, y/n. It’s a charity event, so anyone with money is welcome. If it makes you feel better, you could always make a donation.”

Y/n breathes and smiles, “Yeah you’re right. I think that would make me feel a lot better. We just aren’t celebrities, so I’m worried about the cameras. Or people questioning why we are there.”

Emma slows to a stop and pulls y/n to the side, “You’ve got to trust me on this okay? My friend works for the company, we are technically her guests. You’re hot and have money, you have no reason to be worried. There’s going to be different activities to raise money, and lots of alcohol. Let’s just have fun tonight, okay?”

You smile at your sister, “You really are all grown up. You’re right, I’m sorry I’m just jet-lagged and nervous.”

You both laugh as you continue walking to the venue. The closer you get, you start to see a lot of security.

“Let me call Nari and tell her we’re about to come in!”, Emma says as she pulls out her phone.

From the distance you can see the venue, people dressed to the nines entering but not before going through a tunnel of photographers. You can also hear MATZ playing inside, trying not to freak out, you decide to let the music give you courage.

Emma grabs your arm, “Okay she’s inside waiting! Let’s go.”

Emma handles security and shows your tickets. They wave you through and you are met with paparazzi everywhere. You try to keep a smile on your face, while you and Emma rush through the cameras. Once inside you both can’t help but laugh. Your laughter is cut off when you look around and see how beautiful the venue is. You are relieved to see that you are in fact not overdressed.

“EMMA!” You hear someone yell. You see a girl run over and nearly tackle your sister with a hug. A smile appears on y/n’s face when she sees her sister finally getting to meet her friend. They spend a few moments laughing and hugging.

“Nari! This is my sister y/n!” Emma brings her over to you.

You take Nari’s hand, “It’s so nice to meet you! Thank you for inviting us tonight! This place is beautiful.”

Nari smiles at you, “I’m so happy you came! I know you both are fighting jet-lag, but I promise tonight will be worth it.”

Emma responds, “Here give me your coverup, y/n! I can give it to the person checking items.”

You’re hesitant, but slowly take your coverup off.

“You’re sure this isn’t too much?” Y/n asks.

Nari reassures you, “Not at all! You look hot! I know the members will appreciate that dress”

Your eyes nearly bulge out of your head, “Ah well I think you are just being nice! Besides, I probably won’t be that close to them.”

Emma returns and Nari asks her, “You didn’t tell her?”

You’re immediately on edge, “Tell me what?”

Emma sheepishly smiles, “Well I didn’t think you would come if I told you.”

Nari rolls her eyes at Emma and explains, “Our seats are right by them. I work for KQ, but over the years I’ve become friends with the members! They’re really excited to meet my American friends. Actually they’re the reason I had two extra tickets. Normally staff only get one, but they knew my situation and insisted on giving me an extra one.”

It takes all of your strength to not run out of the building, or fall to the ground. Yes, you’re an atiny and have been for years. But meeting the members was never on your list! You can be very shy, especially when you’re nervous.

“I wish weed was legal here,” You whisper to the girls.

They both laugh and Nari suggests, “How about we get a drink first? Then we will have to find our seats! But I promise, they’re excited to meet you! I told them you’ve been a fan since the beginning.”

The three of you walk to find a server that has glasses of champagne. The information Nari just told you is making your legs a little wobbly. You’re definitely going to get Emma for this. You grab a glass, chug it, and put it back on the tray.

Grabbing another one, “Okay, ready as I’ll ever be.”

Nari giggles, “I promise you don’t have to be nervous.”

You nod your head, as if that’s going to happen. Nari leads you to your table. The table is near the stage, you weren’t expecting to be this close. You are going to have a nice chat with Emma after this for leaving out so many important details. Once you get seated, you start trying to secretly do some breath work. Thankfully you’ve been meditating for years, so it doesn’t take long to get your heart rate back down. Putting on your professional face, since that’s the only way you’re going to get through this without throwing up. Just in time too, you hear a familiar voice.

“Nari!” You look over to see Hongjoong coming to say hi. He looks incredibly beautiful, it’s hard to not just stare at him.

They speak for a few moments in Korean. Emma also joined in and introduced herself in Korean.

“And is this your sister?” Well there’s no turning back now.

You smile, “Hi! Yeah I’m y/n, Emma’s older sister. It’s so nice to meet you, Hongjoong!”

He sits in the empty seat next to you, “Nari tells me you’re an atiny?”

“Yeah! I started listening to ateez in 2019, and was lucky enough to go to a few shows when you came to America over the years”, Y/n says with a light blush.

Hongjoong’s eyes lit up, “Ah really? Which city were you in?”

Y/n explains, “Well you never came to my state, but the closest show near me was always Chicago! I traveled there multiple times for your shows.”

He smiles, “Chicago is always so special to us. I’m glad to know you were there.”

