Anxiety Tics - Tumblr Posts

i think i forget sometimes that not everyone tics. not everyone even knows what tics are or that you can’t always suppress/mask them.

i’ve been having a huge spike of them recently (probably due to graduation being around the corner) and i’m constantly making grunts and noises. they are annoying, they do hurt my throat, i do get stuck doing them until they ‘feel right’ and finally i’m set free of a loop.

but the child i’m babysitting and my brother asked why i keep making noises. i hadn’t realized i must’ve been making them. but i got flustered; how do i describe to these kids the concept of nearly not being able to control your own body sometimes? being stuck repeating the same tic until your brain thinks it’s okay to stop?

* i’d qualify for provisional tic disorder, but i’ve never been diagnosed bc it wasn’t ‘impeding my life.’ my pediatrician actually told us that if they get worse to tell her/get help on it. i was meant to get diagnosed for it bc it was bothering me but yk lol

Anybody else suffer from echolalia or palilalia?

(repetition of words others have said or you have said, somewhat or fully uncontrollably)

I'm not sure if it's a recent (as in the last year) anxiety tic or some other underlying neoroatypical thing but nonetheless it's annoying

I find it comforting or enjoyable, so sometimes it's on purpose sometimes its not. I'm also hard of hearing so I repeat things to confirm what people have said

My boyfriend seems to think I'm mocking him?? He's been getting annoyed with it the last week so I feel bad about it