And Actually The Whole Subject So There's That - Tumblr Posts

On Mildly Childish Feuding

so I had to go through all my old graded papers tonight because one of my college apps requires a graded, analytical paper from an english class either this year or last year, and we haven't written anything really this year. [you know, except the god awful 12 page book thingy that's due tomorrow.] so I had to go through and look at the lack of feedback I got, and the pretentious attached to the feedback i did get, and see my old teacher's loppy smiley handwriting I always wanted to punch in the face when I came to a realization:

I still really, really have problems with my English teacher from last year.

i have reasons, but i think i'm mainly just radiating a massive wall of dislike and intolerance for smugness. i disliked her as a teacher and a person, and it wasn't like i did poorly in her class or anything. i just hated, hated, going to that class every day. and now I have to use one of the fucking papers she barely graded so that i can get into college. assuming i have a chance at getting into college. since I ignored her advice to only take two ap classes.

Anyways, this kind of solid, personal and professional dislike is an awful reflection on me. I don't know what my problem is with being a bigger person but I just cannot get past my anger and unhappiness. Which is dumb, cause anything I have that kind of emotion towards gets power over me. So I just never see her and call it good and when people ask me how she is as a teacher I tell them to ask someone else because I am in no place to make an analysis that agrees with the majority of students.

wow i look like a wreck