You can’t help the tears that prick your eyes, “You’re so endearing, Hongjoong. I can feel your love for atiny just by looking at you. I’m glad to know you weren’t secretly a jerk.”

Hongjoong laughs as you see his eyes become misty, “I just understand all that goes into being a fan. The money spent, the time, I don’t take that lightly. It means a lot to me that people would disrupt their normal lives to see our music.”

You smile brightly, “Well you’re one of the most talented people I’ve ever seen! Every penny spent was well worth it.”

A staff member is waving for Hongjoong.

“Can we take a quick picture?” Hongjoong asked.

You’re surprised, “Oh my god of course. I should definitely be the one asking you.”

Hongjoong laughs and you both stand up. Handing your phone to your sister, you don’t miss the shit eating grin she’s wearing. You can basically hear her telling you ‘I told you so’, but at this moment you really don’t care. Hongjoong places his hand around your waist, surprised but not mad about it, and he pulls you in close. You both smile brightly, and Nari says something that makes you all start laughing.

Hongjoong holds your hands, “Thank you for coming, y/n. I know you were really nervous, but we wanted you to come. I’ll see you later?”

You smile hoping you weren’t bright red, “Yeah of course. Thanks jjoong.”

His eyes light up at the nickname as he’s walking back towards the staff. You plop down in your seat and just stare in shock.

“I’m waiting for my thank you.” Emma says with a smirk.

You roll your eyes, the alcohol is starting to make you warm and fuzzy. Or maybe that was just from your conversation with Hongjoong.

Someone comes onto the stage, and starts the event. You have no idea what they’re saying because it’s all in Korean, but you don't mind.

You take this time to look around. Your table being in the front, but a little off to the side. You see that there’s one table to your left, and the one next to that is ateez’s table. You try to not just stare at them, but wow. The last time you saw them this close, was their final concert before their military service. Most of them look physically bigger, and a little older, but it’s still your ateez. You can’t help but smile at the thought. Your strap falls for the millionth time, interrupting your thoughts. You sigh and pull it back up.

A bunch of clapping causes you to look on stage. You see Seonghwa shaking the man’s hand and coming up to speak. You smile as you see him start speaking. You’re not sure what he’s saying, but he’s absolutely perfect. Your heart eyes showing from a mile away.

“Stop drooling,” Your sister whispers with a smile.

You shoo your sister so you can go back to staring lovingly at Seonghwa. He’s just so beautiful, how could you not?! You feel much more relaxed now thanks to the alcohol. As Seonghwa ends his speech, the waiters all come out with what you’re assuming is dinner. It smells delicious, and you begin eating without a second thought.

Nari asks you, “I’m glad to see you feel more comfortable! Are you having fun?”

Y/n smiles, “I am! Thank you again. So what else is going to happen? Emma clearly didn’t fill me in on anything.” You give your sister a dirty look.

Nari laughs, “Well right now the members are preparing for the short concert they’re putting on for us.” You look to where ateez was sitting, to see that none of them are there anymore. Nari continues, “After that, there will be different games to raise money for the organizations tonight. Oh and then we will head to KQ for the afterparty!”

Your eyes widen, “Afterparty? At KQ? Are you sure I’m allowed to come to that? I don’t want the members to be uncomfortable!”

Nari looks at Emma, “I see why you didn’t tell her.”

They both laugh and Nari continues, “You and Emma are already on the list. If that doesn’t make you feel better, then just know that you also have a personal invitation from Hongjoong.”

“You guys are trying to kill me.” Y/n says before taking a giant swig of her drink.

The tables have been cleared, and the lights go out indicating the beginning of the concert. It feels surreal when the lights come back on, and ateez is standing on the stage. Their aura fills the room, you can feel the energy levels rising. Since this is Korea, you know the expectations for concerts are much different here than in America. Especially since this is a charity concert. The music starts, and ateez begins performing. The fact that they’re performing Crazy Form right in front of you, and you have to just sit there is difficult. You love hyping them up.

You and Emma start dancing and singing along quietly in your seats. The other side of the table is filled with Nari’s work friends. The more you and Emma are enjoying yourselves, the more Nari and the other staff at the table join in. At this point your table is having the most fun, singing and dancing while sitting together. This entire time you want to pinch yourself. How is this real?

The next song they perform is Bouncy, you and your table getting more rowdy by the minute. Everyone feels the alcohol taking away their worries. Hongjoong walks over to your side of the stage, laughing at the sight of kq staff and new friends. He loves the energy, and encourages it. After a few more songs, and lot’s of giggling from your table, Hongjoong begins to speak before the next song.

“Thank you everyone for coming! It’s been such a special night celebrating Seonghwa turning 33. We only have a few more songs before all the games and fun begin. But I wanted to dedicate this next song to a special atiny from America. Her coming tonight was all by chance, and I think that just shows the deep connection that ateez and atiny will always have. We will always find a way to be together, even by accident.”

