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Day 1023: Why can't you understand where I am coming from?

I know I'm being selfish again but why can't you see I'm also hurting? Why can't you see I'm also trying? It's hard and stressful. Really stressful. It's depressing. And here you are telling me all my weakness. It's like adding salt to this fucking wound I have. Why can't we just ignore it and just move forward? Why do you always have to brought it up? Why can't you just be happy? Why don't you just give me a pat in the shoulder for even trying to wake up every morning and breathe? Why don't I get smiles from you? Until when am I supposed to smile even though I am not happy? Until when am I going to be like this? I want to live a peaceful simple life. I want to live with all of you. My dream is just to be with all of you. But every time you get a chance to hurt me you always do. Sometimes, how I wish you'll get tired of it and let me breathe. Just let me feel I'll be fine. Tell me it's going to be okay. Just comfort me or just listen to what I really want to say. Look at me and tell me that you'll never leave me. Promise me that I will never feel alone again. Assure me that I am not by myself. Reassure me that you need my existence... That I have a purpose... And that you guys still want me to be around. At times like this, I don't need more bullshit. I need an ear who'll listen to me... to what I want to say. I need a friend who'll keep me company. I need someone who'll constantly remind me how precious life is. I'm done with all the bullshit. I just want to be happy.