Day At The River - Tumblr Posts
Yesterday was so beautiful.
The past couple weeks, I’ve been feeling a depressive slump in my subconscious. MUCH easier to manage than previous bouts of mental health challenges (and I am unbelievably grateful to have found that light I craved, the outside of the tunnel), but still jarring and demanding to sit in the forefront of my mind (I won’t let it!!!).
I am trying to remind myself that it is okay for me to sit in it. That I am no longer facing “the end of my world” and that I am in a place, now, where I can spread my wet wings. That there is lessened fear in the vulnerability. That I do not need to be prepared to take flight.
I have a very beautiful, lucky, and full life. That is such an intense privilege to wield.
Spending the day with my best friends, wading in the river, collecting shells from the floor, making not one but four cups of tea, suspending our bodies in the deep end of the pool (what a lovely thing to be submitted to a body of water), hugs where you rest your heads on each others shoulders; all the while, knowing that these are the people who helped me grow. Who’ve shared the experience of our universe expanding. Who have loved me each day I have known them, and who I have loved back.
It feels so safe to be wrapped in this, thank you thank you thank you. Today I will return to working, I have a few commissions that I’m chipping away at (and am really excited for the outcome!!), and an exciting project come late summer ;)
I hope everyone has had a lovely day, or has at least found contentment. And I hope the universe bends down to hug you, soon.
Some highlights of yesterdays river trip
• letting the fish suck at our skin. When they felt safe, we had over ten fish each on our hands! Creating a momentary symbiotic relationship. Trust in nature
• a kid in the family by us yelling “we are all connected!!” (Referring to their tubes, but true)
• we were skipping rocks, and then the groups near us began skipping rocks. It was such a sweet human moment
• the feeling of drizzling rain on already wet skin.
•we somehow chose the best fruit ever. Seriously the cantaloupe MELTED in my mouth. The cherries were so dark and sweet.
•getting to watch Aleric in his element (fishing)
•looking up at the caves along the cliff face, the same ones I imagined climbing into as a little girl.
•we got to see lots of cool bugs !!
There’s more (there always is :3) , but I have to pee! And this caption is long enough