Your eyes are watery and you smile at Hongjoong. Emma hugs you from behind while sitting, knowing you’re probably trying not to cry. Dreamy Day starts playing, and you have to try even harder not to cry. The members are all making sure to come to your side of the stage and wave. None of this feels real, but your heart feels like it could explode with how happy you are. Your table starts waving their arms to the chorus, and you of course join in. Emma hasn't seen you smile this big in a really long time.

After the show, you just sit there for a minute sipping on water. Still trying to convince yourself that all of that just happened.

You feel Nari’s hand on your shoulder, “Alright let’s go get more drinks and see what games there are!”

Y/n smiles and walks with Nari and Emma. The three of you decide to take a shot at the bar together, before grabbing your mixed drinks. Walking into the other main room you smile. It’s decorated like a carnival, all the games you used to play when you were younger were there. There’s an atm, so you go pull out a good chunk of cash. You walk back to Emma and Nari and hand them both a stack of money.

“Go ahead! I’m going to check out the different organizations over there” You point to the booths on the other side of the room. “I want to make sure I get my donation in, before I get too tipsy.”

Emma asks, “Are you sure? You don’t want us to come with you?”

Y/n smiles, “I won’t be gone long, and then I’ll come find you!”

Emma nods her head, “Thank you for the spending money! Call me if you get lost.”

You laugh and walk towards the booths. Your strap falls…again. You pull it back up as you get to the first booth.

You smile and say, “Hello.”

The people look at you and then look at each other. One of them manages to say, “Sorry. No English.”

You internally slap your forehead. You’re in Korea, of course they don’t speak English. You look to where Emma was, and she’s gone.

Y/n apologizes in Korean to the people at the booth. She feels someone closely behind her, probably waiting their turn. So she goes to move out of the way.

“Wait.” You hear the person behind you say.

You turn and are shocked at what you see.

“Seonghwa.” The name came out of your mouth so naturally.

He laughs, “And you must be y/n? I was looking for you.”

You’re surprised by that, “You were looking for me?”

Seonghwa nods his head, “Yeah Hongjoong wouldn’t shut up about you. I wanted to meet you myself.”

You can’t help the blush that appears on your cheeks, “Can I ask you a favor?” You surprise yourself by your boldness.

“Anything.” Seonghwa smiles.

You look back to the booths, “Can you translate what these organizations do for me? I would ask Emma or Nari, but I already sent them off to play games. I was wanting to make a donation, but it’s hard when I don’t know what they do.”

You don’t notice, but Seonghwa can’t stop smiling at you, “Of course. I’d love to.”

It took about twenty minutes for Seonghwa to explain the different organizations. You decided on the orphanage that was from Seonghwa’s hometown. Thanking him profusely for translating. He’s surprised to see you walk up to the organization from his hometown, something in his chest begins to stir. He sees the people at the booth jump up when they see your donation amount. They begin bowing and shaking your hand. He can’t help but chuckle when he sees your surprised face. You kept telling them it wasn’t necessary to thank you, you were happy to help.

You walk back to him, face flushed. You were so embarrassed by their big reaction to your donation, you didn’t notice your strap fell…again.

Seonghwa gently pulled your strap back onto your shoulder. You look at him with wide eyes, heart pounding.

“What made you pick them?” He looks to the booth you just came from.

You smile, “Well it’s your birthday. I wanted to support a place from your hometown. Is that okay?”

Seonghwa responds, “Of course. You just surprised me.”

You say cheekily, “I’m full of surprises.”

You both laugh and your heart races when you see the way he looks at you.

“Well, I guess I should find Emma and Nari. Thanks again for helping me!” You say with a smile.

Seonghwa asks, “Can I walk with you?”

You look surprised, “Oh of course! You don’t need to get back to your party?”

He smiles, “Nah. I’m off duty now.”

The two of you begin walking to the carnival part of the party. You can’t help but look at all the games, wondering how they got everything in here.

“Wanna play?” Seonghwa asks, standing in front of the skee ball.

You respond, “Yeah! Let me go to the atm real quick.”

He stops you, “No I want to pay for you. Please? It is my birthday.”

You stand there conflicted, “Fine but only a few games! I’m perfectly capable of paying for my own games.”

Seonghwa smirks, “I’m fully aware. Let me take care of you tonight.”

You blush at his statement, but nod your head.

The two of you begin your skee ball game. It only takes a few rounds for your ultra competitive side to come out.

Seonghwa stands triumphantly, “Ha! That’s 5-1. I thought you said you were good at this game?”

You gasp at him, “I am!! It’s because you have longer arms, and the setup is a little different than what I’m used to!” You are very clearly pouting over losing.

Seonghwa can’t stop the laugh that explodes out of him. While you stand there pouting.

He looks behind you, “The air hockey just opened up, want to lose on that too?”

You give him a dirty look and walk to where the air hockey machine is.

“I’m actually really good at this, so you better watch out.” Y/n says with confidence.

Seonghwa chuckles, “That’s what you said at skee ball.”

