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I want a painsub that doesn’t want sex. Uninterested, repulsed, really into denial, maybe getting their fuck-kicks elsewhere. Don’t care, doesn’t matter to me, the point is I want someone I can beat and torment and kiss better but who would never ask me some silly shit like “aren’t you gonna fuck me now” or “will you please make me cum”. Someone who truly finds purpose in enduring what I dish out, in being a punching bag, the object of my violent urges, my own squirming crying stress relief toy. I want to see the fear in someone’s eyes when we both know this isn’t the foreplay, this is the intimacy. Your blood isn’t a means to an end, it’s the point. Your pain isn’t a side effect, it’s the whole goddamn reason I’m looking at you. Your crying doesn’t turn me on, it finishes me off. I need someone I can fuck up without fucking.

https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2014/08/the-beautyhappiness-connection/375678/

I feel like this explains my entire life trajectory and confirms what I thought I knew about living in the first place

you're laughing. charles dickens had a son named plorn and you're laughing

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