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sometimes i just get really mad at how characters who are impulsive/rely on brute force/aren't very intellectual/are slow to understand situations just get slowly pushed into the "dumb one" label and not in an affectionate way

i hate it for itself but i also hate it because i know that person

that's my best friend i knew my whole life

and maybe i didn't have the labels "autism" and "adhd," i just understood that he was slow to pick up on things and he always had trouble in school, and he had to go outside and hike and play with weapons to get out his energy (and i loved doing that with him, that was our crossover, we were Grand Adventurers, warriors) and yeah he was impulsive and we laughed about the crazy things he did and i knew the only thing keeping me from the same was fear, all the tightly gripping anxiety i thought was normal as a kid

but i also knew he was strategic, quick on reflexes, and wise when he had a minute to think, and he knew every nature survival fact i could wonder about, and he had memorized all the bird species in the area, and most importantly he was my best friend, someone i even thought i was in love with back when being in love sounded like a cool thing and i couldn't wait to label my next exciting emotion as that, and somewhere deep down i felt that no one was ever going to see in him what i saw in him

and then media proves that to me

they portray me as the special talented intellectual whose life might be in shambles but whose brain is invaluable and incredible

and they portray my friend as the dumb one. the one who gets into fights just because. the one who's too slow to be helpful. the one who it's ok to make fun of, as if there is nothing under the surface to hear it and feel it.

what i get to see of myself is overdone and romanticized, but at least it has depth.

what i see of my friend is that nobody bothers to dive.

everyday i wake up and i think about autistic billy loomis.

No one will convince me otherwise

Stanford Pines from Gravity Falls is Autistic!