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So, something I've come to realize, is that I'm not actually genderfluid like I thought I was. I'm definitely a trans guy through and through (he/him), and it's been a little hard for me to come to terms with (thank you traditional gender roles and how that applies to life in the church /sarcasm).
I think, for me personally, I was using the term genderfluid as a way to not have to come out completely. If I believed my own gender to be fluid, that means there would be a part of me that was a woman, and I could go about my life pretending that my individual femininity meant I'm a woman in some way shape or form even though I never really felt that way, and that seemed to be what a few members of my family wanted, and I just wanted to please everyone and not rock the boat.
But I've come to realize I can't keep hiding behind terms that simply don't fit me. I can't lie to myself about who I am, and more importantly, I can't lie to God about who I am, either. He already knows every part of me. He knows my heart and soul, even when I try to hide it. But I think that means He also loves every part of me, even this part -- after all, He is the one who made me.
I'm thankful for my journey of self discovery. I feel like so many things have finally started to connect about me when before I felt like nothing about me made sense. I feel closer to my Lord and Saviour than I ever have, probably in my entire life.
I don't know why God made me or any other person trans (weather they be binary or otherwise) or gay or bi or anything else, but I trust that it's a part of His plan for me, and I rejoice in the truth of His everlasting love.
This Pride Month I pray that all of my LGBTQIA+ brothers and sisters and siblings in Christ feel loved and accepted and confident in not only who they are, but also in the love of our God. He made us exactly who we're meant to be, even if our journeys look a little different next to other Christians. I pray everyone stays safe, whether you're out marching in a parade or silently celebrating in your heart.
Happy Pride Month! God bless! 🏳️🌈💕
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to seperate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
~ Romans 8:38-39
(That's probably my favorite Bible verse for when I need the reminder that nothing can make God stop loving me, and I'm sure other LGBTQIA+ Christian's could use the reminder, too ❤)