You roll your eyes, “Let’s stop talking so I can stomp you. Then you’ll see.”

You both have spent the last ten minutes being ultra competitive with each other. The two of you are completely zoned in, and determined to win this game. The trash talk comes out so naturally anytime one of you scores, or someone misses. From the outside, it doesn’t look like two strangers who just met tonight.

“HA! Game point for me!!” You yell as you serve the puck.

Seonghwa says nothing, he’s too busy trying not to lose to you. He hits the puck back, but accidentally makes the puck fly up off board. It’s not the first time your finger has been smacked by the puck, but it always manages to hurt really fucking bad. You drop into a squat, holding your finger tightly.

“Ow! Fuck.” You yelp. You squeeze your eyes and just wait for the pain to subside.

Before you know it, you feel two hands on your elbows lifting you back up to stand. You look to see that it was Seonghwa, and he looks terrified.

“I’m so sorry! Is your finger okay? Can I look at it?” He asks with worry.

You smile, “Don’t worry, I’m fine! It hurt really bad when it happened, but the pain already went away.” Seonghwa doesn’t look convinced so you continue, “You’re telling me your fingers have never been hit while playing air hockey? Seriously, it happens all the time, I’m okay.”

Seonghwa lets out the breath he was holding, “You’re right. I’m sorry though that it happened. I didn’t like seeing you in pain, it really scared me.” He looks into your eyes, the concern for you still there. Seonghwa continues, “But if you promise you’re okay, we should find something else to play.” This is when he notices your strap fell in the commotion. He fixes it gently…again.

“Ah I see. You’re trying to get out of finishing the game so you can’t lose right?” You say cheekily.

Seonghwa smirks, “Nah, I just felt bad beating you after your finger got hurt.”

Your eyes widen as you argue that he was actually not going to beat you, and Seonghwa can’t help but burst into laughter. He loves teasing you.

-After beating Seonghwa in air hockey-

You have the biggest shit eating grin, “Hey better luck next time yeah?”

He shakes his head at you, “A sore loser and a sore winner? You continue to surprise me, y/n.”

You pout, “No I’m not! Maybe you’re just not as good as you thought?”

Seonghwa’s eyebrows raise as he holds in a laugh, “Is that so?”

Y/n smiles and checks her phone. Shit an hour has already gone by.

“I’m sorry, I should probably check on my sister.” You say, and are sad at the thought of having to say bye to Seonghwa.

Seonghwa responds, “You don’t need to apologize. Let me help you look.”

You spend the next five minutes looking around. The two of you gushing over how fun the event turned out, and how it was decorated perfectly.

“Y/n!” You turn your head to see Emma sitting with Nari and her friends.

You smile and walk over, “Hey! There you are. Are you two having fun?”

Now that you’re closer, you notice a boy sitting next to your sister. Even though your sister is very much an adult, you still feel fiercely protective of her.

Emma responds, “It’s been great! I see you found Seonghwa.”

You turn to formally introduce him, “Oh yeah he helped translate the charity organizations for me! We’ve been playing games for a while, but Seonghwa, this is my sister Emma! Emma, I’m sure you don’t need the introduction.”

They laugh and greet each other.

Emma says to Seonghwa, “You were always my bias! It’s so nice to meet you, you’re even more beautiful in person.”

Seonghwa smiles and puts his hand to his chest, “Thank you! It’s always nice to meet atiny.” He looks at you cheekily, “Was I your bias too?”

You’re surprised by the question at first. You’re not sure if it’s the alcohol, or just being in Seonghwa’s presence. The confidence is radiating inside you.

You tilt your head, “Why do you want to know?”

He turns to you and fixes your strap that had fallen…again, “Hm. Just curious.”

You pretend to think for a moment, “I always loved all eight of you, but no. I have..different tastes.” Your smile radiates throughout the room.

Seonghwa can’t help the smirk that appears, “So bratty.”

You don’t notice how Emma and Nari are nearly screaming because of the flirting and tension between you two. You haven’t even noticed that Hongjoong was sitting with your sister and her friends.

Hongjoong interrupts, “Damn Seonghwa, just take her home already.”

You both immediately put distance in between each other. You walk and take the empty seat next to the random guy sitting by your sister. The blush is still lingering on your cheeks. Did you really just do all of that right in front of your sister?! You need to get it together. Seonghwa takes the seat next to Hongjoong, at the other side of the table. It’s a big round table, so you can still see each other.

You try to change the conversation, “So Emma, want to introduce me to your friends?”

The people they were hanging out with are Nari’s friends who also work at KQ. You now know that only Nari, Hongjoong, Seonghwa, and one other speak english. You encourage them all to speak Korean comfortably, you didn’t mind at all.

They continue their conversations. A waiter comes by, and you gladly take a drink from the tray. You begin sipping it while looking around the room. Everyone seems to be having a really great time. You look across the table to Seonghwa, who’s already looking at you. Your heart starts pounding, and you try to be calm as you give him a small smile. You look away and take a big swig of your drink.

