But For Now It Does - Tumblr Posts
1 year ago
something i realized over the years is that despite wanting to kill myself, i don't actually wanna die. far from it actually. i want to live. i want to experience all the things i always wanted to do. i want to see the world. i want to look in the mirror one day and say "im happy i stayed". i want to get better. i want to live a life free from the shackles this mental illness has kept me in. but sometimes that darkness in my brain just overtakes that hope for a better future and all i'm left with is the thought that it will never get better.
— i want to live, but not like this.
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mental health
letting myself be dark on main
I’ve been struggling alone for so long
im just tired
it will eventually get better
but I just feel invisible and alone rn
sadly this is fully relevant since I have tried
many times
but I’m still here
I’m sure I’ve lost some of my nine lives
maybe one day this won’t hurt as much
but for now it does
I would love nothing more than to have someone just
be here
but no one is and I’m alone
same as it ever was