Autumn Is Tired - Tumblr Posts
HEY GUESS WHO SHOULDNT BE AWAKE AND REALLY WANTS TO TALK TO PEOPLE RIGHT NOW
THATS RIGHT ITS ME
Friend: Hey Autumn, are you okay?
Me: *having just gone through several different and extremely strong emotions in the past few minutes* ...no...
My homework today is the weirdest thing:
like why the heck does it think I know that? I never understand why people wanna be my friends how am I supposed to know what other people think of me
also this:
I feel like this is a trap. Someone help.
Recent Gender-y Things I Feel Like Telling The Webernet About
So I’ve been looking at a lot of terms and stuff and seeing how they’d fit me and it’s really fun because there are so many options and you can really just use whatever if you feel like it describes you.
I’ve found that the three terms I so far feel like describe me are non-binary, agender, and demiboy :). I think I might be genderfluid with these identities because sometimes I’ll really strongly relate to one and then other times I’ll strongly relate to another (also, last week there was a lot of fluidity because I went from unsure to demiboy to agender to unsure again to agender again and then back to demiboy). The cool thing about this is that my pronouns wouldn’t change which makes everything a lot easier (still always gonna be they/them).
I recently discovered this website which is super cool! It’s called pronouns dressing room and its where you can try out new pronouns or new names and such and I highly recommend trying it out to anyone still exploring their gender identity. http://www.pronouns.failedslacker.com/
I actually used that website to try out a different name which I am very unsure about. My current name doesn’t really cause me dysphoria but sometimes I prefer the name I was trying out just because its more gender neutral to me (the name is August btw so it really wouldn’t be changing much). It’s already one of my (many) nicknames so it probably wouldn’t take long to get used to which is kind of nice. Once again, I’m still really unsure about it, I might start asking a few friends to start using it just to test it out and see if I like it, but for now you can keep calling me Autumn.
So yeah, that’s pretty much all I had to tell you.
Thanks for reading and to anyone else who’s questioning their gender identity I wish you the best of luck in finding something that fits you! <3
Friend: So how did your night go?
Me: I spent the entire time crying over a videogame.
Friend: oh.
Friend: ...
Friend: Was it OneShot?
Me: Yeah.
I have like so many projects I want to work on and so many things I want to make.
Some of them are super-big-won't-happen-for-a-really-long-time-if-they-even-do-happen projects while others are hey-I-can-start-work-on-this-now-if-I-really-want-to-because-I-have-the-skills-I-need-for-it projects and I love all of them.
I just have like so many ideas for things I enjoy, like I wanna make a cartoon, a video game, a webcomic, and a bunch of short stories. A lot of these I've already started planning for too and it just make me so happy that I'm actually starting to work on these super huge projects.
Anyways, I was just happy about the realization that all these far-off things aren't as far-off anymore and I really hope I get time to work on these soon.