You check the time and see that it’s already 9:30pm. You already know you only have a few more hours until your body just completely shuts down from exhaustion. You decide to send a quick text to Emma, hoping she’ll let you skip the after party.

“Oh no you don’t!” Emma stops mid conversation with her friends. Everyone at the table now looks confused at her. She continues, “Y/n is trying to leave early! No way! You can sleep all day tomorrow, we’re not going back until the early morning!”

You look at her shocked, “Early morning?! Are you trying to kill me?!”

Emma isn’t having it, “I don’t want to hear it! We never get to do stuff like this together, when will we ever be in Korea like this together?”

Your head drops and you sigh in defeat, “Okay okay. I’m going to go find the bathroom, but I’ll be back.”

Emma nods and is back into her conversation, you stand and start walking away. Thankfully the bathroom isn’t far from where you’re sitting. After you wash your hands, you start fixing your hair and makeup. When you walk out, you see people going up the stairs. You look to where your sister is, still engrossed in her conversation. You let curiosity take you up the stairs. There’s more tables, and more conversations happening. You’re drawn to the two big doors that are open, leading to the balcony. You stand and hold the railing, your breath taken away by the night beauty of Korea.

“There you are.” A familiar voice from behind.

You smile and turn, “Here I am.”

Seonghwa walks and stands next to you, “I thought you might be trying to sneak and go back to your hotel.”

You giggle, “No way. Emma would kill me.”

Seonghwa smiles, “You’re a good big sister.”

You’re surprised by his words, “Oh- thank you. I definitely have room for improvement, but I love taking care of my family.”

Seonghwa can tell how sincere your words are, he feels how genuine you are. The two of you are unaware that you are both just standing there staring into each other’s eyes.

Seonghwa clears his throat, “I-I meant to come get you because they’re about to start the closing speeches.”

“Oh!” You turn and start walking with Seonghwa, “Thank you for coming to get me! I had no idea.”

He smiles and the two of you walk in comfortable silence back to the main room. He walks you to your table and you thank him again.

“It’s no problem, y/n.” He surprises you and fixes your strap…again. “Don’t run away tonight without saying goodbye. I want to make sure I get to talk to you again.”

You can’t help the blush that appears on your cheeks, “Okay.” You say, nothing more than a whisper.

Seonghwa smiles at you, and walks back to his table. You plop into your chair, in a daze. You look up to see that you missed the fact that Nari and Emma were already sitting and saw the whole thing.

You cover your face, “Don’t.”

Emma has a devious smile, “Oh I don’t know what you’re talking about y/n. I definitely haven’t noticed the palpable chemistry between you two, or the way you two look at each other, or the way he fixes your strap for you.”

“Stoooooop.” You whine, “It’s really nothing. Maybe just a little flirting? But he’s an idol, we can’t be anything more than friends.”

Nari asks, “Why not?”

You look confused, “What do you mean? It’s been awhile since I’ve actively been into k-pop, but I know how strict the dating rules are. Even if there aren’t rules though, the fans take dating pretty hard.”

Nari responds, “You can’t really listen to the people who get angry when an idol starts dating. They clearly have an unhealthy parasocial relationship. Besides, Korea has taken positive steps when it comes to idols dating in the past few years. Especially when the members came back from military service, I think most atiny just want them to be happy.”

You smile, “I’m glad things have gotten better, but I don’t think you guys should get your hopes up about Seonghwa and I. He’s amazing and we get along really well, but he can have anyone he wants. I’m not Korean, I don’t speak fluently like Emma. I wouldn’t be against learning, I just think there’s a lot of reasons he wouldn’t want to pursue a relationship with me. Besides, I’m two years older than him.”

Emma slumps back into her seat, “I knew you would argue against it.”

“Em-” The MC interrupts you, ending the conversation for now. Most of the time you have no idea what’s happening. You pick up a few familiar phrases here and there. At one point the whole room is instructed to sing happy birthday to Seonghwa. His smile took your breath away. Seeing the other members love on him and tease him, it was very endearing. The two of you make eye contact, and you give him a big smile.

To end the celebration, you recognize the people you donated to from Seonghwa’s hometown, standing on stage to close it out. At least that’s what you assume since you don’t understand Korean. Until you see them point to you and everyone turns to look at you. The room erupts in cheering, and you are sitting there horrified. You have no idea why all these random people are clapping for you.

Emma translates, “They’re celebrating the largest donation their organization has seen to date! Y/n, they’re thanking you!”

Emma grabs your arm and walks you onto the stage, internally freaking the fuck out.

“I’ll be your translator,” Emma whispers in your ear. She tells you that part of the contest was seeing who would donate the most. Since you committed to $10k usd a month for an entire year, that makes you the winner. You really wish you would’ve known that before.

