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You are allowed to be weak, at least with me. You told me that, do you remember? I tell you the same now. —Akk

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POV Sand

So even if he comes to beg at my house, at P'Yo's store, or even on campus, this time I won't let him go easily. This goes beyond drugs; it's about him having the audacity to come between me and that Freddie Mercury guy. Even if he says, "I'm sorry, I was wrong and I know I upset you," it won't work this time.

His apology misses the mark. He still doesn't understand why I'm so angry.

"You almost locked me up, you almost put us all in jail!" I finally told him, or else this idiot wouldn't have a clue!

"I'm sorry... I didn't think about it much. I won't do it again, Sand" "You really didn't think much, idiot. I was there when the car accident happened, I took care of you when he broke your shoulder, and I accompanied you to the parole office. I even I promised to help you with community service. And this is how you pay me?"

He went silent and I finally released myself on him. "Why don't you do these stunts with Mew? Why am I always the one you come running to when you're in trouble? Do you ever think about me when you're happy? Can you for a moment think about what could happen to you-"

I was silent there. If I had kept going, it would have seemed foolish. Ray stood there,

looking regretful. I realized that he was not proud of his actions.

I sighed deeply and continued. "When Mew went out with Top, even though you knew that one day he might end up in pain, how did you feel?" I paused for a moment because suddenly I felt like tears were coming to my eyes again.

"At that time, you felt like you were just a backup lover, didn't you?"

"I never saw you like this"

"Then I'm just an option... you make me feel that way," I said, my voice getting louder with each word. "You only choose to do things that hurt you. And the day you have a problem, I have to come and clean up the mess. How do you think I should feel?"

Ray remained silent. I decided to walk away because I didn't want him to see me cry. As I turned to leave, Ray stepped in and blocked my path. I had no choice but to push him away, knowing I might hurt his shoulder.

"If you don't love me, if you don't believe me and you only worship Mew, then let me go, Ray."

I didn't care anymore, I didn't even want to touch it. I pushed him away once again with all my strength and walked in a different direction. That's when Ray hugged me from behind. Fortunately, he couldn't see my face from that angle. As he struggled to free me from his embrace, tears ran down my cheeks.

In the end, I gave in to his embrace, surrendering to my own desires. I stood there as Ray hugged me, his face buried in my neck. He whispered softly: "I told you, I won't let you go, Sand..."

A selfish thought crossed my mind. Why did I always find selfish people in my life? Everyone saw me as a backup. Even my ex-boyfriend, with whom I had a relationship for a long time and whom I loved as if he were my last, saw me like that. And now, Ray, who believed that he could understand me and accept me into his world, also believed that I wasn't worth enough.

"Isn't this pretty pathetic? Do I have to beg you directly, Ray?" My voice was both soft and hoarse, reluctant to escape my lips. "I can't go on like this. So it's time to choose someone."

He remained silent, refusing to answer. I allowed him to hug me for an indefinite amount of time. I'm not sure if anyone would witness this. But as his heart beat against my back, I found myself trapped in the same endless cycle, unable to move forward, and then back again. It felt like an endless, endless loop.

Akk: Don't mess me with that gay shit.

Ayan: WHAT GAY SHIT? INTERNATIONAL LAW?!

ayan casually waking up and choosing torment bonus akk refusing to be tormented:

[The Eclipse episode 1: A summary.]