COLLEGE Is Hard - Tumblr Posts

i didn't expect psychology courses to be so hard! it is understandable though, since this one is about lab in psychology. psychophysics and related disciplines seem so intriguing and fun from afar, but it takes me a whole day to understand a concepts in it well. unfortunately i missed this exam due to anxiety issues and i hope i'll get to retake it. i'll admit it is fun to learn this study though it's pretty fascinating that so many people have actually went in such depth about it and actually figured some things out ~

🎧 ~ this night by groovyroom

To my like 6 followers, if I did art and or fic commissions would yall share it so I could get some sales? I'm getting a little desperate in my money situation.

Well I'm gonna do it. Writing commissions now open! I may also be persuaded to do art but I don't think you want my crappy art style. Anything from 500 to 7000 words with any sfw topic, be it fanfiction or an original concept with provided context.. I am currently in the writers society at my college and intern as the student editor on my school's magazine as well as taking several creative writing classes and being published in the previously mentioned magazine and winning second prize for prose. If you want a preview of my work check out either my wattpad at TheMiraculousMatt or my ao3 at GoatDuck. Ao3 has more recent and better quality works while wattpad has older yet longer and more works.

DM me for details!

Apologies if there’s an over saturation of like old art for the upcoming month. Thought having a scheduled drawing every 3 days would be a good way of getting them on here and also not stressing during the last stretch of this semester of college ! The old ones have a tag with “ahoy! old art incoming” and ones I’m doing on the fly don’t have that and I don’t feel like changing the schedule I made 😵‍💫😵‍💫

In a really fucking frustrating state of being right now and SOMETHINGS gotta give but I’m just… stuck.

I’m fucking STUCK and I can’t get any work done for anything, no matter how much I do (or don’t) want to do that thing.

Like right now, today, all I’ve wanted is to WRITE.

Just… something, anything.

I WANT to write and work on literally any of my fics since I haven’t written anything in three months

And I ALSO actually WANT to write the Final Research Paper that I have to write for one of my courses that only has to be around 3800 words (including footnotes) and is officially due Next Saturday.

The draft version of that paper was due last Saturday. I haven’t sent the Professor a draft yet. Because I don’t even have the paper STARTED. Despite having had my topic picked out for months. Despite having done a fuck ton of reading and compiling of sources. Despite having a ton of passion and care for the subject matter.

Because I open the word document and my eyes just fucking glaze over. I lose all semblance of coherent thought or ability to connect my ideas in a manner that is fitting academia.

So I think, okay, step back, take a break, maybe I need a palette cleanser from writing my LAST big paper that took my three fucking months to write and was also handed in late— I’ll try and crank out a new chapter for one of my fics, since I’ve had the plot points planned out for nearly all my WIPs for months now. But I open those documents and it’s just the same fucking thing.

Nothing gets typed. Nothing gets done. I waste hours feeling restless and unable to settle on one singular activity because I want to do something but nothing I actually do is right and so I continue to feel unsettled and restless and it’s fucking annoying.

And I want to fucking cry and freak out and I don’t even KNOW how to BEGIN to apologize to my professor for the complete radio silence I’ve gone on them about this paper with the not-turning-in the draft and seemingly ignoring their email about my lack of submission when really I’ve done nothing but think about that email for 4 days because I didn’t want to answer without a draft to send but I STILL haven’t fucking been able to get anything done.

Fuck.

Just fuck.

The fact that I can finish two Marvel movies while waiting in-between classes means it’s too long of a wait. I’m dying and it has only been one day. ☠️

feeling gut wrenchingly lonely when you’re surrounded by ppl all the time <<<

A little update for everyone!

Been super, super busy with classes starting and moving into college, so please forgive me for being inactive 🩷 I’ll be working on more content soon, so stay tuned!

My Lords heights!

Ft: Blue lord cause baby

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