The owners of the orphanage both hug you, and thank you profusely. You have Emma explain to them that you didn’t know about the competition, and that you just really loved what they were doing. Unfortunately for you, the crowd loved that even more.

The prize is a trip to Jinju to see the city, and to also tour the orphanage so you can see where your money is going. You feel really touched by them and can’t help the tears that prick your eyes. You thank them yourself in Korean, and hug them both once more. Once you all are off the stage, you are able to exchange contact information so you can figure out your trip.

While all of this is happening, you miss the way Seonghwa is looking at you. Like you personally hung the moon and stars.

Hongjoong elbows him, “Stop drooling.”

After saying bye to the owners, you shyly went back to your seat. You could feel all eyes on you, your strap decides to fall…again. God you couldn’t wait to rip this dress off. Once you sat, Nari grabbed your hand and squeezed it gently.

“I know you’re embarrassed, but you did a really good thing,” Nari says to you.

You smile, “Thank you. I love being able to help financially.” Your genuine aura is like a warm hug to Nari.

She whispers, “Your boyfriend didn’t take his eyes off of you once. He looked like he was ready to fall to his knees.”

You laughed at the boyfriend comment, but looked to where Seonghwa was sitting. He was already smiling at you, and gave you a thumbs up. You couldn't help but blush.

Hongjoong teases Seonghwa, “Did you really just give her a thumbs up?”

Seonghwa whines, “Stop, I panicked okay?!”

They both laugh together at Seonghwa’s unusual behavior.

Nari and Emma are figuring out who’s riding in the cars, and who’s taking the train.

“Damn it, we’re one person off. We could’ve all been in the SUVs, but we have one too many,” Emma says.

You take that as a sign, “That’s okay! I’ll just go back to the hotel, I’m really tired so I don’t mind at all. That way you all can ride together!”

Emma gives you a dirty look, while trying to figure out an alternative that doesn’t include you missing the after party.

“Oh Seonghwa!” Emma says.

You turn and Seonghwa comes up to your group.

“Are you all headed to the after party?” He asks the group, even though he is only looking at you.

Y/n responds, “Ah well we have one too many so I’m just going to head back to the hotel! That way everyone else can ride together.”

He fixes your strap…again and says, “Ride with me?”

Your eyes widen at the offer, “Oh I don’t want to inconvenience you, or get you in trouble.”

Seonghwa laughs, “I’m 33 years old, who am I going to be in trouble with? Besides, I really wanted you to come. It’s not an inconvenience.”

You think about it and ask, “But what if your fans see a random woman leaving with you? Wouldn’t that be a problem?”

He lifts your chin so you meet his eyes, and puts his hand back down, “Why would that be a problem?”

At this point your cheeks are red, “I-I just thought you had to be really careful who you’re seen with.”

Seonghwa smiles, “Nah, not anymore at least. Atiny knows we are grown men. Besides, I don’t think it would be that crazy if we were seen together. You made a really big donation to my hometown, articles are already being written. If anything, people will think we’ve become friends after your generous donation.”

You try to ignore the fact that articles were being written about your donation. You weren’t expecting all this attention. You decide to take a leap.

“Okay. I’ll ride with you,” You say to Seonghwa.

He smiles brightly, “Great.”

“Are you two done now? As much as I love the flirting going on, y/n is still my sister and it makes me want to barf,” Emma says with her hands on her hips.

You lightly smack her arm and whine, “Why do you have to make everything weird?!”

Emma laughs, “I’ll see you at the after party okay?” She looks at Seonghwa, “Look I know you’re my bias and everything, but y/n is my sister. You better make sure she gets there safely.”

You smile at your sister and Seonghwa places his hand on her shoulder, “You have my word. She’s safe with me.”

Emma nods and Nari is smirking at the two of you. They leave with the group, and a part of you is internally screaming. You look at Seonghwa to find he’s already looking at you. He nods his head to the direction you need to go, gently grabs your hand, and leads you through the crowd of people. After stopping multiple times for Seonghwa to say bye to people who attended, you finally make it to the back of the building.

You see the line of black SUVs just waiting for you. What you weren’t expecting were the lines of cameras that were also waiting for you.

Seonghwa says, “We just need to wait for my manager, and then we can head out.”

You smile and nod, your conversation interrupted.

“Well well well. What do we have here, Seonghwa?” Wooyoung says with a smirk.

Seonghwa rolls his eyes, “The staff SUVs were full.”

Wooyoung not fully convinced, “Ah. Got it. Well I’m Wooyoung! I’ve heard all about you tonight.”

You smile at him, “Hopefully nothing bad. I’m y/n, it’s great to meet you!”

“There you are! I was looking for you Woo- oh hey! You’re the girl Seonghwa won’t shut up about!” San says with a big smile.

You and Seonghwa look at each other and laugh awkwardly.

You save Seonghwa from having to respond, “Hi San! I’m y/n, it’s nice to meet you!”

