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Dorm- 01/06/24

I moved into my dorm today and it is 10pm and i'm sitting on my couch in my childhood home playing mario kart with my family cause I couldn't stop crying cause I had so much anxiety (I also had a tummy ache, also from anxiety). luckily I live 35 minutes from my dorm and my first class is on monday. I will, unfortunately, have to go tomorrow so I have a bit of a tummy ache about that but I don't have to leave my dorm cause my class is online. I think that this last day at home as helped a lot and I'm less anxious, there's also the fact that I will be home in 3-4 days (wednesday or thursday) since all but 2 of my classes are online- the wonder life of a baking & pastry arts student, all but my lab days are online. there was also the fact that I got my room changed last minute cause I wasn't with my original rommies that was sent via email like 2 weeks ago! they gave us the others emails so we can start connecting and they changed it! I don't do well with change (and moving houses was already SUCH a big change) that it completely threw me off. its a good thing that their just down the hall from me.

I was (and still slightly am) so embarrassed about coming home after move in day cause no one was going home and I am 19, I should be able to stay on my own. I think I have separation anxiety from my parents, Even as a child I was terrified to stay on my own. I was like 10 and I had a sleepover at my grandma's house and I had to go home at like midnight because I was just crying and homesick so much. and when I did Girl Guides I also had to be picked up cause I just wouldn't stop crying. Maybe I should see a therapist, this can't be healthy.

anywho, I hate being an adult. this shit is scary

From the Neil Gaiman: Dream Dangerously :) (you can watch here in US or with US vpn :) <3)

Terry Pratchett: Neil once said, 'Your fans all look jolly. And my fans all look as if they're about to commit suicide. Wouldn't it be nice if we could get them to marry?'