After a few minutes, the topic of you and Seonghwa has finally died down. The boys talked about the night, and how happy they were with the turn out. Seonghwa gets the okay from his manager, and now you are about to go to the car.

Seonghwa looks at you, “I apologize for the cameras. Will you be okay?”

You smile, “Yeah! Don’t worry about me.”

Seonghwa, San, and Wooyoung go out first. Hoping the paparazzi focus their cameras mainly on them. You’re able to sneak behind them without it being too much of a spectacle. You wait by the cars for them to be done with the cameras. You weren’t sure which car to get in.

They’re walking away from the cameras, and Seonghwa waves you over to the right car. He opens the door for you, and you both get in. It’s just you, Seonghwa, and the driver.

“I hope that wasn’t too terrible,” He says.

You shake your head, “Not at all! It ended up being super easy.”

Seonghwa chuckles, “Good. I want you to be comfortable.”

You blush and respond, “I really am okay. You don’t have to worry. I actually feel bad, because you’re doing too much for me!”

Seonghwa looks into your eyes and asks, “Have I not been clear about my intentions?”

You nearly gulp at the question. There’s just no fucking way this is happening right now. As you are internally panicking, Seonghwa presses the partition button. Now it’s just you and him.

You ask quietly, “What do you mean?”

Seonghwa fixes your strap…again but this time his hand lingers, “I am very attracted to you, y/n. I haven’t been able to take my eyes off of you all night. I have this feeling, that maybe you feel the same way about me.” You are swimming in his big brown eyes, probably the most beautiful you’ve ever seen. He continues, “Can we see where the night goes, together?”

Chapter 11 - One Hell of a Night

You gasp and choke on your spit at Erwin’s suggestion. Your face is completely red, and you are coughing as you try to get your breath back.

Levi pats your back, “Way to go, Erwin. You nearly killed her.”

Erwin chuckles, “I’m sorry, Y/n. Are you okay?”

You take a deep breath and attempt to smile, “Oh I’m fine. You just surprised me.”

Erwin asks, “So are you not interested? It’s okay if you’re not.”

You blurt, “No! I’m not saying that I’m not interested, I just wasn’t expecting you to say that.”

Erwin stands up and walks over to where you and Levi are sitting. He sits beside you, you are now in between the two men.

Erwin smirks, “So does that mean you are interested?”

You look down and whisper, “M-Maybe.”

Erwin places a hand on your chin, bringing your face back up to make eye contact.

“We don’t have to have sex. We can just mess around if that makes you uncomfortable”, Erwin says softly.

You gulp. Every part of you is screaming yes. This was honestly your dream scenario, but you didn’t want to seem too excited.”

“Y-Yeah. I’m okay with that”, You respond meekly.

Erwin smiles and looks at the person behind you, “Levi.”

Levi grabs the ends of your sweatshirt and pulls it up over your head. Erwin’s big hands wrap around the band of your shorts. You lift your butt so he can take them off. Now you’re in your bra and underwear.

Erwin starts undressing and you turn to Levi. You can see the faint blush on his cheeks as he looks at you. Since he was already in only his underwear, you can see the massive bulge forming. Erwin puts a hand on your thigh and you look back at him.

He asks, “Are you sure you’re okay with this?”

You nod, “Yeah sorry. I’m just really nervous.”

Erwin smiles fondly, “You don’t need to be nervous. Levi and I will take good care of you.”

This makes your stomach do flips, your heart pounding.

Erwin leans in and your lips meet. He is gently kissing you, while Levi leans in and starts kissing your neck. You are soaking wet at the thought of being in between these two beautiful men.

Levi kisses a sensitive spot on your neck and you let out a moan. Erwin becomes rougher and you two are making out. Levi unclasps your bra from behind and leaves kisses down your naked back.

“My turn”, Levi growls.

He puts an arm around your waist and pulls you both to the arm of the couch. This way he could lean back comfortably. He pulls you so your back is laying on his front, he turns your head to the side so you’re facing each other. He immediately puts his tongue in your mouth, and his kisses leave you dizzy with pleasure.

Both you and Levi’s legs are propped up, Erwin carefully takes off all three of your underwear. Erwin lays on his belly in between your open legs, and starts rubbing your throbbing clit.

“Ahh-ah. Mmm that feels so good”, You moan.

Levi brings his hands around your body and grabs both of your boobs. He begins squeezing them and rubbing the nipples. All while Erwin is still rubbing your clit.

You can’t help the moans that fall out of your mouth. You were in complete bliss.

“Fuck you’re beautiful”, Erwin moans.

He then begins to lick your clit. A gasp escapes your mouth, and Levi starts kissing you again. Erwin begins penetrating you with his tongue, and Levi is still rubbing your tits. You feel like you’re on the brink.

“I’m almost-almost”, You whine.

You don’t get to finish speaking because you were too busy finishing all over Erwin’s mouth. Once he was done cleaning you up with his tongue, he sat up and wiped off his face with his hand. You couldn’t help but look at his cock, it was enormous and in need of release.

You lean forward and move out of Levi’s embrace. You motion for Erwin to lay back on the couch, and you crawl in between his legs. You wrap your hand around Erwin’s dick and start slowly pumping.

“Oh fuck”, Erwin immediately moans.

You take a few deep breaths and start licking his cock. You were really going to need your gag reflex to disappear to take all of Erwin. You put his cock in your mouth and slowly start moving down. Relaxing your jaw to the best of your abilities.

You were about halfway down when you became a little worried that it wouldn’t all fit. You feel hands on your ass and they pull you up so your ass is sticking out. You don’t have to turn around to know who that is.

You refocus on Erwin and finally reach his base. You start slowly moving your head up and down, holding back the tears that are forming.

“Mmmm, Y/n. Shit”, Erwin moans.

As you find a steady pace, you feel fingers enter you. You moan on Erwin’s cock, the vibrations making Erwin moan. Levi starts ramming you with his fingers. You probably look pathetic. It all feels so fucking good. Levi’s fingers and Erwin’s dick, you never want it to end.

“Ahh. Y/n, I’m going to cum”, Erwin says breathlessly.

You prepare yourself, you want to swallow it since he swallowed you.

Soon you feel a warm sensation hit the back of your throat. You try your best not to think about it and swallow it as best as you can.

The three of you are laying on each other panting, but then you realize that Levi hasn’t had a chance to cum yet. You sit up and Levi does as well. You see that his cock is still rock hard and you turn to him.

“Uhh I’m sorry. I hate to miss out on anymore fun, but I’m fucking exhausted. I won’t be much help in getting Levi off, so do you two mind if I head out?”, Erwin says and you can see how sleepy he really is.

“Oh of course not. Thank you for, uh, everything”, You awkwardly laugh.

Erwin smiles and kisses you on the cheek, “I should be thanking you.”

He gets up and quickly puts his clothes back on. Before you know it he’s walking towards the door.

He turns around and says, “Have fun you two.” Erwin winks and heads out the door.

Honestly you were a little surprised by Erwin’s sudden request to leave, but maybe he was trying to give you and Levi alone time. Erwin is truly the best.

Levi coughs to break the silence, “Um we don’t have to keep doing this if you’re tired.”

You’re quick to reply, “No! It’s okay. Let’s go to my bedroom though, this couch isn’t very comfortable.”

You stand and walk to your bedroom. Levi follows after you, he stares mesmerized at your ass the whole time. You both enter your bedroom and Levi sits in the middle of the bed. You crawl over to him and gently grab his cock. It wasn’t as hard as it was a few minutes ago, but it won’t take long for it to be ready.

You lay on your stomach in between Levi’s legs. You slowly pump Levi’s dick and you shower it in kisses. His moans are driving you crazy, you want to hear more.

You put Levi’s cock in your mouth and start moving your head up and down. Levi grabs your hair and throws his head back.

“Fuck”, He moans out. “Wait”, He whines.

You lift your head up and take his dick out of your mouth.

“What’s wrong?” You ask, clearly confused.

Levi looks shy, “I wanted to try something else.”

You’re curious, “Oh, what did you want to try?”

Levi looks at you, “Will you sit on me?”

Your eyes widen, “Uh-um yeah! Let me get a condom.”

You’re trying your damnedest to play it cool but you’re freaking the fuck out. This will be your first time actually having sex with Levi. You had been wanting to do this for weeks now. You grab the condom and crawl back over to Levi. You straddle him and he rolls the condom down his hard cock.

You line up his cock with your entry, “Are you ready?”

He responds with a grunt.

You slowly sit down on him and you grind on him for a few seconds while you’re adjusting to him being inside you.

“Fuck I need you”, Levi moans.

He flips you on your back and is now on top of you. He begins thrusting into you and you are scratching the shit out of his back.

“Ahhh-ah, Levi. Shit that feels so good”, You whine.

He brings his lips to you and you are making out hard as he is thrusting into you. The sounds of his moans are only bringing you more pleasure.

He puts one of your legs up on his shoulder and continues ramming into you. Holy fuck it hurts so good. He also starts rubbing your clit. Between him fingering you earlier and now this, you can feel your orgasm coming like a freight train.

“Fuck Levi! Harder!”, You shout.

Levi growls and starts ramming you so hard you feel like you can see stars. You scream out and cum all over his dick.

“Oh shit, babe. That feels so good”, Levi moans.

After a few more pumps Levi cums in you. You both are trying desperately to catch your breath. At this point it’s 3am and the exhaustion from the day is setting in for both of you.

You sleepily snuggle up to Levi and he places a kiss on your head. Normally you would never be able to fall asleep without cleaning up after sex, but you are so exhausted you don’t even think about getting out of bed.

Both you and Levi fall fast asleep, in each other’s arms.

Next Chapter

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